omg hi??? are u still active here? i was wandering through tumblr and just came across one of your posts omg it’s been so long :( how’s life going? idk if you’re even going to see this but hope you’re doing amazing!!!
-cec <3
hiii!❤️ i still have tumblr haha but im not posting anymore on this blog ): i thought i would be back eventually buuut i dont think so- i also never really thought writing was my strongest suit lol but i had so much fun here hehe
life's been so-so honestly, 2025 was not my best year /: but im doing a little better now 🙂↕️ !! still cant wait for 2025 to be over heh
how have YOU been, also?? please feel free to text me on here! as i said, i WILL see it sooner or later 🫂
Mishi!! Omg. I saw you posted 4 months ago and i kinda abandoned my tumblr too lol so i missed it. So happy you graduated uni, congrats! And i've said it before but your art is super gorgeous. Truly nice to hear from you.
hii ):♡
thank you so much, it's nice to hear from you too! life's been busy, but i keep drawing 🙂↕️ so there's that to keep me sane, at least hehe
the whole loona thing made me kinda avoid seeing stuff from them bc, you know…
buuuut, how are things going for you? :) miss ya
-cec <3
omg hii ((:<3 missed you!!
i do still use tumblr actually, quite a lot tbh! i just dont post on here anymore (maybe one day idk) but yeah, the asks i always see 😁 i never get them tbh, but this one i got and i saw 😎
aw i get how you feel ): the whole loona thing has been really bittersweet for me too.. on one side i was so happy they were free from bbc, but on the other side i knew we wouldnt see them perform as a whole group ever again. but im super excited to see where they go from here and how they're gonna develop their new sounds! i love and care for them so much its kinda crazy 🩷
things are... going... 🤔 im super busy with uni because im close to graduating lmao so im focusing really hard on the last few exams i have left !! really tiring but im hoping it'll be worth it~ looking forward to the day i can catch a break
as you were running with all the strength you had in your legs, hair uncomfortably sticking to your face, and one hand in front of you to somehow shield your vision from the countless rain droplets falling from the sky, you couldn’t refrain yourself from letting out a hysterical laugh, predicting it would annoy your friend even more than she already was.
as you were running with all the strength you had in your legs, hair uncomfortably sticking to your face, and one hand in front of you to somehow shield your vision from the countless rain droplets falling from the sky, you couldn't refrain yourself from letting out a hysterical laugh, predicting it would annoy your friend even more than she already was.
"i don't get what's so funny!" she yelled from not too far behind you, raising her voice so that you would be able to hear her above the loud sound of the rain heavily pouring down on you both. the converse that heejin decided to wear were making her regret every decision she had ever made in her life and every one she would ever make in the future, since she had almost slipped on the ground several times now. every time a different curse escaping from her lips.
"we're here!" you screamed, your voice hoarse and throat burning from all the cold you were being exposed to. although the pain you were feeling now would not be comparable to the one you'll have the morning after; if you'd be lucky enough to not get a fever, and just a sore throat or a congested nose instead.
grabbing heejin's wrist, you pulled her towards the front door of your house, which was the tiniest bit shielded from the rain. you allowed yourself to catch your breath for a millisecond, but the drenched girl next to you had been dealing with you for way too long at that point, and she frantically began searching for your keys in your pockets and bag.
she couldn't be happier when she found them at first try, whispering towards the sky what sounded like a "thank god something's going right" before shoving said key into the lock and letting herself fall to her knees as soon as she got inside, followed suit by you who closed the front door, back slamming against it and slowly sliding down until your butt reached the ground.
after a minute or two of shivering on the ground while trying to catch your breath, you raised your head to notice heejin still kneeling down with her back facing you, her body still heaving up and down from how tired and out of breath she was. you felt guilt building up inside of you, as the memory of her suggesting you take the car instead of walking to the restaurant and you replying that you didn't feel like driving was playing on loop in your mind. you bit the inside of your cheek as a trembling hand reached out to her, shyly and carefully moving a soaked strand of her pretty deep brown hair from her shoulder and playing with it for a second. her lovely short bob had grown out a bit, just enough so that her hair was now ever so slightly resting just below her shoulders.
she shivered at the contact. not sure if it was because of the cold, her drenched clothes or your sudden touch.
"i'm sorry heej..." you mumbled, crawling a little closer to her, lowering your head so that your forehead was resting against her back. she sighed. "i don't wanna argue" she replied in her deep warm voice. you held her hand from behind, reassured by her words, and smiled as she tightened her grip around your fingers.
then she sneezed and whined.
you got up in a rush. "geez you're so right! let's take a warm shower and get you a change of clothes" you blabbered as you helped her get back on her feet, the girl groaning as her legs were so sore from the run you just took.
but just as you two got up and started heading towards the bathroom, your roommate got out, a pink plushy robe wrapped around her body, her legs still glistening from the shower she- clearly- just had and her hair wrapped in a towel, her whole figure engulfed by a cloud of steam that got out as soon as she opened the bathroom door.
her manicured hands shot up to cover her mouth as she saw the state of the two of you, "oh my, did you get caught in the rain??".
you scratched the back of your neck in awkwardness and nodded in response before you noticed heejin trying to burn your roomie to ashes with her stare alone. granted, she didn't like her very much. not that your roommate has ever been that welcoming towards the people you would occasionally bring over.
"yeah uhm... rei?" you called for her, hoping to divert her attention from getting into a fight with heejin. "are you done in the bathroom? my friend could use a warm shower after getting drenched and cold outside" you politely continued. "sure!" she squeaked, earning a relieved sigh from you, "but i think i may have spent to much time in there..." she replied, her voice getting higher towards the end and she began playing with her fingers, as if she was trying to piece together the story -or rather, excuse- she was telling. "you should check how much hot water's left... if i'm not mistaken, there should be enough for another 10 minutes!" she finished with an apologetic smile.
your eyes grew wide "you used all the hot water?!". your thumb and index finger came up to pinch the piece of skin in between your eyebrows in exhaustion as your roommate simply shrug in response and grinned at you before entering her bedroom.
heejin kept looking at you, her hair still dripping and her clothes still sticking to her soft skin, as droplets of water kept falling from her, leaving a trail behind and a small puddle beneath her. you gave her a small smile before suggesting she took a shower first. "i can do it in five minutes, i promise" she reassured you. you shook your head frantically "no no, what i meant was that you can use the shower all you want!! i'll just change clothes, dry myself with a towel and maybe use a hairdryer to warm up" you explained, trying your best to suppress a sneeze.
"don't be dumb..." heejin muttered, looking at you in the eyes while tilting her head to the side.
ah she's so pretty.
you wiped off some water from under your chin with the back of your hand, looking away and gulping unconsciously.
"maybe there's a solution..." you whispered without much of a thought. "what would that be?" heejin inquired re-entering your field of view, forcing you to fixate your eyes on her, startling you with the fact that she was able to hear you anyway.
"no i mean-" you giggled nervously, stepping back "it's stupid, it just popped in my head outta nowhere" you kept rambling, feeling way too observed as the girl in front of you never once looked away from your face. "geez you're scaring me, whatchu looking at?" you finally asked in a pout, your cheeks slightly flushed at all the attention you were getting.
"say it" she ordered, poking your arm with her pointer finger. you covered with your hand the spot she had just assaulted, shaking your head 'no'.
she did it again, poking your other arm. and when you covered that one too, she poked your tummy. and so on.
it was getting ridiculous, to the point where you distanced yourself from her, semi-yelling "showering together!".
silence.
once you managed to look at her, because the silence was far more unbearable than whatever her reaction was gonna be, you were ready to be faced with the most disgusted look heejin could muster and you were already bracing yourself to be dumped after your first date. despite being friends for years, in fact, this was the very first time you had gone out on a proper date- you both agreed to call it that- and now look. you blew your only chance.
but heejin wasn't disgusted or uncomfortable. she wasn't looking at you, sure, but she was... flustered? she pushed her wet hair out of her face, her hand resting on top of her head a little longer, just long enough for her to deeply exhale, clear her throat before locking eyes with you.
"okay"
"O OKAY?!" you stuttered, your gaze fixated on her as she made her way into the bathroom, turning around and grabbing your forearm to drag you inside, making you shriek in response.
"s so... which part of your body do you usually wash first?" you immediately cursed at yourself mentally.
heejin snorted. "you're such a huge dumbass", but you knew she meant well. you hoped.
you had been staring in opposite directions since you got in the shower- which hand't been long, but it sure felt like hours. at least the water hitting both of your bodies was warm; a nice contrast compared to the rain from before, whose coldness sent shivers through your whole body.
now, it's not like you were thinking about anything perverted, but you had to admit that was a very peculiar first date, the one between the two of you just now. you slapped you damp cheeks both hands, convincing yourself that the hotness you felt engulfing your whole face was simply an aftermath of the hot water. 'cause you were not burning up at the fact that heejin was mere inches from you, her elbow involuntarily poking your back from time to time- contact that made you gasp and shrink even more in your little corner.
but still, time was running thin and you had to wash yourself before the water turned cold. taking two mini steps backwards, you tried your best to reach the bottle of shampoo, the whole process all without turning around. "what are you doing? ouch!" heejin complained as you accidentally hit her in the face. "s sorry oh my god!" you shouted "i'm- i need the shampoo" you muttered soon after.
"just turn around and grab it..." she whispered, her voice small.
this is gonna be the death of me, you thought, your throat getting dryer by the second, causing you to swallow down saliva continuously in an attempt to hydrate it somehow.
you slowly turned in heejin's direction. the sight was heavenly; her back was exposed and you found it mesmerizing how the water was gracefully trailing down over it, her wet hair was sticking to her neck, leaving some areas of it temptingly exposed and the way she had her arms crossed over her chest was only making her biceps more prominent. you immediately went to reach for the shampoo bottle. stop looking at her, you fucking creep.
the stand with all the soaps was right in front of heejin though, forcing you to move closer to her and extending your arm just above her shoulder. god, you were so close... her smooth skin was looking even more enchanting now that running water and some still droplets were adorning it as if it were jewelry. again, you bit your bottom lip when she moved her hair behind her ear, her neck now definitely in plain sight for you. if you hadn't known better, you swore she was doing it on purpose.
snatching the bottle of shampoo, you returned to your position, redder in the face than ever.
you felt the girl behind you giggle, which made your ears perk up. "what's so funny?" you mumbled, your hands busy lathering the soap on your scalp.
"you're cute..." she whispered, and you could tell by the silent sploshing sounds that she was moving. somewhere. you weren't expecting her to be right behind you, until you felt her pretty hand right in the center of your back. the contact quite literally made you shriek, both at the suddenness and at the slight coldness of it, your back arching away from her, and your legs almost giving out on you because of the slippery ground. she laughed out loud, and you could imagine her body bending in half to exaggerate how funny she found your reaction.
on the other hand, you were surely a blushing mess, you hands shaking and vision getting blurry. but heejin attacked again, ignoring just how flustered she made you. regardless of the fact that she was aware of it or totally oblivious, it still felt like torture.
"didn't know you had these tiny moles on your back" she commented, mainly to herself, as she wasn't really expecting a reply from you. her words were accompanied by her finger grazing your skin and moving from one freckle to the other, as if she was playing 'connect the dots' or something. you weren't sure you could contain the whimper that was about to escape you at her ministrations, doing your best to hold your breath and stay still.
however heejin had apparently no intention to stop, as you felt her lips pressing against one of your shoulder blades. you bit your bottom lip so hard as a reflex, and your eyes shot wide open before squeezing them shut shortly after. but she kept leaving kisses on your skin. it felt like she wasn’t going to stop anytime soon.
you reached your limit when she moved your hair away from your shoulder just to free the way for her to leave a kiss there too. you jerked away from her, way too overwhelmed at that point.
"a ah! w what are you doing..?!" you sputtered, your words coming out abruptly and definitely not with ease. a few seconds of silence followed.
"i don't know, just felt like kissing you, i guess" she shrugged. and you genuinely couldn't tell if she was saying that to downplay the situation as she was actually flustered too, or if she had become this bold in the span of 5 minutes. you took a deep breath, washing the rest of your shampoo off your hair.
despite the silence that fell over you immediately after, your mind was so foggy and clouded by the flashbacks of what had happened literally thirty seconds ago.
after you had both finished washing your bodies - or so you assumed, since you had still not faced heejin yet- , she turned off the water.
"it was getting cold" she explained with a monotone voice. is she offended by my reaction from before?
she stepped out first, most likely grabbing the soft towel you had prepared for her prior. "there you go, since you hate looking at me that much" she spat out, and before you could question her, you felt your own towel being thrown on your back, struggling to hold onto it. "hey, i don't hate-" you immediately replied while turning around, being met by the sight of your friend working to tighten the towel so it wouldn't fall from her body. you turned away from her once again and did the same by wrapping the soft cloth around you.
you took a deep breath one last time before following heejin towards your room to get changed.
"hey" you called "you look good in my clothes" you softly spoke, your head tilting to the side while sitting at the edge of your bed, your arms supporting you. she simply looked at you and scoffed, going back to hanging both your clothes to dry.
"c'mooon" you whined, "are you mad at me?".
no reply.
"heeej".
her back was still facing you, covered by your black tshirt that fell right below her hips, and the shorts she was wearing as bottoms left her legs exposed. it’s not that you hadn’t seen her in a pair of shorts or a skirt before, but there was just something about her wearing your clothes that sent your mind racing and spiraling on its own. her hair recently dried was slightly wavy, as it had not been abused by a straightener, and you couldn't help but admire how pretty she looked. she didn't seem to care about what you had to say to her, though.
you sighed loudly and looked away. the rain was still heavy and hitting against your window so much that you thought it might shatter. you liked the rain a lot. too bad it ruined your first date with the girl you had been flirting with for two years.
"hey i'm sorry for not listening to you and taking the car" you spoke as a veil of guilt fell over you. she sighed loudly, "would you stop apologizing?", she snapped at you, sounding rather pissed, but without making you the courtesy of looking at you.
"sorry about the rain, sorry about getting you wet, sorry about the fact that i hate you so much i don’t even wanna look at you while we're standing in the same shower naked-" she began rambling, flinging her arms around.
"hey hey" you tried to calm her down, "is this what this is all about?".
she finally turned around to face you without dignifying you with an answer, puffing her cheeks and looking at you with slightly glossy eyes. your heart sank and your features immediately relaxed as a small smile bloomed on your lips. you reached out to her carefully, awaiting for her consent and grabbing her wrist as she allowed you to. you pulled her towards you so that she was now standing in between your thighs, unable to make eye contact, instead settling for playing with her fingers and fiddling with her shirt.
"oh~ now who's the one that can't look the other in the eyes, huh?" you teased, releasing her hand from yours not before leaving a small kiss on the back of it. your arms came out to wrap around her legs, your chin resting against her tummy while looking up at her. heejin laid a hand on your forehead, making you shut your eyes close at the feeling, moving out of the way some rebellious strands of hair, and then placing it on top of your head, gently petting it..
"do you like me, y/n?" she spoke in a whisper after a few seconds of comfortable silence -you swore you could have fallen asleep, accompanied by the warmth her body was emitting. you fluttered your eyes open to look at her, you eyelids still heavy and droopy.
"of course i do" you replied, your raspy voice making heejin's heart skip a beat, "i wouldn't have asked you out on a date if i didn't" you continued, this time leaving a small peck on her stomach, still covered by her clothes.
she bit her tongue, her grip on your hair tightening involuntarily, as you winced in pain pleasure? at the feeling. she mumbled an apology and you shook your head 'no', reassuring her that she didn't have to apologize.
"i like you a lot too, y/n" she suddenly said, her hands caressing your hair to get your attention, as it seemed like you were drifting off to sleep again, your face still smushed against her tummy and arms still wrapped around her thighs. you smiled widely at her words.
"you do..?" you searched for confirmation. "yeah, i wouldn't have come on this date with you if i didn't" she replied, mocking you from before. you chuckled and buried your face into her shirt, nose nuzzling against it. "i'm glad".
as heejin began playing with your hair a bit, combing her fingers through it and twirling it, your mind was so hazy and tired that you felt like you acted on impulse; you hands came up to grasp at the hem of the top she was wearing, your fingers toying with it a bit before slowly lifting the fabric to expose her toned stomach. your lips softly grazed her skin before pressing against it, leaving one, two... kisses.
heejin fisted your hair in response, a whimper escaping her lips before she could stop it; the whole action causing you to hum against her skin. "you're so beautiful" you commented, speaking with your lips still so close to her that she could feel your warm breath against her. she closed her eyes to suppress another embarrassing sound.
your arms loosened from her legs so that one of your hands would land on her hip and the other began caressing one of her thighs, moving up and down, amused by the goosebumps you were causing. her grip on your hair came undone -much to your displease- and instead she rested her hand on the back of your neck, this time finally locking eyes with you.
"i didn't look at you before" you began explaining as your hand tightened its grip on her thigh, "because i'm not sure i would have been able to keep my composure" you finished in a whisper, moving both of your hands on her hips and yanking her down so that she was now sitting on your lap. heejin yelped at the action, her hands moving to your shoulders on reflex to keep herself steady, her eyes squeezed shut. as she opened them, she was met with your dumb, oh so dumb and stupidly cocky, expression, blushing at your messy hair -that she was the cause of- and stupid smirk.
"are you shy now, suddenly?" you teased, face inching closer to hers. she could not reply, only blabbering out incoherent words that only made your smirk grow bigger.
you stopped her by peppering a few kisses on her collarbone, which made her whine out loud instinctively, and she grabbed your hair again to pull you away. you groaned in response, a pout forming on your lips right after, a small tear in the very corner of your eye. "aah stop doing that, it's not fair!" you protested.
she wanted to say sorry for possibly hurting you but she couldn’t deny that you looked extremely attractive like that, as per why her words wouldn’t come out. her hand moved from your hair - causing you to hiss at the release- to your warm cheek, moving her thumb to rub circles on your plush skin, all under your attentive gaze that did not leave her face even once.
“i...” she whispered “really like the rain” she finished in a giggle, clearly affected by her own cheesiness. you smiled back at her, your head tilting to the side as you leaned back a bit, your weight supported by one of your hands resting on the mattress, and the other finding its place on heejin’s lower back.
literally just put "hiatus" in my bio two days ago and yesterday i got some sparks of inspo to write and i couldnt get it out of my head so... guess uhmm im posting a lil something tonight
warnings: mentions of alcohol, getting drunk, no angst but there’s a little argument, mention of hickeys. the character portrayed in this story does not reflect in any way the person of kim hyunjin, and it does not reflect the way i think of her. it is purely fictional and created for entertainment purposes.
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“hi please, don’t touch that!” you yelled with a fake condescending smile on your face, bringing your hands together to avoid strangling the stranger in front of you. they gave you the dumbest look, already messed up because of the alcohol.
“those are my grandma’s ashes, now back off” you said while shoving them away, grabbing the tiny vase - which actually didn’t contain anyone’s ashes but it was still something dear to you and you would rather avoid it getting smashed by drunken college students.
you walked up to your locker, opening it just to find yet another pink envelope with your name on it written in a pretty and neat handwriting.
you swore you’ve seen that handwriting before, yet it had been months since you’ve been receiving countless letters from this secret admirer, and you had no idea of who it could be.
_
“another one” you sighed, putting the letter on your desk and plopping down on you chair soon after, next to your best friend, who already knew what you were talking about.
“what does this one say?” she asked curiously, holding her cheek in her left hand, turning her body a bit to face you completely.
you started reading the letter out loud, once again the words in it were super sweet and you blushed every single time by just reading them, and the thing you wanted the most was to find out who wrote all that.
in front of you, hyunjin was looking right at your face, the smallest smirk on her lips, knowing damn well what the letter said already.
you were caught by surprise in heavy rain, without an umbrella of course, and your house was pretty far away from where you were; making it there without catching a cold was literally impossible.
luckily, you were close to your girlfriend’s house, who opened the door to find you almost soaked.
she let you warm up and take a shower, leaving some dry clothes for you to get changed.
hyunjin loved oversized hoodies and when you put one of hers on, you could pretty much swim in it and she thought you were one of the cutest girls ever, and you spent the rest of the day cuddling on the couch while rain was pouring outside
