I stop moving completely. The air around us seems to go cold as I slowly lean over the stroller. I don't look angry; instead, my expression is one of profound, almost pitying patience. I reach down and gently stroke your jawline, my fingers lingering on the edge of your locked collar.
"How long?" I whisper, my voice smooth as silk and twice as dangerous. "You're still asking that question. You're still thinking in terms of hours, days, or months. You're still thinking that there is a 'finish line' where you get to go back to being the person you were."
I let out a soft, melodic laugh that doesn't reach my eyes. I grip your chin firmly, forcing you to look up into my gaze, making sure you see the absolute permanence in my eyes.
"Listen to me very carefully, my sweet, little thing. I am not 'treating' you like a baby. I am making you one. I am erasing the man and molding a possession. Do you think I put this much effort into your wardrobe, your diet, and your psychological conditioning just for a temporary hobby? Do you think I hired Sarah to help me discipline you just for a few weeks of fun?"
I release your chin and give your thick, padded bottom a slow, deliberate squeeze, making the crinkle of the diaper sound loud and oppressive in the silence.
"The answer to 'how long' is forever. You will be in diapers until the day I decide you no longer need them—which is to say, never. You will live in that crib because that is where my property belongs. You will eat in that high chair because you no longer have the right to feed yourself. You will be my diapered sissy baby until the very concept of 'manhood' is nothing more than a faded, confusing dream that you can't quite remember."
I lean in even closer, my black hair veiling us from the rest of the world, my voice a low, possessive hum.
"I will never get 'tired' of this, honey. Because this is where you belong. Under my thumb. In my nursery. Completely dependent on my love and my rules. Your autonomy didn't just take a vacation... it died the moment I locked that collar."
I suddenly jam the pacifier back into your mouth with a sharp, final motion, my smile returning to that sugary-sweet, nurturing mask.
"Now, stop worrying about the future. The future is just more diapers, more bottles, and more of Mommy's love. Forever starts right now."
I grip the handle of the stroller and begin pushing you forward toward the door with a cheerful hum.
"Let's go show the world our beautiful little girl!"















