Pom

missing the nights

[kosmogrl]

[oldfamiliarnights]

the feeling that there are people out there who don't actively hold you back as much as they work quietly on your insecurities so that you hold yourself back.

[oldfamiliarnights]

Please God, make my mother outlive anyone and everyone.

[cozyvu]

via cozyvu

[oldfamiliarnights]

I’m very tired, the kind that sits in the bones.

[oldfamiliarnights]

I don’t belong anywhere or with anyone

[oldfamiliarnights]

Too terrified of the unknown.

[oldfamiliarnights]

I needed the distraction to save me from myself.

[oldfamiliarnights]

And it doesn’t seem to matter

And it doesn’t seem right

Cause the will has brought no fortune

Still, I cry alone at night

[oldfamiliarnights]

I feel like I am no one, from head to toe

[oldfamiliarnights]

I don’t even want anyone close enough to see the damage.

[oldfamiliarnights]

Grew up feeling unwanted everywhere I went.

[oldfamiliarnights]

Now when i try to talk about it, it’s denied.

I’m told it didn’t happen.

Or that I’m the problem.

Or that I’m unforgiving.

Anything but an apology. Anything.

[oldfamiliarnights]

I wish to be happy

[oldfamiliarnights]

Why am I missing you? What exactly am I missing?

[oldfamiliarnights]

I feel like a failure

[oldfamiliarnights]

Take away my sadness, please.