Because that’s literally her name in my phone, and I don’t think that will ever change. I haven’t written on here in awhile, but I thought it would only be fitting to write about this person in this type of media.
Anyways, I had a conversation with her the other night, and it grew deep, more than I could have even anticipated when I first dialed her number.
If there is anyone who knows and assess any situation I’m in at any given time, in a way that only I can understand, it’s her.
We spoke of our younger selves, yet here we are, merely turning 23 years old this year. Speaking as if our 21 year old selves were so distant from us. But it was true, if, and only if, we could go back in time, I would’ve told my 21 year old self to stop. I would tell her, “you don’t need to do this.” We were just some 20/21/22 year olds thinking we could take on the world. Double boarding like idiots. And to be completely honest it was true, I was so torn, why the fuck did I think it was okay to be admin director and Vice President and external in term. Only to be followed with presidency and vice chairperson the next term. You know why, only an idiot would accept that fate, I happen to be that idiot. But as they always say, it’s in the past, and I can’t turn back time and change my decisions.
Do I regret it? Yes and no.
Yes because in all honesty it was too much, but somehow I was able to convince myself to not even mention the hardships I had with myself. The only issues I would ever bring up is if it dealt with others surrounding me and if they stood as an obstacle in my path.
No because I know how strong I can be. I know what wisdom to pass on. I know some of the best people of my life.
Anyways, at the end of the day, I’m always going to look up to Kristine. Even if it bothers her haha. We’ve gone through so much together, we understand so much of each other, and it really is comforting to know that their is someone I can really relate to in this crazy ass life. She’s exposed me to so much of this world, I’ve really become more understanding of myself because of her.
If you ever read this, I do genuinely mean it when I say, I fucking thank you for so much.
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