I dream, therefore I am

The username describes usually how long it takes for me to fall asleep. In case you haven't gotten the hint, this is a dream blog.

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The One with the Trip to US

10 Jan 2020

This was a really trippy dream. Most of the time I have no idea where I’m supposed to be as the scenes kept changing.

In the beginning I was at home, lazing in bed as usual, when Ca texted me to tell me that her boyfriend cheated on her. I spent quite long consoling her and I believe I’ve shared some wise words. Too bad I can’t remember them.

Then next moment my room became a hotel room instead. I think I was in US? I went to tour around and took some photos. I noted down that there’s some ghostly encounters too but I can’t remember the details, and it was only for a bit. 

I think I was on a trip with my family, again with my aunt and cousin and family. But there were a bunch of other characters too. I remember having a party till late with a lot of people. I know V was there, SY was there, and there was Wit along with some other colleagues as well. For some reason even though we know we were partying till late, the sun won’t go down. It was bright as day at 12 midnight. I think we were in US but we still got Singapore sun? Hahaha

Then I remember sending my cousin and family off again, because they were probably leaving before us. Some time later I received a text from Jason Ang, he shared a photo of him with Angela on the plane and asked if I was jealous of him (that he gets to be with my cute little baby niece). I think I got annoyed or something because I left alone after that. Either that or my family also decide to go ahead without me.

The scene skipped around a little after this. One moment I was on the train struggling to contact my family because my data ran out, next moment I am with them.

Then we ended up at home. That must be the fastest journey from US to Singapore ever. I tried to take a shower but both bathrooms were occupied. So... I went back to my hotel (? Am I back in US again? I am really confused by this dream too). Somehow my cousin and niece were there, I thought they went back to HK...

It was a trippy dream.

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The One with the High School Anniversary Reunion

8 Jan 2020

This took place in somebody’s house. I was playing mahjong with YC, JX, and 1 more forgotten person. I took a toilet break and somehow the rest decided that the news they needed to share with me was urgent enough to warrant the need to... barge into the toilet while I was doing my business. So we had a discussion about our high school anniversary reunion in the toilet, while I was sitting on the toilet bowl with my pants down. 

Apparently we were supposed to attend the reunion in pairs, a little like American high school proms. I don’t know why and what happened to MJ, but JX asked me to go with him, and I agreed.

Next moment we were dressing up for the event, and JX made me wear heels. (As if he’s tall enough for me to wear heels lol). I don’t know if it’s dream me’s imagination but I felt like YC was always looking at us with envy.

There was a blank in my memory where I don’t remember what happened at the actual event venue. It was probably something very normal. I was talking to some old schoolmates before suddenly realising I don’t have my heels. (Idk how I lost my shoes)

Someone told me my heels were with JX, so I put on some sneakers (it looked like the converse I always wear, just not sure how it got there), and I went to look for him. I went everywhereeee it was a long search. I finally found him in the auditorium seated next to YC. I complained to him about him taking my shoes and how I had to wear sneakers and now I have an extra pair of shoes with me that I have nowhere to keep them because this is a formal event, I’m in a gown and obviously had no bag to keep the extra shoes. JX ignored my complaining and told me eventually MJ came to the event, so now he’s gonna go with her and asked me to pair with YC instead since he’s alone. And I... gladly did heh :P

YC smiled gently and put my shoes in his bag with his usual demeanour. And I happily sat down next to him to enjoy the rest of the show in the auditorium.

And then I had to wake up at this moment 🙄

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The One Where I’m Everywhere

7 Jan 2020

I always write down my dreams briefly after waking up and post when I find the time to do so. Usually I’m able to remember the details of the dream once I read my handwritten notes, but this particular one... I have zero memory left. 

The dream begins with me getting ready to go to Malaysia with my family. I was at work and my family was waiting for me in the car downstairs. I finally got down after work and they were all ready to go. But I suddenly remembered that I haven’t changed my clothes. I can’t remember what I’m wearing but I remember I absolutely needed to change out of it.

So I went back up to change, but instead of my work place or home, I ended up in a nice-looking hotel. I don’t know where it is but it seemed familiar, like a place I’ve dreamt of before. And instead of waiting for me, my parents decided to go on ahead without me :< I changed quickly and took the lift down again, but this time on the way down, I somehow got my keys stuck in the lift, so the lift won’t move. The people in the lift helped me to get them unstuck, and after the keys got free, the lift became a vehicle that brought us to my destination where my family was already waiting.

Then the dream skipped to a boxing class. And my dad was there to watch me for some reason. We were having a sparring session and I was gonna go first. My opponent was a very young girl. We were ready to go but the fight just won’t start. The staff made us warm up very thoroughly, then we had to sign some forms, and while this is going on, there was a dude going around selling T-shirts to the audience. The T-shirts had prints of my name and my opponent’s name, I guess it’s supposed to be fan T-shirts? I asked for one too but by then he already ran out. When the fight was finally going to start, I was asked to pick a weapon for the fight (I thought it was boxing?🤔). I picked a pencil (I don’t know why either), and...

...the scene skipped to a classroom. I was sitting behind Chris, this new guy from work. I’m not sure what the class was about. (I did write down something in my dream notebook but now I’m not even sure what I meant there...) But anyway I was playing with my tablemate’s dog for some reason. At the end when the in-charge was taking attendance, I realised all of us in the class were supposed to be somewhat famous people. Then then my director appeared to nag at us for having super messy desks...

I feel like this is the most nonsensical dream I’ve had this year.

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The One Where Strawberries Grew on Trees

6 Jan 2020

I was training in the mountains. Idk what I was training for and what mountain that was. But I had some scientific devices on the mountain and monitored the moon from time to time.

My mum brought my aunt to visit one day (I think I miss my aunt already, she’s been a frequent guest in my dreams). On that day strawberries started growing everywhere, and people were really excited about them. I think there were enough strawberries for me to eat for a life time. I distinctly remember enjoying the flavour a lot, they were really sweet 😋 When my mum and aunt reached I brought them around to pick strawberries. I was telling them that I almost bought strawberries from DDDK because they were so pretty, but hesistated because of the price. Then I was glad I didn’t buy because I tasted some and they were just all looks and no taste. (This was real btw). And now we get to enjoy sweet ones for free.

We later left to go around other parts of Singapore. We went to a hawker centre for food, and toured around some old shops in the area. The place felt like Queensway Shopping Centre, but like from an older era. We watched some old man make shoes and my aunt liked those shoes so much. Too bad they were too expensive even for dream me to get some for her. A dream glitch happened at this point where my cousin appeared as if she had always been there, but I’m most definitely sure she wasn’t before.

The scene then skipped back to the mountains, and I was alone. There was a weird girl with an unknown machine. She was trying to control the sun and moon. I knew she would fail so didn’t bother stopping her and just watched, even gave her tips here and there. She was riding the sun (?) and managed to control it, only to realise this way it stops spinning and will burn one whole country it’s currently shining on. So she tried to rectify this error. From the point of her riding the sun, the image was more like... an anime than real life.

I think the part where it became anime was actually a separate dream, something like a continuation. Because I am very sure I woke up at 6.30am, and went back to sleep. I believe I actually went back to continue my dream but I couldn’t get back the same images? So I managed to get back the same dream after waking up and falling asleep again :o

I noticed this is not my only dream as I vaguely remember dreaming about something related to work. Where my director was telling us all creatives have to take on additional workload because our work is seasonal.

Is my memory of dreams improving?

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Once Upon a Time in Qing 梦回大庆

5 Jan 2020

Yes that’s not a typo, it’s 大庆, not 大清. As if I would follow that shitty drama lol. Today’s dream was based on a much better drama series, 庆余年, which occurred in a totally fictional era with fictional emperors.

So instead of 范闲, I was the main character this time. I was in court talking with the emperor, and the other advisors kept trying to shoot me down and remove me from power simply because I was female. They objected to whatever ideas or suggestions I had, only to prove themselves wrong later.

I can’t even begin to express my regret for forgetting this dream OTL. I could only remember how exciting it was, and how good it felt outsmarting all those old men, but I remember none of the content😭 Sorry this feel little like a clickbait.

One thing I can confirm is, it’s not very possible to fully remember a dream you had previously if you fall asleep and wake up again. I believe I’ve tried and succeeded before, but that was probably once or twice in my life. Anyway I have nothing to back myself up now.

I know my dream ended at 6.30am, because that’s when my alarm went off for me to go for my morning run. I woke up for a brief moment and thought about the dream for a while. I was overconfident that I’d remember it and went back to sleep since I was lazy. And there you go, that’s all I remember. I forced myself pretty hard too.

I believe the way our brains function is that we’re not meant to remember things as trivial as dreams, just like how you don’t remember the random thoughts you had when you were daydreaming in the morning while brushing your teeth. I wonder if I’d have some long term impact on my brain or memory by forcefully remembering my dreams all the time like this.

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A Crazy Cab Ride

4 Jan 2020

My night was actually more eventful than that. But before I start on the dream, I just want to record some observations and thoughts.

I realise I tend to wake up on weekend nights. Only weekend nights. But it’s not like my sleep was disrupted, my awake moments were probably less than a minute long. I wake up, think about what I dreamt about for a while, turn around and fall back asleep, again, within the duration of “one sheep jump over the fence”.

Maybe it’s because I’ve started recording my dreams that I’m paying extra attention to it, but now I realise, I have more dreams than I thought I did. I can’t remember the content but I was definitely dreaming throughout the night. And I am very sure the dream I’m about to share, despite its length, is only the final dream I had.

Why do we forget dreams so easily?

Anyway, my dream began with my whole family going to town together with my visiting aunt. Probably inspired by the fact that my cousin’s family just visited recently.

For some reason I went out in my home clothing - green army T-shirt and elephant pants I got from V - the actual PJs I was wearing. Before leaving for town I had a weird moment at home, where all of us were watching TV and my aunt admired how pretty I am out of the blue. I think that gave me the confidence to just go out in my PJs. *shrugs* But of course after I got out I started feeling self-conscious and uncomfortable. I believe this type of dream is pretty common - going out in PJs, or suddenly being naked in public.

It was night time when we got to town. We were there for a show, which was held at an area I did not recognise. I remember my dad parking the car outside some high-class looking theatre and we went into a building. But somehow the next scene was us walking upslope a sandy path. The path was inclined and the slope was so steep that I was on all-fours. And I got criticised by my mum for being so ungraceful, unlike Grace who was walking in front dressed like a Victorian maiden. (I only named her cos her name was so fitting)

When we were there it was pretty high up and the scenery was pretty nice, so I tried to take a picture. But my phone failed me somehow, I just couldn’t get the camera settings right. Frustrated, I gave up and watched the scenery. I remember being sad for a moment, thinking how I’ve got no one to talk to and share certain things with in this world. Like there’s nobody who shared the exact same interests as me. I distinctly remember thinking I got no one to share the excitment for 爱情公寓5 and got all upset. I think it was this moment that made me wake up feeling lonely. Maybe remembering dreams might not be such a good idea if my emotions carry forward like this. Or did I already sub-consciously feel lonely before sleeping? 🤔

We were then greeted by some family friends, I recognised most of them, they were my parents’ old friends and their whole family. I went to greet them, and they asked for their tickets to the show which apparently was bought by my dad. I went to get the tickets from my dad (idk why they won’t hang together, he was some distance away), and he asked me to collect $13400 from them for the tickets. I was like WTF why is it so expensive. Idk when my dad got rich bc he shrugged the amount off like it was no big deal. I got mad and made my mum return my ticket and I went home.

By the time I got out of the show area, I was carrying luggages all of a sudden. So I thought I’d hail a cab. I flagged one off the street immediately and it was a young PRC Chinese guy driving. His taxi was... tiny. Almost like a toy. The trunk could fit my small luggage exactly and that’s it. He had a foldable backseat on which he asked me to sit. It felt reeeaaaallllyyyyy dangerous.

We drove into an area that’s having a carnival, and it was so brightly lit that it looked like day time. I tried to take a photo with my phone to share with my family but it failed me again. Had troubles with the camera, then had trouble typing too. In the end I just sent over a bad photo with some gibberish captions. Then I realise the taxi has been going around in circles. I asked and the driver finally admitted he doesn’t know the way. I tried to navigate for him only to realise all the apps in my phone were messed up. Google Maps and Google app were nowhere to be found.

We stopped and he found his wife to fix my phone. She made a call on her landline and made me make some weird sounds to the phone. I eventually got suspicious of the couple and tried to leave, and that’s when I woke up.

I woke up reaaally tired. You should be able to imagine... 😑

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The One Where Watsons Belonged to My Company

3 Jan 2020

The second day of the year isn’t much better. It’s as if I feel guilty for skipping work, my colleagues visited me in my dreams tonight. It’s a long one this time.

The dream started off with some weird anime stuff, where I was an anime character along with everyone else with me. This is probably because I watched some just before sleeping. It’s a shame I can’t remember much about this but I do know it was quite short.

Then here comes the entrée.

It starts off in a Watson’s store which somehow belonged to my company. I was there with some colleagues. There was a bunch of us, but for this part I could only remember Sa and ZW.

So we were there because there was going to be a riot in the Watson’s store and we were somehow tipped off. Most of us were there to watch, but Sa wanted to loot some items. Others decided to follow her, and eventually so did I. But to our dismay the riot was unrealistically short, and ended before we were even done picking out our stuff. I remember ZW going to pay for her stuff in the end, can’t remember if Sa did, but I know I decided to put back my stuff.

Later, we got out of the store and walked around the rest of the shopping mall. I’m not sure what we’re cursed with but every single elevator we try to go into breaks down. Most of us were nimble enough to get out each time, but Sa was a little timid and needed a little push (literally).

Then there was a white guy who came to tease me by knocking my Apple pencil out of my hand. Don't ask me why I was holding on to it in the first place. It fell into this large pool/fountain area and started to float away. I chased after it and managed to get it back in time, before coming back to argue with the dude. I went at him like a machine gun and I remember thinking, wow, this is the first time in my life that I’m so eloquent. The guy seemed shocked that I was angry, for some reason he thought that might get me to flirt with him? *rolls eyes* Well, some people are single for a reason.

The scene then skipped to someone’s house. I’m not 100% sure who but I think it was Se, though she’s not the main character there. The main character is… her dad. Never seen him before in my life, and the guy in the dream is an unknown person too. And quite frankly, a little too young to be Se’s dad. We were in his house and he’s so socially awkward. I’m not sure how many of us were there, but I feel like it’s the 4 of us from the same cubicle.

It was night time and Se’s dad refused to let us turn on the lights, because of privacy. *shrugs* And even though we’re in the house, somehow it was understood that we’re on the way to America. Most of the time, we were doing our own stuff. I spent a lot of time working on my 2020 diet plan. Suddenly Se’s dad drew the curtains open, and showed us GBTB and 2020 NYE fireworks along with the final moments of countdown. Se’s dad kept talking about celebrating with alcohol later, which I found a little creepy since he’s a lone man in his 50s with a couple of girls in their 20s. “然后等下我们再喝一点点酒” were the exact words I believe.

The dream ended with us arriving in America, where it’s day time again. I looked out the window for the scenery outside before finally waking up for work.

What an eventful night.  

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Yet Another Pregnant Dream

2 Jan 2020

I know it’s my first dream post, but this isn’t the first time I dream that I’m pregnant. I am a 28 year old female, which I guess is an alright age to be dreaming of this. But the truth is I have been having pregnant dreams for a while, ever since I was a teenager. I do want to have a child in the future but I’m not particularly fond of kids. I’ve always had an intense fear of childbirth. Maybe subconsciously I’m more worried about this than I thought I was. 

This time I was pregnant, with L’s baby. But we’re still not together. 

He visited me once in the dream but it was just a passerby moment. 

I remember it was 2 days before I was due, and my due date was 26 Sep, a certain someone’s birthday. I was really worried because my tummy was still quite small for someone so close to due date. But I got REALLY fat in the ass. 

The bulk of the dream was me interacting with my housekeeper, someone whom I don’t know in real life. He was helpful but seems to want something from me, which I couldn’t find. I kept trying to distract him by changing the topic. The whole time I was worried about the baby’s size and childbirth. 

I even consulted some mothers, but weirdly no one was concerned about the size of my baby. Though the things they said just repeatedly reaffirmed my fears of childbirth. 

The dream ended with no conclusion. 

A rather weird start to the year, eh?