𝖘𝖈𝖚𝖑𝖕𝖙𝖔𝖗

once she was nerdanel the wise. now she was known as nerdanel the heartsick

[ondomaitar]

nerdanel the wise, they called her once. these days, they call her nerdanel the heartsick.

"what has my wisdom given me? nothing, nothing. an empty house, no longer a home. a husband, whom i love yet has drifted out of my reach, so far beyond it that i fear he will never return. sons and family who followed him, my beloved children running to meet their wretched doom one by one — all in exile, unable to receive my love ."

𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭 & 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧 𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐚𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐥 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐞𝐧'𝐬 𝐥𝐞𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐮𝐦

𝖽𝗈𝖼𝗌. / 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖼𝖺𝗇𝗈𝗇𝗌. / 𝗆𝗒 𝖾𝖽𝗂𝗍𝗌.

─ ⊹ ⊱꒰☆꒱⊰ ⊹ with her stands : ─ ⊹ ⊱꒰☆꒱⊰ ⊹ spouse : @adanaelen ⊹ @spoilsovwar

[ narrated by nile / follows back from @ theconvocation ]

[ tolkien blogroll : springsdawn. laughingmaiden. m0rlain. dalishvictory. jewelbeloved. vardamaiden. rianodorwinion. ]

[kibutsulove]

feanor having those dead-wife type hallucinations as soon as he got on that damn boat when he was really the dead one. post kinslaying clarity

[sentinelprompts]

━━ ⟢ SENTENCE STARTERS : EXCALIBUR ( 1981 ). all of these were pulled from the final draft of the script as it is available online. perfect but not limited to fantasy / historical muses and verses ! feel free to edit as needed.

❛ i spit on your truce, [name]. ❜

❛ [name], what is this wagging of tongues? ❜

❛ you will be mine. wife and queen, bed and crown. ❜

❛ i want no other crown and no other bed than those i have. ❜

❛ sometimes i give, sometimes i take. it is mine to know which, and when. ❜

❛ i know the storm inside you, and what it has wrought. ❜

❛ you will swear by your true kingship to grant me what i wish. ❜

❛ this is magic - making solid what is in the mind, and unsolid, that which is already solid. ❜

❛ it is done. the future has found root in the present. ❜

❛ but what shall become of me, and the child i bear? ❜

❛ three horses died under me, so hard did i spur them here. ❜

❛ the child is mine, [name]. i have come for [him/her/them]. ❜

❛ it’s not for you, [name], heath and home, wife and child. ❜

❛ to kill and be king, is that all? ❜

❛ you strike me with words as hard as steel. ❜

❛ [name]... i loved you, mighty child. ❜

❛ it is a dark hour… everywhere lawlessness and destruction, and no one to lead us out of it. ❜

❛ you wrong me, for i have never stolen from others, or destroyed the fruit of the land. ❜

❛ a good squire doesn’t forget his knight’s sword. ❜

❛ i was your son before i became your king…if i am king. ❜

❛ [name], we haven’t forgotten you. this is more of your trickery. ❜

❛ ‘help me, help me’. help me get up. ❜

❛ i was hoping i could ask you for a little magic help, but if it makes you so tired… ❜

❛ it will be a good lesson. the best, if it’s not the last. ❜

❛ let’s finish this with a show of force. we have no more tricks and no more advantages. ❜

❛ you are in my hands, to slay or to spare. ❜

❛ swear faith to me and you shall have mercy. ❜

❛ you, [name], will knight me. ❜

❛ well, then, i shall tell you which knights have maiden daughters, so you can avoid their castles. ❜

❛ quiet, or i’ll sew up your mouth too. ❜

❛ i love her. if she would be my queen, my dreams would be answered. ❜   

❛ there are maidens as fair, and fairer than [name]. ❜

❛ you’re not listening. your heart is not. love is deaf as well as blind. ❜

❛ i should have left you to fend for yourself. ❜

❛ that is a wild boast. you lack a knight’s humility. ❜

❛ never have i met my match in joust or duel. ❜

❛ yield. i have the advantage. ❜

❛ fight me from your horse or on foot, but fight me. your avoidance mocks me. ❜

❛ i sought only not to harm you. ❜

❛ thanks to god, you are alive. ❜

❛ i love you, my king. ❜  

❛ it is i who must love you, for through your courage and patience you taught me a bitter lesson. ❜

❛ make me your champion, and i will always fight in your place. ❜

❛ i would pledge to you all that i still own : muscle, bone, blood and the heart that pumps it. ❜

❛ the war is over. one land, one king. peace. ❜

❛ i swear never to rest twice on the same pillow till all men live at peace. ❜

❛ i hear the stifled cry for help, i smell the reek of fear… ❜

❛ for your gift, ask a gift of me. ❜

❛ don’t start a war on my wedding day! ❜

❛ look, [name]. the maids and ladies whisper about you. they all dream of winning you, young and old, fair and ugly. ❜

❛ you're the bravest and strongest knight they’ve ever seen, and beauty has kissed your brow. ❜  

❛ and is there no maiden in the whole world who inspires you? ❜

❛ i would swear my love to you. ❜   

❛ i will see you in all women, and i will defend them as i would defend you. ❜ 

❛ [name], don’t you join the celebration? ❜

❛ you’re an angel! not a devil… ❜

❛ who will give me my sword? ❜

❛ i want to write poems about you with moonbeams, make the sea sing your name… ❜

❛ what good are songs and poems to me? they are the barter of ordinary love. ❜

❛ tell me, [name] : have we defeated evil, as it seems? ❜

❛ where hides evil, then, in my kingdom? ❜

❛ i will champion you, my lady. ❜

❛ when i act as your king, i cannot be your husband. ❜

❛ the laws, my laws, must bind everyone, or they are not laws at all. ❜

❛ [name], i fight against myself… ❜

❛ i demand justice, as is my right. ❜

❛ i yield to your mercy, [name]. ❜

❛ flesh on flesh. i will heal you. ❜

❛ they miss the battlefield. i think we do too. ❜

❛ you will be sorely missed. heal yourself and come back. ❜

❛ you think yourself a kingmaker. ha! a meddler, more likely. ❜

❛ the gods of once are gone forever, it is time for men. ❜

❛ [name], make a man out of me. kiss me. ❜

❛ do you think i am ignorant of your stupid little games? preying on the weakness of others. that’s your power, a petty evil. ❜

❛ i will ride forth in the name of that quest, and commit my strength and my soul to it. ❜

❛ [name], a dreadful fear is upon me, that we may never meet again, that the fellowship will be no more… ❜

❛ [name], i know your heart yearns to go, but i am prisoner to my duties, and you must be to yours, at my side. ❜

❛ [name], forgive me. i die without the secret. i have failed. ❜

❛ where are you going, [name], in your iron tomb? still trying to save the world? ❜

❛ i have come to claim what is mine. ❜

❛ i recognize you only as my son, no more. ❜

❛ i cannot offer you the land, only my love. ❜

❛ we will embrace only in battle, and i will touch you only with the blade of my spear. ❜ 

❛ i will muster a great force of knights, and i will return to fight for what is mine. ❜

❛ i have waited long for you. ❜

❛ i am wasting away and i cannot die. and i cannot live. ❜

❛ i didn’t know how empty was my soul until it was filled. ❜

❛ [name], accept my forgiveness, and put your heart to rest. we have suffered too long. ❜

❛ i have always loved you, and i still love you. ❜

❛ i loved you much, as king, and sometimes as husband, but one cannot gaze too long at the sun in the sky. ❜

❛ i was not born to live a man’s life, but to be the stuff of future memory. ❜

❛ now once more i must ride with my knights to defend what was, and the dream of what could be. ❜

❛ i never dared to hope all these years that it was in your keeping. ❜

❛ i have often thought that in the hereafter of our lives, when i owe no more to the future and can be just a man, that we may meet, and you will come to me and claim me as yours, and know that i am your husband. it is a dream i have… ❜

❛ [name], i need you at my side as you were once, my friend, to give me courage. ❜

❛ quiet. you’ll wake the men, and they must fight tomorrow for their lives. ❜

❛ you brought me back. your love brought me back. ❜

❛ what’s behind that beauty? a wizened, cold-hearted snake. ❜

❛ you are mine at last. i am the sea and you will never escape me. ❜

❛ in this battle there is one thing i must do, that no one else can. ❜

❛ [name], i will save you…don’t die. ❜

❛ let my heart do its job, [name], and pump me empty… ❜

❛ the fog is lifting. only we remain alive. ❜

❛ [name], prepare to meet your death. ❜

❛ obey me, [name]. you must act for me. it is my last order as your king. ❜

❛ [name]! will you return? ❜

[ondomaitar]

nerdanel & having a sixth sense for when feänor will open his mouth to say shit when it isn't the time nor place.

[wanderer-clarisse]

some Nerdanel sketches

[busymagpie]

And another one done. I’m really glad I finished (well… basically redid) this piece of Feanor. The initial piece was from 2020 when I decided to let it rot in my WIP folder.

(WIP 18)

[sophachipupa]

feanorians sketches

actually lov the way I drew them here

[tanjashu]

Maedhros and Nerdanel :"(

[calaquendii-archived]

Feanor and Nerdanel

I commissioned this from the amazing @tosquinha, who did such a fantastic job! i love this so much!! A gentle moment between Feanor and Nerdanel at a party, based on my designs for them.  Did i mention how much i love this???? 

[sorry-cupcake-not-without-you]

“If only men would think instead of fight, there might be more good ones left.” - Constance Bonacieux

[first-son-of-finwe]

“I know well, Nerdanel.” The words came out quietly, lacking their usual conviction that many called arrogance. Fëanaro cut a diminished figure in his modest raiment, with no jewels on his hands and no crown upon his head. Even the fierce light that had once shone in his eyes seemed dim.

Above all, for perhaps the first time in all his years, he looked ashamed. 

Facing the judgement of the Valar meant little next to facing the sorrow of his wife. Nerdanel’s spirit seemed shattered with grief, and the shame hung heavy on him that he had done this. 

“I ask forgiveness for doing that which no husband should. I have caused you grief beyond measure.”

His words struggled to come at first, unnatural on his tongue. Yet he winced as his own harsh words were thrown back at him, and his regret flowed from him freely.

“I saw nothing beyond my wounded pride, prized nothing but the work of my own hands. I heard nothing but the voice in my mind telling me to trust no one, and in my folly, I turned away from the one thing that may have saved me.”

Fëanáro shut his eyes and sank down to his knee, his head bowed. He could not bear to look at her and witness her judgement. 

“I took our children from you, sacrificed them to grief and torment in my own name. I know not how to earn your forgiveness.

“All I know is that I am a blind man without you. Now I wake to a colourless world, where all the art of my hands means nothing. Nerdanel, I…” His voice caught in his throat, wavering. He would not weep. What right did he have to tears? “I am so sorry.”

[ondomaitar]

turning slowly to face him, it struck her that it was the first time in what seemed ages that she'd seen him. the art that came from her hands, despite all the praise of it being as lifelike as a true person, could never compare. it had no heart that could beat for her, nor could it speak to her the sweet words from years ago.

he had always been so filled with pride that it was almost unsettling to see him in such a humble position, and clad very much the same. he almost did not feel like the husband she had spent blessed and trying years with. then again, she likely did not resemble the wife he had spent those years with either. she did not burn as brightly, nor had her laugh been heard in a long, long time in the absence of all that once brought her joy.

" ... you apologise, yet you cannot bring yourself to do it properly. " nerdanel hesitated a moment before drawing nearer, looking down at him, hand reaching to touch his jaw. he had wounded her beyond measure, left her with scars that could never fade ... no one would blame her if it had changed her heart. but it had not. it yearned still, beat for him still, in spite of everything. " face me, in the very least. even if you do not want to. you owe that much to me. you owe it to me to look upon me and await my reply. "

retracting her hand, her gaze was as sharp as it was pained. it was an apology she had wished for, but now found it not enough. perhaps it never would be in comparison with what had been endured. " if you are a blind man now, then you must know you forced me to live blinded for years in your absence. blinded, and crippled by your parting words. no matter what happened between us, i never would have done to you what you did to me. " never in her darkest days would she have dreamt to do such a thing. even her temper had its limits, though it rivalled his in intensity.

tears welled up in her eyes, out of frustration, out of anger. out of love, out of grief. was it any wonder such conflicting emotions raged within when there was so much distance between them now. and how could that be anything but upsetting when love still burned quietly, stubbornly despite it all. " you owe me a debt, fëanáro, for how my love was repaid with grief. i hope you are resolved to mend the trust and love that has been fractured, because i have no intention to be rid of this marriage. you chose me, therefore you will be tied to me for all your years. "

[micelilies]

Feanor and Nerdanel

[first-son-of-finwe]

@ondomaitar

[shrimpye]

lady nerdanel

[runmien]

Young Fëanor and Nerdanel spinning around back in Valinor

[ohisms]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐎𝐍'𝐒 𝐇𝐎𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐄 . ( a collection of fantasy - based dialogue prompts . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

strangers don't last very long around here .

lay down your sword , and i'll lay down mine .

whatever you do , do not stray from the path .

try not to get yourself killed .

the magic here is old and wild .

quiet ... do not wake it .

i thought i'd find you here . get up .

the tavern in [ location ] is known for its ale and its rumors .

you are starting the path towards your destiny .

is there no end to this accursed forest ?

my sword is yours .

the path to redemption is paved with trials and tribulations .

this forest feels ... sick . as if a disease lies upon it .

you are nothing but damned bones , and a damned soul .

have you ever seen the world beyond [ location ] ?

in the face of overwhelming odds , we must stand united .

please don't let them know that i'm here .

i've heard tales of your exploits . impressive , if they're true .

there's a town three miles east from here .

we have such history , you and i .

go carefully ... there's a camp nearby .

you will not die here , i forbid it .

your reputation precedes you .

i would rather die on my feet than on my knees .

there is no destiny . no born heroes .

you've got a fire in your eyes . use it , but don't let it consume you .

the spirits of this forest are restless .

there's more that you aren't telling me .

you have something that belongs to me .

you shouldn't be here , it's not safe in these parts .

all we can trust are the blades in our hands .

do you believe in fate ? destiny , prophecies ...

i don't think i'll ever get used to having blood on my hands .

wait ! there's traps here . lots of them .

i would die before helping in such a task .

there's an inn just another mile north .

have your blade at the ready .

if you can't already tell , i don't require saving .

have you drank your fill already ?

this isn't just some lark to me .

i'm headed to [ location ] . i could use some company .

your bravery is admirable , but it will also be your undoing .

you're exhausted , [ name ] . we're stopping here .

i will hunt you until the day i die .

i wish you a safe journey home .

as long as i can be of no help , i'm going to hide .

raise your sword . this should be a fair fight .

you're brave to show your face here again .

in this world , you can trust two things ; your intuition and your sword .

i've seen the way you look at the horizon . you're searching for something .

[ administers a healing potion / spell ] is that any better ?

you have no idea of the catastrophe you've set in motion .

there's an ambush ahead , stay quiet .

i want to know your story ... beginning to end .

in the end , we're all just stories waiting to be told .

i've heard tales of a dragon living high up in the mountains . some say it's just a myth , others swear it's real .

the line between friend and foe is often blurred .

try to stay quiet . is the wound deep ?

do not provoke them .

monster ? who's the monster here ?

i forbid you from telling anyone what you've seen here .

are you scared of witches ?

that's a beautiful [ weapon ] . may i ?

you are a valuable ally and a fearsome adversary .

do not tell me you've grown soft over the years .

if our enemy has returned , we must know .

you're a tough one to read , but i can see the kindness in your eyes .

the key to survival is knowing when to fight and when to flee .

i never expected to run into you in [ location ] .

last we spoke , you owed me some coin .

do not fear me ... everybody else fears me .

there is no magic or medicine that can cure this .

you keep questionable company .

every choice has a consequence .

the fate of the world lies in your hands .

so you're the great [ name ] .

remorse will get you nowhere .

you must stay on the path . do not leave it . if you do , you'll never find it again .

i once dreamed of this place . it's real ?

some secrets are best left buried .

the bridge is heavily guarded . we need a plan .

i thought you were returning home .

i would not do this unless i had to .

i need my horse .

it's real . all of the stories , the legends ... and it's real .

don't lose your wit . i believe you'll have need for it yet .

[stillgotscars]

my tears ricochet - taylor swift

[ondomaitar]

@first-son-of-finwe

[maedictus]

fëanáro and nerdanel ✨💫