( how fickle my heart )

Jade 28 She/Her selective 1x1 multi-muse indie 18+ mun/muse

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Sooner rather than later Cassie would feel terrible formaking it seem like Gideon deserved to feel even an ounce of guilt for whatshe’d gone through. The Clave had done it to her and it was the Clave alonethat would eventually have to pay for it. Gideon had gone to try and stop theClave before they did more damage to the supernatural world and she’dunderstood that. Maybe if she hadn’t been so terrified of venturing into theoutside world after being turned she would’ve gone with him. Apparently, she’dbeen right all along to be afraid. Maybe the Clave would’ve caught her muchsooner if she’d dared to go out in the world sooner. Or maybe she would’ve beenbetter prepared to defend herself. There was no way to know what could’ve been.

She crossed her arms over her chest, a small motion done toshield herself from the world around her. Her gaze tore away from Gideon and fellto the ground. It was too hard to hold his gaze when she saw the hurt in hiseyes. The hurt she’d caused. “There’s nothing that can change what happenednow.” Cassie could feel tears starting to form, an occurrence that had becomecommon, and she tried to hurriedly wipe them away before they spilled over. “Theycan’t kill me so I’m still alive.” Once she was sure she didn’t have any tearstrailing down her face she looked up to finally meet his gaze again.

“Are you staying? Or are you just here to see how I’m doingand then you need to go again?” Cassie sure she wanted to hear his answer. Notif Gideon needed to go again. It was selfish, but he’d left once and right now,if he left again, it would hurt even more. 

At her words, Gid sighed and shoved his hands into the pocket of his jeans to keep from fidgeting as he stayed propped against the door frame. He knew Cassie was right, there wasn’t anything he could change, but if he could take her pain upon himself, he’d do it without hesitation. He hated seeing her so hurt and as she tried to cover the tears that threatened to fall, he held his ground, not wanting to overstep, despite his urge to close the distance between them. “I know I can’t change it but I wish there was more that I could do for you.”

He felt his chest tighten as she questioned him and knowing that she had to even ask him hurt. It made sense she would question whether he was here to stay or not though. He was the one who’d followed Dara’s orders and left Hollow Grove, left Cassie. He’d left the one thing that brought him any sort of true happiness in the world and she’d suffered and he hadn’t been here. Gideon wasn’t sure he’d ever be able to forgive himself for leaving her, even though in his head, he knew it wasn’t his fault, just as much as it wasn’t Cassie’s fault. 

“I’m here to stay. I told Dara to shove her missions up her ass. I needed to be home. I needed to be here...” He hesitated only briefly, his eyes taking in the sight of Cassie’s face as he spoke, taking in every feature he’d missed seeing. “I needed to be here with you.”

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Lucy knew her reasonable mind was going to have a hard time wrapping itself around this. People didn’t come back from the dead, it just wasn’t how life worked. Not for Lucy anyways. Things like this were final and yet, the only man she’d probably ever loved was standing before and she just couldn’t help that feeling of hope that started creeping its way up into her chest as he spoke. She felt like she was holding her breath as he recounted the night they met. She tried to keep her expression neutral despite the the mirade of emotions that seemed to be running through her right now. 

Watching as he lifted his shirt and showed his scars, her mind went back to all those times they talked about each one they held. The physical and the emotional ones. There weren’t a lot of people Lucy let see her like that. She couldn’t help it now, despite her normal level of doubt, she knew that this was him. “Jake?” Lucy finally said releasing that breath she’d been holding since he started talking and her face broke from its neutral expression and she dropped her arms to her side, feeling the gun slip from her fingers but her body couldn’t move from where she stood.

Jack didn’t know what he was expecting, but it definitely wasn’t seeing Lucy so vulnerable. He didn’t care if she shot him, he didn’t care if she hit him, but before he could register what he was doing, he’d crossed the floor and closed the distance between them, wrapping his arms around her and breathing in her scent. God, how he’d missed this, how he’d missed her. 

He rested his forehead against hers and sighed, “It’s me, Luce.” For two years he’d thought about the moment he saw her again and none of his thoughts could compare to actually having her wrapped up in his arms. He slid his hands around to cup her face as he smiled gently. “I’ve waited two years to be able to tell you I love you and I can’t wait any longer. I love you Lucy Danvers and I’m so sorry I couldn’t get back to you sooner.”

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Dash gave that puppy dog grin of his and shrugged his shoulders innocently. “What can I say, I’m pretty nimble.” He joked as he bounced from one foot to another. He gave her a skeptical look with a grin and a raised eyebrow. “Are you really? I mean I feel like you would have gotten a lot of joy out of laying me flat on my ass?” He teased her, knowing full well that she could in fact do that to him, a grown ass man. “Ah just needed to clear my head, ya know how I can get all wrapped up in there some times.”

Sloan chuckled and ran a hand through her hair, pulling the ponytail out as she went, letting out a sigh of relief as her scalp relaxed. “You’re right, it would have been enjoyable seeing you eat concrete, but as I’m a nice person, I’m gonna say I’m glad you’re still on both feet.” She winked and bumped him with her hip. At his words, she raised her eyebrows in agreement, “I know that well. I keep thinking I should go on like some soul searching retreat, but then I realize that sounds bogus so.”

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“Its clear the originals are on edge, the one promise I made Daralis was that Cassie wouldn’t make any more hybrids and they promise her protection.” Now Issy wasn’t sure where things stood and she knew that if it came down to it she would use every power at her arsenal to protect Cassie even if it meant going to head to head with originals. “I just wish….” Issy’s hands clenched in frustration and her jaw clenched. “I just wish one time, one time that we could get the upper hand on these assholes. At every turn they’ve bested us, we have god damn originals on our side, I’m the god damn supreme and we can’t manage to stop them?” Issy said feeling the anger physically manifest as sparks at her fingers tips and she had to take a few deep breathes to calm herself. “I don’t know what we have to do to make this right.” 

At the mention of the originals, Gideon sighed, rubbing his hand across the stubble on his face. “I can handle Dara. The Blackwells might be a different story, but Dara won’t be a problem.” Gideon knew Dara would be unhappy with the outcome, but he’d be damned if the original took anything out on Cassie. At Issy’s outburst, Gideon eyed her sparking finger tips with a vague interest before speaking. “I hesitate to say it, but with how many of them I ran into no matter where I went, I really wonder if they’ve still got someone working on the inside.” The thought made him angry, but he’d been thinking it for awhile now and this turn of events with Cassie had really caused him to double down on the idea. “There needs to be a concrete plan.  Bouncing around safe havens and trying to hold peace summits clearly isn’t working.”

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Maybe Colton should’ve questioned Jack’s sudden revival more seriously but looking at the other man he knew that it was one of his best friends standing in front of him and not a stranger wearing Jack’s face. He stepped forward to pull Jack into a tight hug. Colton still wasn’t sure it wasn’t all his imagination, not until Jack didn’t instantly vanish when Colton tried to hug him. 

After a long minute, he pulled back to get a better look at Jack. A smile had lit up Colton’s entire face. “Holy shit – holy fucking shit.” Colton had so many different thoughts and emotions hitting him at once he didn’t know how to express them. A short string of happy curses was better than nothing. “Can I say you’re an idiot for going undercover now? I should kick your ass.”  

Jack stood still for a moment, surprised at Colton pulling him into a hug, but he relaxed into it quickly, wrapping his arms around Colton’s shoulders. As they separated, Jack couldn’t help but snort at Colton’s words, nodding along. “You can absolutely kick my ass. I’m a little rusty, probably could use a refresher.” His heart felt full for the first time in a long time and being back in Hollow Grove felt like a piece of him that was still missing had fallen back into place. 

Jack gestured towards the door and raised an eyebrow playfully. “Are we just going to stand here or are you gonna pour us a drink? We’ve got a hell of a lot to catch each other up on I think.”

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Hollow Grove had become his home – really the only true home he’d ever experienced if Adam thought about it. Calling Morgan’s pack a home would be a gross misuse of the word and what he’d done for the thirty years after leaving was nothing more than drift. But now he had a stable job, a place to live, and Alex and Briar. While he had no interest in leaving he never questioned at all why Ade wanted to. Eventually, she’d come back for a visit or maybe even stay for a bit. When he got her text Adam went over to Ade’s place instead of just replying back. He made his way straight towards the greenhouse where he expected that she would be.

“Is this your way of dropping a hint to me that there’s someone you need to poison? Just blink twice if I’m right don’t say anything it won’t be lying when I tell the police I never heard anything suspicious. Or if it’s your way of saying that I didn’t do a good enough job taking care of your plants can I start with saying I’m sorry before you poison me?” He grinned at Ade, walking over with his arms out to give her a big hug. 

She let out a hearty chuckle at Adam’s words and shook her head with a grin. “Currently I don’t have anyone on the list, but it is still early in the week.” Ade set down the watering can and turned to her friend, wrapping her arms around him and relaxing into the hug, Adam’s scent familiar and comforting. Adam was easily one of her closest friends, especially with everything that had happened since he’d gotten to town and Adelaide was grateful for the werewolf. 

She let him go, leaning against the shelf as she moved a few strands of hair behind her shoulder that had fallen forward. “The plants are thriving. Thank you for taking care of them. I think I may be here to stay for awhile this time, so you are officially relieved of your plant duties.”

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cosmicbursts​:

Jack’s place had been the piece of his brother that Adam had left. The brother he’d barely gotten any time with, that had left to undercover just when they’d started to get along. After Jack’s death moving out was impossible. And then Alex and Briar had moved in and the place had become a home, they’d all made it into a home together. It was like nothing Adam had, had before.

Sleep was refusing to come leaving him lying in bed counting sheep–or more accurately letting his mind wander to a million different things–when he heard the front door close. Someone had come in. Straight away all of his senses were on high alert and Adam shot out of bed, heading right for the door. His mind immediately went to Morgan, that he’d sent someone after them. Seeing Jack had him frozen in shock. “What the fuck?” It wasn’t Jack. This was a trick. Whoever was behind it had done it to catch him off guard and it had worked. Instead of jumping into a fight he was stuck, tense and completely still. “Who the fuck are you?”

Jack turned at the sound of Adam entering the room and he cursed under his breath quietly. That explained the toys, they must belong to Briar. It gave him a moment of fleeting joy to think that Adam and Alex had stuck things out. His brother deserved the happiness. He was quickly brought back to the present when he realized Adam was probably about half a second away from trying to kill him. 

“I guess now’s as good a time as any to mention I’m not dead.” Jack tried to keep his tone light, but this was not how he’d planned on breaking the news to people, at all. He paused before he continued speaking, keeping his distance from his brother. “Adam, it’s me, I promise. And I can explain everything, but it’s going to take a hell of a lot longer than a couple of minutes.”

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Since she’d been rescued and brought back to town Cassie had barely left the house. Saying she barely left was even a stretch itself. The only spot outside she felt comfortable was on the waterfront with no one else around. It was safer, quieter, and far easier to deal with than the real world as she readjusted to normal life. Every day she told herself that soon she’d start going out again. And every morning she could think of a million different reasons why that particular day wasn’t the right one for her to emerge. Tomorrow. Or maybe the next week. She wasn’t ready to deal with the onslaught of attention that would inevitably come in several different forms.

That day Cassie had kept to herself in her room, staying hidden away after a particularly rough night. Sleep had been evading her ever since her system had managed to clear out all the wolfsbane and vervain that had been pumped into her body for months. Now that her senses were no longer dulled her body was on high alert, she could think more clearly, and with that came horrible memories and nightmares. The Clave had used her to create more hybrids and once they had enough of their own Cassie’s use shifted to teaching them what weaknesses a hybrid had without burning through the numbers they had managed to build up for the next phase of their plan.

Cassie had lost track of how long she’d been sitting by the window, staring outside without really seeing anything and lost in her own head. Gideon’s car squealing tires had her fight or flight kicking in. Someone was there. Someone had come rushing into the house. Every step she took was quiet and careful as she started to make her way towards the door. But she didn’t need to go far until she came face to face with Gideon. Gideon. Of course, he looked the same as when she’d last seen him what felt like a lifetime ago. Gideon was here. A wave of emotions hit her when she saw him. Happiness, relief. But he’d left. Cassie knew exactly why he’d gone and she shouldn’t have felt a flare of anger that he hadn’t been there but against all logic she did. “So you’re back now. Now but not before.”

Gideon should have known she wouldn’t come rushing in to his arms, but her words stung and he stepped back slightly, almost as if her words had actually slapped him. He could hear the anger in Cassie’s voice and he swallowed heavily. “Cass...” He sighed, letting the doorframe support his weight as he slumped into it. “There aren’t enough ways I could express how sorry I am that I wasn’t here for you. I promised to take care of you and I broke that promise.” Seeing Cassie so broken brought him back to when she’d first been turned. When Cecile had taken her magic from her and gave her a curse she’d never asked for. 

He knew being with Cassie at the peace summit probably wouldn’t have made a difference, but knowing he hadn’t been there to fight for her when he should have made him angry. Angry with Dara for sending him off into the world without a way to stay in contact, angry at the Clave for what they’d done to Cassie. Gideon was having to learn a hard lesson in keeping his temper in check, but he knew if he could rip out of the hearts of everyone involved with the Clave, he’d do it without hesitation. 

Gid watched Cassie for a moment, taking in everything about her. She was in looks the same woman he’d left behind a year ago, but he knew she was different. She’d been taken advantage of and broken over and over again and he couldn’t fix that. He couldn’t take away her pain as much as wished he could, so he waited, letting her lead, despite wanting to tuck her into his arms and never let her go. 

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unapolcgetically​:

Watching this man with Jack’s face set his gun on the ground, Lucy’s mind went into over drive, she couldn’t process what was happening. This couldn’t be Jack. Jack was dead. She knew he was dead. This couldn’t be him. Why wasn’t he attacking her though? She couldn’t let herself believe that this was Jack, that would mean letting her guard down. Pulling her gun out she stood there staring him down. “Jack is dead. So who the hell are you?” Lucy said through gritted teeth and she wasn’t sure she could pull the trigger but she wasn’t about to show that hint of doubt to an enemy who was trying to use the face of the man she loved. “If you’re Jack, prove it.” 

He sighed and lowered his hands, keeping the distance between them even though every bone in his body was screaming to wrap her in his arms. “You’re right, for what it’s worth I should be long dead.” Jack eyed the barrel of her gun, before continuing. Prove it. Jack knew it would take more than a few platitudes to convince her, so he thought for a moment, his memories settling on something even he’d almost forgotten. “The first night we met, I tried to buy you a drink at Hair of the Dog and you told me no. I had half a mind to leave it alone, but you came back up to me later and pulled me outside. I just remember how you were so in control and knew exactly what you wanted, so I let you lead.”

He shifted his weight on his feet, careful to not make any sudden movements as he continued, “That was the first night you came back to my place and I’m pretty sure that was the moment I fell in love with you. You could kick my ass then and you could kick my ass now but it was always you.” He lifted his shirt and turned slightly, showing off the scars on his back. “We once laid there and you asked me about each of my scars, where they all came from. But this one,” He gestured to a scar about an inch long above his waistband, “This one, I got when we went on a mission and I got thrown from a car and the driver shot me. You patched me up before you threatened to shoot me yourself if I wasn’t more careful.”

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It was hard to run through it again. I reminded Issy of just how much she’d failed Cassie in all of this. All she had ever wanted was to keep Cassie safe and she failed over and over again. “They wanted to squash the whole thing. They failed but who knows what they have planned after what they put Cassie through. Who knows how many hybrids there are no.” Issy said shaking her head. “And Cassie….” She paused with a sad expression. “She’s beating herself up so much, she never wanted to make anymore hybrids and now this.” Issy didn’t know how to make this right. “You don’t have to apologize, I don’t know if any of it would have mattered. I almost think we only found her because they wanted us to.” 

“Knowing that there are more hybrids out there is extremely concerning, especially knowing just how far the Clave is willing to go still remains to be seen.” Gideon’s heart broke for both Cresswell sisters. Over the last few years, they’d both gone through so much more than either of them deserved to bear the burden of. “I know me being around wouldn’t have made a difference, but knowing that...” He paused, steadying his voice before continuing, “It’s not Cassie’s fault that any of this happened. But you’re right, it makes sense they would let her go because they wanted to.”

He ran a hand across the back of his neck and shifted in his seat, sighing softly. “It’s all just so frustrating. Having them be one step ahead no matter what we do. Hindsight is 20/20 but God I wish someone had taken Cecile out in the beginning.”

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Dash needed a run to clear his mind. He hadn’t given the time a second thought until he’d spotted Sloan getting ready to leave Hair of the Dog. He thought it would be funny to scare her but clearly he was wrong. “JESUS!” Dash yelled like a little girl throwing up his hands when she almost hit him. “I feel like you’ve been waiting your whole life to do that.”

Sloan put her hand to her chest as she felt her heartbeat start to slow and she couldn’t help the unladylike snort that escaped her lips at his words and the shriek he’d let out. “That kind of goes without actually saying, right? Seriously, I’m not kidding when I say I’m gonna get you a bell to wear. You’d think for such a big ass man you’d make more noise.” She shoved her keys into the pocket of her jean shorts and sighed. “I’m sorry for almost clothes lining you.” 

She furrowed her brows as she shot him a look of confusion. “What’s drug you out of the house so late?”

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“So everyone’s told me and I can’t wait. It’s not doo deep, is it? I mean, I can swim but still. I have to be prepared.” She chuckled. “I guess, so. I do love New York when it’s cold so it’ll be a chance to do all the things I like because I don’t really like the holiday in itself so I only enjoy the food and the get together.” She explained.

“I mean, you can stand in some areas? But once you get far enough out, it can get pretty deep. It’s chill enough you generally don’t have to worry. However, I did see someone get really drunk summer of my senior year and go ass over tea kettle out of the tube, so things do happen.” She snorted, ‘Listen, it’s hotter than Satan’s asscrack nearly year round, so any chance you can take to go to a colder climate... take it.”

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Colton was supposed to be taking a day off, but he’d neverbeen all too good at taking breaks. Burying himself in it had always been a solution.And Aurora was at the Greyson manor for a playdate with Max so that meant hehad nothing to stop him from slowly inching towards his office. He would’vespent the entire afternoon working through case files until he needed to pickup Aurora if the knock on the door hadn’t drawn him away. “Yep?” A folder wasstill in his hand when he opened the door, his eyes not tearing away from ituntil the door was already open. It was Jack. Jack was at his door.

He was frozen, staring at the other man in shock. The pages slippingfrom his hand and falling to the ground. “Jack?” It couldn’t be, it wasn’tpossible. He reached out and tentatively placed a hand on Jack’s shoulder, stilltrying to wrap his head around how it was possible for Jack to be there. “How?”

Jack felt his chest tighten and he resisted the urge to immediately wrap Colton into a tight hug, giving him a moment. Seeing his closest friends face for the first time in so long had him feeling emotions he hadn’t thought he still possessed. He swallowed the lump in his throat and gave Colton a smile that held years of separation and pain behind it laced with the relief and happiness he felt at standing on his door step. 

“Hey.” He chuckled mirthlessly at his greeting before nodding. “Magic. A witch saved me and I’m gonna be honest, it’s taken me a while to come to terms with the fact I’m not dead.” He should absolutely be dead, but Jack had never been happier than he was in this moment to be alive. 

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unapolcgetically·:

Lucy had thrown herself into work. Jack was dead. She rarely let people close enough to care this much but she’d made the mistake of letting Jack all the way in and now he was dead. She was not emotionally equipped to handle any of this and she knew that. So she’d asked for the most difficult missions and she’d recklessly threw herself into it. Which was how she found herself here in Barcelona stalking some clave members she was personally planning to hunt down and destroy. 

What she hadn’t expected to stumble across though was a face from her past. At first she’d caught sight of him and she thought she was seeing things. Jack Haley was dead. There was no way he could be staring at her from across the packed club. However, after a long moment she realized it was in fact Jack Haley, or at least someone who looked like him. The shapeshifting witch who had impersonated Nik came to mind and her mind went instantly into a feral state. Locking eyes with him before she moved to an abandon hallway off the noisy club. She could hear the music playing in the distance as she headed for the exit door hoping he would follow her. This had to be meant for her after all. 

Hearing footsteps behind her Lucy lunged and a scuffle broke out between her and the Jack impostor. When she finally got up right she stared him down. “Who the hell are you?”

Jack should have known Lucy wouldn’t take him at face value. She’d been trained better than that and he couldn’t blame her. To Lucy, Jack was long dead. Sometimes Jack wished he had actually died because there were days he couldn’t bare to be alone anymore, but thoughts of the blonde in front of him gave him the motivation to carry on. He was head over heels and in the aftermath, it became apparent that love was the main thing keeping him going. He was only slightly taken aback when she lunged at him and he tried to fight her off without hurting her, as he moved to put distance between them. 

He held one of his hands up as a white flag before moving the other carefully to his waistband, unholstering the gun on his hip and laying it gently on the floor. Jack knew there was a strong chance she’d shoot him if she could, but he wasn’t going to give her extra reasons to distrust him. “Luce... it’s really me, I swear.” He dropped the hand that was in the air and let it fall loosely to his side. “I know it’s hard to believe but I’m not here to hurt you. Sophia told me where you were.”

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Starter Call for Adam Haley ( @cosmicbursts )

Ade had only been back in town a few days, but as soon as Issy had called and told her they’d found Cassie, she knew it was time to come back. Maybe for good this time, but she couldn’t think about that now. She’d texted Adam after she dropped her suitcase off in her house, checking on her greenhouse while she waited for a response. Hollow Grove had felt off for so long, but she knew it was because there was so much pain the town had suffered over the last few years. And after Jack’s death and Cassie’s kidnapping, it had seemed to cement the shadow the suffocated her the more time she spent in the town. 

She bent to smell the peonies that were blooming, her ears tuned to the sounds of the approaching footsteps. Instead of moving to open the door, she continued to wander down the aisles, watering the plants with the watering can in her hands, a loose smile on her lips. “I think I’ve decided to plant some Belladonna. It’s small but deadly.”

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Gideon was right, Issy had no interest in reliving the last seven months of hell. She’d promised to protect Cassie, time and time again and she failed her. She was the god damn supreme and even she couldn’t save her sisters. “It was the peace summit. We went. She’s one of two hybrids so it was important that she had a voice. The Clave had moles though. They knew our every move. Their plan, I don’t think went how they pictured and when things went side ways they grabbed Cassie in the chaos. We searched for six months for her. We’d get close and then they’d slip through our fingers until we finally got to them. They made more hybrids and did lord knows what else to her.” Issy recapped and her heart felt heavy and she really wished she was drinking like she used to because this would be the perfect time.

As Issy spoke, Gideon could feel the rage increasing, the thought of Cassie being used to create more hybrids when she’d sworn she never would. He took a deep breath to steady himself, his anguish at not being there to help and his anger at the Clave at war against each other. He understood the pain Issy must have been feeling, knowing that Cassie was out there, hurt. Gid hated that he hadn’t been there for either of them. He hadn’t just failed Cassie, he’d failed Issy too. When he fell for Cassie, he knew Issy was part and parcel. 

“At the... at the fucking peace summit? I swear these people have no souls. Everywhere I ended up while helping Dara it was like they knew where we were going to be.” He reached out and wrapped his hand over Isabelle’s, giving it a light squeeze. “I’m sorry I wasn’t there to help. Either of you. And I’m sorry I wasn’t around to help find her. I would have been home a hell of a lot sooner.”

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Starter Call for Dash Hastings ( @unapolcgetically)

Things hadn’t been easy the last few years and Sloan felt way beyond her years. If she were honest, the whole ‘being human while surrounded by supernaturals’ was starting to take it’s toll, but she was determined to stay human. Besides once they were finally done with the Clave for good, maybe she’d get a decent nights sleep again. 

She’d just closed up shop at Hair of the Dog when she sensed someone else’s presence and tensed up before throwing out an arm to clothesline them, stopping her arm from connection when she realized it was Dash. “I swear, I’m gonna get you a fucking bell. Jesus Christ, Hastings.”