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julius ortega! seventeen! junior! school mascot! drama club! they call me jules because i'm precious. live life like "if i want, i do." if i want love, i get it. playing with fire; if i burn, you do. if i hurt, you won't let it. ☀︎ ☀︎ ☀︎ var sc_project=10687046; var sc_invisible=1; var sc_security="14acdeec"; var scJsHost = (("https:" == document.location.protocol) ? "https://secure." : "http://www."); document.write("");

[noahly-deactivated20180110]

Waiting along with Jules, he took another minute before grabbing one of the pieces sitting before them on the table. Placing it on his own plate, he let it sit more while listening to the other talk. 

“Some firsts would probably be anything and everything that I could never do because of being pressed for money and somewhere to live.” It was stupid but the most obvious thing in his own mind was having sex with Jules. God he didn’t even know the boy, and he was hoping to get into his pants. There were so many other things in life to look forward to, and he was just thinking about getting laid by the gorgeous boy who didn’t seem to not look at him. 

Grabbing the slice, he took a bite and let his mind work on whether he liked it or not. Swallowing, he looked at Jules and grinned. “See, my first time at this place with you and it’s already looking good.”

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Julius look at Noah thoughtfully for a moment before he smacked the table in front of them lightly, as if he had made a decision. “All right then, let’s do anything and everything. Are you down for it?” he asked. “There might not be a lot to do in town at first glance but it’s a lot more fun when you just make shit up, y’know? So that’s what we’ll do. And the plus side to that is that making shit up is free.” He grinned. 

Jules waited until Noah had gotten the chance to try the pizza so he could gauge the other’s reaction. When it turned out to be good, he smiled back at him and took a bite of his own pizza. “Good, I was worried there for a second.” After eating for a moment, he cleared his throat and looked Noah in the eye again. “Okay, be honest. Do you wanna fuck me?” he asked. The thing about Jules was that personal, emotional things were always off limits. There was no way in hell he’d ever share his feelings with more than a handful of people, and that was that. But when it came to anything else, especially sex, he couldn’t help but be candid. 

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“No no, I mean I don’t think it’s that weird. Sure I’m a little biased on the subject, but you aren’t a bad guy Jules. I think anything that I do with you for the first time will be memorable.” It was true, the mere image of Jules burned in his brain like nothing else. The boy radiated with emotion, and in turn made Noah feel those as well. He was like a conduit, channeling all of these things and passing it on to who needed it at the time. 

Grabbing a slice of pizza, he immediately let it fall back onto the plate it had been brought out on. “Shoot, it’s really hot.” Shaking his hand, he waited for it to cool down before wiping off the grease. “Alright, so I’m excited to actually try this. I’m not really excited to get burned again though…”

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Jules raised his eyebrows at Noah. “You really think so? I, uh... thank you, Noah,” he said, allowing his facade of endless confidence to drop if only for a second before he picked it back up again in defense. “What are some ‘firsts’ that you wanna have with me, then?” he teased, wiggling his eyebrows playfully. It was just like him to follow up with an inappropriate joke.

“Are you okay?” he asked, chuckling endearingly. “You should be excited! I love the pizza here. It’s the best in town.” He waited for a minute or two as well before he went in to grab a piece of pizza, and by then the slices weren’t so hot anymore.

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Noah tried to not appear shocked by the confession, although a good looking guy like Jules would probably be criminal to not share his beauty with someone. Six guys did seem extensive at first, although Noah couldn’t really say much on the matter. Those guys were in the past, and so were the girls too. Right now, it was just him and Jules in this booth with one another. 

“Yes, that makes you the first boy. Surprising I know, but you’ll have to excuse my busy schedule filled with working and some more work.” Creekton was definitely small, granted how he always seemed to see the same general people around.

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Jules knocked his shoulder against Noah’s again, looking his face over for a moment before making eye contact again. “There’s nothing wrong with that at all. Actually, I kinda like it. Is that weird?” he asked, scrunching his nose up once again. “Not like... in a predatory way, it’s just... I don’t know, I guess it’s a nice thought that I can make a lot of your firsts good experiences.”

“Plus, I can appreciate that, too. Nothing wrong with ambition.” Just then, the waitress came back with their pizza, setting it down in front of them. She promised to come back immediately so she could refill their cups, and Jules smiled up at her as she walked away.

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“Many meaning probably just more than four? It’s all really generalized for me. Like I went out with girls for a couple of years, although none of them really stuck. It kind of solidified the fact that I was gay, and led me to coming out.” He hadn’t really meant to let it out, especially now. Something about Jules kind of just made him comfortable.

“No one here in Creekton, at least not yet anyways.” All it had ever been was High School students, and the occasional college boy that walked into the Cafe. He was far too busy with work to ever be considered a good boyfriend though, or even a devoted one. It would be surprising if anyone ever loved him, or gave him the chance to do the same in return.

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“Hm... well then, yes to ‘many,’” he replied, looking over at Noah. “Six actually. Not including the girls.” He nodded silently, listening to Noah explain his dating history. “Hey, there’s nothing wrong with that at all. Sometimes that’s just how it works out, you know?”

Julius scrunched up his nose and knocked his shoulder against Noah’s playfully. “Oh, so does that make me the first?” he said jokingly, although he was half serious. “That isn’t a bad thing either, though, especially considering how bland it is here at Creekton anyway. Most people leave right after high school if they get the chance.”

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Seeing the other get up, Noah was actual a bit anxious about how things would proceed. However, he was almost glad that the table was out of the way now. Before, it had been a barrier in many ways for the both of them. Even by sitting next to one another, Noah felt like it would be a much better experience for the two of them. “You’re sweeter Jules, really. I just try to be as nice as I’m able to.” 

“You know, I’m kind of glad that you decided to sit next to me.” With their hands joined together on his lap, he held it a bit more loosely that he had before; He knew Jules wasn’t going anywhere. Scooting towards the other might have been too much, so he kept with how he was sitting. “So have you… went out with many people? Guys I mean, unless you aren’t strictly dickly.”

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“Yeah? I’m glad too. It’s better when I’m closer to you,” he said shrugging and looking down at their hands. After a moment he began stroking the back of Noah’s hand with his thumb again absentmindedly. Jules made a thoughtful noise at the question, looking up at the light above their table as he pondered.

“Hm... Well, it depends on how many is ‘many’ to you,” he said, chuckling. “But yeah, I have... with guys and girls, so I guess you can say I’m not strictly.” He bumped Noah’s shoulder softly. “What about you? Have you gone out with many people? Not just here at Creekton, I mean just in general.”

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It felt odd not having the other’s eyes on him, even if it was for a short amount of time. Having a difficult time talking about family was something the two of them had in common, although for some reason he was alright with that similarity. “I’m here for you, okay Jules? Even if things suck at home, I’m more than prepared to help you out.” He hated seeing other people in hard situations, even if he himself took the prize for the worst.

Watching the waitress leave, Noah hoped that helping the other eat his pizza would work out. He had brought money, although hadn’t really planned on spending it. As much as he wanted to buy things for Jules, he just couldn’t. “So you like sausage pizza huh? I mean, I knew you had a thing for meats.” Winking at the other, Noah tried his best at the whole joke thing. Currently it really wasn’t working out. Some of his confidence was stemming from the physical contact that the pair still shared.

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Julius shrugged and pursed his lips, shaking his head. “It’s not a big deal, really, we’re just bumping heads all the time. Normal son and father stuff,” he lied. “But thank you. I appreciate it, I really do.” He smiled over at Noah. “You’re really sweet, you know? I like you.” There was music playing quietly over the speakers in the restaurant so he swung Noah’s hand slowly back and forth to it over the table.

Julius laughed out loud at Noah’s joke, tossing his head back before ducking it toward his chest again. “Yeah, I do! Too predictable, huh?” he said, still laughing a little even as he talked. “You know what...” he narrowed his eyes at Noah and then let go of his hand only to scoot his way out of his booth and walk to the other side. “I wanna sit next to you.” He took a seat right next to Noah and took his hand again, this time resting it on the other’s lap.

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“The feelings mutual too, obviously. I appreciate all of the calls and texts, even if we haven’t known one another than long. It’s sweet to say the least, and I’m extremely lucky to have that affection from you Jules.” It felt amazing to be wanted, or at least being someone to at least talk to during the evening. But something about their interactions was anything but platonic, and that feeling wouldn’t go away. It had almost a Romeo and Juliet-ish vibe to it all. Maybe it was the infatuation, or maybe it was their willingness to go to hell for one another.

“Oh come on, I’m sure they aren’t that bad. The whole apple not falling far from the tree thing has to be true, at least I would hope so.” His Grandmother constantly insisted that he was his father, even when he told her otherwise. His mannerisms and looks definitely made it seem that way, even if he was a lot skinnier than he ever was. Noah was at a loss for words, not sure really what could even be said after something as undeniably cute as that. Although the silence ended as the waitress came, taking their order of drinks. “Just a water please.” Looking over to the other boy, they still hadn’t let their hands part. While Creekton wasn’t bad on homophobia, Indiana as a whole was still struggling with the transition to equality. There weren’t many people in the establishment, and the waitress seemed unfazed nonetheless. 

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Julius shifted in his seat and cleared his throat. “They... well, if I’m being honest, Noah, I don’t... get along with them too well,” he said, shifting his eyes around the restaurant to intentionally avoid Noah’s gaze for the first time since they got there. Most of the people he knew knew about his less than satisfactory relationship with his parents; he wasn’t shy when it came to letting the world know they just didn’t get along. But he hated discussing the details, hated talking about it any further than just that fact. He would even sometimes treat it like a joke—anything to avoid the thick of it, to get away from the questions.

Jules looked up when the waitress came along, keeping his hand in Noah’s. “I’ll have a water, too, please,” he said, smiling at her. She scribbled those orders down and then asked if they were ready to order, and Jules nodded before placing his pizza order as well. “Can I have the sausage pizza, please?” he said to her, and she wrote that in her pad as well. He looked back at Noah finally, squeezing his hand.

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Text: Is it sad that I spend my birthday yesterday drinking a lot of eggnog and watching Christmas movies?

TEXT no not at all!! unless there was something else u wanted to do? if there was then i could help u w whatever it is

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Noah looked at the boy next to him a little more seriously now, not sure if he had actually meant it or was just kidding with him. “Yes, I think being intimate with you would be lovely Jules. Intimate in what we’re doing now at least.” He tried to force his hand to linger longer against the others before they inevitably parted. “Looking out over the town will surely be something that I’ll remember, even if Creekton isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.” Then nodding at the host, he and Jules both walked along until they came across a recently cleaned booth. It wouldn’t really allow for much touching, but it would have to do for now. Sitting down, Noah immediately picked up the menu and began browsing. 

Honestly though, I can’t even imagine people not liking you Julius. And if you’re anything like your parents, than I would expect the same from them as well. You’re so charismatic and bright, and just brighten up whatever situation you’ve managed to stick yourself in. You always have that smile on your face, and even talking over the phone your tone was always so sweet with me.” Reaching across the table, Noah took one of the other boys hands in his own. “Thank you Jules, really.” Even if the boy was still in High School, he surely had a lot more game than Noah ever would. 

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Julius smiled and looked down, pressing his lips together. “All right, good, because I think it’d be lovely too.” He nodded quickly. “Oh yeah, I mean. Up close Creekton isn’t really all that good looking at all, especially when you’ve lived here for a while but... from far away, it’s actually really pretty. Even the uglier parts. Like the high school.” He cringed. “Or Sonic.” Once he was comfortable in his seat, Jules followed suit and started looking through the menu as well. He settled on getting a sausage pizza and set his menu down neatly on the table in front of him.

Jules was taken by surprise at what Noah said, quirking his eyebrows up. His mouth fell open a bit and he blinked a couple of times, not sure what to say. He was used to talking to himself up pretty much always, and playing overconfident at every moment the opportunity rose. But when it came to heartfelt descriptions of himself from others, he had no idea what to do. Jules brushed his thumb along the back of Noah’s hand and pursed his lips, trying hard not to smile too big. “Noah, it’s... it’s my pleasure, really. I just like talking to you and being around you.” He ducked his head. “I’m... well, I’m not really anything like my parents. The sweet must’ve skipped a generation or something. But really... it’s, uh, it’s... It’s hard not to be so bright when you’ve got company like this.”

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“Well it sounds as if your parents are in the right line of business if they’re getting so many favors, at least I’d hope they’d be getting more than just this.” Noah smiled at the thought of him and Jules doing more things together, having planned for the evening to go well from the beginning of it. “I think I’d like that Jules.” His fondness of the younger man was bound to blossom into something more, even if Noah was against it. His feelings tended to blow up in his face one way or another.

Nodding his head, Noah hadn’t really intended to brag about his abilities in the kitchen. He was more humble in nature, at least at other times. “Fairly good yeah, granted I had to make mostly everything from scratch.” It hadn’t always went so well, given that he had to learn extremely quickly in order to take care of his Grandmother. Now though, the only person he had to take care of was himself. “I mean I don’t mean to deter you, I just wanted to make sure you were alright with such an intimate thing this early on.” Maybe it wasn’t too intimate, but poking fun at the other boy added to the experience. Noah felt a harsh blush come across his pale face, glad that he could somewhat hide it from the other. “I-I don’t mind, I think it’ll be nice.” Anything that allowed him to get away was enough to make his evening, even if that meant turning up the music and sleeping for days. Then getting out of the car, the pair headed inside of the parlor. 

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“Yeah, I mean, they have friends all over town because of it but there are a few who don’t take kindly to us Ortegas anymore,” he said, snickering at the thought, as weird as that might’ve seemed. “But very, very few. Just people my parents have had to go up against, you know? Lawsuits get real personal, even if they think it’s only business.” Jules smiled at Noah. “All right, now I have to go with you,” he teased.

“Wow, that’s some skill. Honestly, everything I make is out of a box except for like... lasagna, and even then it’s hit and miss,” he said, laughing. Julius got out of his car and make sure to lock the doors before coming up alongside Noah, entering the parlor with him. “Are you all right being intimate with me?” he asked, nudging his hand up against Noah’s again as they walked. He was fully aware of how the question might’ve sounded, but it was a tone he was used to taking with pretty much anyone and everyone he knew. This time, though, he felt a little different, seeing as he was talking to Noah. “It will be! Anything with me is nice, y’know?” he joked, wiggling his eyebrows. A host came up to them and offered to lead the two of them to one of the booths.

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“No no, I couldn’t ask you to do that Jules. I mean it’s sweet of you and all, I just wouldn’t want you to use that connection for me. You’ll probably need it one day yourself.” Noah could see the other boy looking at him out of the corner of his eye, not sure exactly why he was doing that. Most likely there was something on him, or his hair was messed up. He’d spent quite awhile trying to style it in a way that looked nice, or that his date would like. God, this was his first date with another guy. Before he came out he went on plenty of dates with girls, or the ones that his aunt and uncle suggested he date. Sure he could keep up a good conversation granted the girl was nice, although every single one had been platonic. All of those dates solidified the fact that he was gay, and wouldn’t be seeing girls in the near future. 

Noah fidgeted at the feeling of the other boy on him, not sure if it had been on purpose or not. Even with this weather, Jules was incredibly warm to him. “No, I haven’t. My Grandmother’s diet really didn’t allow for pizza you know? I typically just made most of our meals, or bought meals that were already made from the store.” Noah’s eyes turned to the outside of the car, watching all of the many lights of the main street race past them. Eventually turning back to Jules he said, “I’m really interested in seeing all of your favorite places. Isn’t this a little personal for you though?” It was heartwarming that someone would share this with him, and take the time for something like this. “Will there be many other people?”

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Julius blew raspberries. “Hey, it’d be no biggie at all, I swear. My uh... my parents,” he started, it always felt weird referring to them that way without any vehemence behind the words, “they’ve represented him once or twice in the past against some clients who were tryna scam him, so I really wouldn’t mind. I can even go with you, if you want.” He glanced at Noah again at the end of his sentence—it felt like it was happening almost naturally, the same way he didn’t have to think in order for his eyes to blink or for his heart to beat. He wasn’t sure if he’d be able to stop, even if he tried. 

“Oh, so are you a pretty good cook, then?” he asked. Jules felt his face warm up at the questions and he ducked his head a bit. “You know... I hadn’t really thought about it.” He’d often bring his close friends to some of his favorite places, like his favorite Italian restaurant which was next to the mall, or his favorite places to shop. He’d taken Gabe and their friends to the point a couple of times to smoke, but this would be the first time he’d taken anyone alone, or without the intent to get drunk or high. “It’s—I wouldn’t mind at all,” he said, finding it weird that he was stumbling over his words. “And no, it’ll just be me and you. If you don’t mind.” He looked over at Noah again in the dim light that shone from his stereo and dashboard. They pulled into a plaza and he found a parking space right in front of the pizza parlor, turning his car off and putting his keys in his pockets so they could make their way in.

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“Yes yes, I know. The heater in my car is kind of all over the place at the moment. It’s kind of just whatever state it ends up in you know? Like maybe I can pull some money together to fix it, but for the most part it is kind of just something to get me place to place even if it isn’t the most comfortable thing out there. You’re car is pretty nice though.” Quickly buckling himself in, Noah took a moment to look around the interior of the car. 

“Pizza sounds good, although it’s whatever you feel like Jules. I haven’t really been out with anyone like this in awhile.” Which was true, seeing as he was practically a ghost and hadn’t been here that long anyways. Tonight though they would be seeing the new Star Wars film, making Noah probably the happiest man alive. It had been at least a few months since he had done such a thing, given his financial situation. 

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Jules couldn’t help but look at Noah at every chance he took; whenever they’d stop at a stoplight or when there were no cars around. His eyebrows crooked up in slight worry, though, at the mention of his car. “Hm... I’m shit with cars, but I know a guy? He might be able to look at it if you want. He owes my parents anyway, I doubt he’d mind.” He took one hand off the wheel to nudge up against Noah’s arm, lingering for a little too long before he clutched the wheel again. “Thank you. I try to keep it clean in here but I mostly fail at it.”

“Pizza it is, then,” he said, grinning. “Have you been to Serious Pie? It’s like, the best pizza place in town.” Julius turned a corner onto one of the town’s main streets. It wouldn’t be long until they were at the restaurant; the town was pretty tiny anyway, so most of the time it was a short trip from one place to the other, although that wasn’t true for every single area. “Well, I’m glad that’s changing tonight. We’ll do a bunch, okay? I have favorite places all over town. You have to see this one point. It’s not too high or anything, but you can see downtown if it’s dark enough.”

[noahly-deactivated20180110]

Noah could never say it aloud, but meeting Julius had probably been one of the best things to have ever happened to him in this town. The younger boy gave him something to look forward to after his shifts at work, even if it had only been a week since when they first met. They talked ever day in the evening, and he really enjoyed that amount of interaction from another human being. The entire dynamic was new to the boy, given that no one in the town besides his grandmother really paid him much attention.

Tonight was a reprieve from all of that though, with the pair going to see a movie and having dinner together. Noah had saved all of his tips from the week, hoping to at least pay for some of the evening even if he was barely scraping by on his own. Now it was almost time to head out, and he slipped on his large insulated down coat and waited for a message from the other boy. Eventually hearing his phone buzz, Noah placed his hat and gloves on before stepping out into the cold December air. Seeing what he assumed to be Jules’ car, he headed over to it and saw the boy through the window. Opening the door he quickly got inside the warm car before properly greeting Jules. “You look warm.”

[ohxjules-blog]

Julius looked up and smiled as Noah entered his car, putting his phone back into his pocket. He might’ve spent a lot of his free time on his phone (he tweeted almost every other hour and he kept his Instagram super updated in order to keep himself up as an Instagram model), but when it came to times like these, he liked to be attentive. He wouldn’t take his phone out for the rest of the night until Noah was safe back in his apartment, unless they needed it for directions or to take a selfie together. Jules was always reluctant to call these outings what they really were; this was a date if he’d ever been on one.

“Hey!” he said, readjusting himself in his seat. “Yeah, I’m pretty cozy in here. Gotta fight the snow out here, y’know?” Once they were both buckled in, Julius took his car out of park and started driving. “So we’ve got about two hours before we have to be at the theater for the movie, you wanna get something to eat? We could get pizza or something.” He glanced at Noah for a moment before bringing his attention back to the road.

[ohxjules-blog]

@noahly

It took about a week. A lot of it consisted mainly of phone calls; Jules would get off of work for most of that week when the sky was already dark, ready to call Noah up and tell him all about the day he had. (And even more eager to hear about Noah’s day, always hoping it wasn’t as stressful as work at a Cafe was expected to be. He’d heard all the Starbucks horror stories before and always wished against it for Noah.) He was glad they’d kept in touch, much happier than he’d ever admit out loud. Jules waited a week to ask Noah when he was free for the entire day. He knew Noah worked a lot and probably spent most of his time at Karen’s because of it. 

But he had noticed his little parting message and thought it would be a good idea to ask him out to the movies. They could catch a show at the McLaren, and grab a bite to eat right before, and it was Jules’ every intention to give Noah a proper tour of his hometown. They’d have to dress warm if they wanted to make it anywhere comfortably, so Julius pulled a thick, quilted bomber jacket on over his button up shirt before he went out to pick Noah up from his apartment. When he got there, he sent a quick message letting him know he was outside.

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“Sonic? Oh come on Jules, the place can’t be that bad. I remember going to it all the time when I was younger.” Noah smiled a little bigger that time, not sure if it was the charisma or the other’s good looks that kept him engaged in the conversation. “Well thank you, really. I think that I needed this.” Taking a drink, he couldn’t seem to take his eyes off of the other.

[ohxjules-blog]

“It isn’t horrible or anything... Just an endless stream of bratty customers and a shitty manager, but my coworkers are pretty cool. And I get half off of the food there so... maybe you’re right,” he said, smiling a little bigger when he saw Noah smile. “No problem, it was the least I could do, y’know?” Jules leaned forward again, resting his elbows on the table in front of him before thinking better of it and leaning down a bit to reach into his messenger bag on the floor. “Hey, it must not be easy being new in town and everything so... if you want—” he pulled out a pen and grabbed one of the napkins sitting on the table, “— you can call or text me or something, I could show you around.” Julius scribbled his phone number down before offering it to Noah.

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“Where are you working then?” It was definitely easier to shift the topic to someone other than him, just because of his overtly depressing backstory. It wasn’t one of those things that you tell kids for reassurance that their future will turn out just as they expect it to. “You’re too kind, seriously Jules.” With the low amount of social interaction that he typically had, compliments towards Noah were always surprising; that wasn’t to say that he didn’t want them however. “I mean it’s alright, I don’t really talk to anyone. All of the younger people tend to be more engrossed in their own lives than talking to a Cafe worker.”

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“I work at Sonic, about four blocks away from the high school,” he said, promptly rolling his eyes just at the thought of the establishment. “Hey, not at all. You’re cute and that’s just the fact of the matter,” he said shrugging. “Oh, hey. They might all think they’re too busy and that’s definitely their loss. They’re missing out, I think.” He winked. On the bright side, he wasn’t.

[ohxjules-blog]

@bythesun: @OrangeJulius don't let me catch you at dinner tonight BITCH

@OrangeJulius: @bythesun im gna kick ur aSS