Dad:
Pasta was an easy subject. It had always been their comfort food and they both knew it. It was the thing Draco made when they got back from Astoria’s funeral. Narcissa offered to cook three times, she was even staying over at the house, but Draco refused and when she didn’t want to listen he just walked into the kitchen and did it. It was done an hour early and he had to reheat it for dinner, but it was decent. Asking if Scorpius wanted pasta was also asking if he felt if it was a day for pasta. It was. “Cheese sauce,” he confirmed. “I almost want to say bring wine. Nothing strong, but one glass wouldn’t be so bad. You can bring one from the cellar.” All of that already confirmed he wasn’t the only one struggling, but hearing Scorpius admit it aloud was important to Draco. It meant he still felt comfortable enough discussing things like this with his father. “I know,” he told his son softly. “I think it’s the atmosphere. It seems to be similar at every funeral I’ve ever attended. And of course -” He paused, looked up and away and then back Scorpius, “the fact that a mother died. That bothers me the most.” When asked how he was, Draco sighed briefly. He pressed his lips together and let himself take in Scorpius. People always told him Scorpius looked like him. He didn’t see it. People just saw the obvious, the grey eyes and the blond hair, but Draco felt like he saw the details. “I’m managing,” he said then. “As one does at a funeral that isn’t from their loved one. What about you? How are you holding up?”
Scorpius had known what his father meant when he asked about the food. It was something easy to eat when his stomach was tying in knots as well, a further advantage. Hearing bring wine was music to his ears, given the occasion. He hadn’t had a drink when he got here, wanting to keep a clear head, but the thought of a decent glass of wine with dinner and maybe after now sounded appealing. “I’ll stop by the manor and visit Grandmother,” he said. “I was going to anyway, but I could bring a bottle of white from there?”
The softness in his father’s voice told Scorpius that he was seen, that he was understood. It also made him glad that they’d planned to spend that evening together, because he cared too much about his father to leave him alone. “It’s kind of stifling,” he said quietly, careful to keep it so only they could hear one another. “Like a weight on my chest somehow. Does it feel the same way for you, or different?” The glance away was something he’d seen before, when his father was addressing something painful. This time was no different, as it turned out. Mom. “Yeah, me too,” he said softly, reached out and briefly slung an arm around his dad’s shoulders before letting go, a show of affection that he gave easily. “Neither of us would wish it on others.” They’d already lived through it. They knew what it was like, how days could pass both too quickly and too slowly without Astoria.
Hearing the words I’m managing was as good as could be hoped for at that moment, and confirmed what Scorpius already thought. Not doing well, not by any means, but getting through it because it was something that needed to be done, a show of respect given. When the question was returned to him, though, Scorpius chewed his lower lip a little. “Worried about you and Al,” he said eventually. “He’s running around trying to do right by everyone else, and if today makes me remember, I think it’s worse for you.” With a scowl then, he added, “Don’t really like how some people seem to think now is the appropriate time to talk about why either. How could anyone possibly think that’s all right?” It was disrespectful at minimum, not to mention utterly ignorant towards the close family and friends who were grieving.
















