A leader by his own rules.

DO NOT OFFEND MY VERY BEING Idealistic reluctance to what is existing.

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Coming back.

I think this tumblr is my personal one since I created a lot of tumblrs. I am coming back because I need to improve my writing skills and English vocabulary. Though, that is not my real reason haha! My behavior has been erratic for the past few days and it's because of Y O U and the resolution for that one is TUMBLR. Yay! I hibernated during my first year as a student leader but now, I am really coming back with full force!

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Hi! I am the awesomely-named WILBERN BLITZ PAESTE.

With emphasis to BLITZ. Mostly all of the people not closely related to me misspelled my name into: PLEC, BLITU, BLIZZ among countless attempts from CHOWKING, ADAMSON REGISTRAR, and DAIRY QUEEN. Chowking holds the record for incorrectly spelling my name.

To all of the Manong Guards, Dormmates, and People-who-didn't-believe-in-my-name, Don't worry I always bring my ID and Birth Certificate in case you wont believe in me again.

I am not a fantastic writer especially when I write in English. Though I "annoyingly" pinpoint everyone's grammatical error when I see it. Especially on facebook and twitter. However, I CANT SEEM TO SAY THAT TO MY CRUSH. 

On the above picture, That's me. I designed the cluttered arrangements of the spikes, yes those are spikes. I made that for my Bestfriend's debut.

MOREOVER, THE STORY OF THAT PICTURE...

The first picture starting from the left side...That is the not-so FIERCE me. It may described as the Blair Waldorf in me. I know she's not most suitable icon for that fierceness however, I always consult the FIERCE ME when choosing dresses/outfits and hurtful comments/rants.

The center photo is the COMEDIC me. Most of the time, I am a happy person but loaded by my ambitious dreams on steroids. It may be described as Rachel Berry. I really want to be a full-pledged scientist and at the same time, a fashionista.

Lastly, the FAKE me. Psychologically, my facial expression in that picture IS FAKE. Hahaha. My smile wasn't genuine and did not perfectly follow the "angle" of the cheeks. The FAKE ME shows whenever I hate a person or showing my feelings toward someone. However, this persona is a masochist. 

This may serve as a first ticket to my personality. =)

LASTLY, I KNOW I REALLY HAVE AN AWESOME NAME :P

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Hi Lea Michele/Rachel Berry! I am so in love with your voice + your acting + your voice again + your role in Glee. BTW, Glee is my favorite American series (Gossip Girl is next). Its comedic nature always gets through me. It’s my favorite ‘cos it reflects my high school life. Crying, and singing, and dancing, and ranting - those were my high school hobbies and it is clearly depicted in Glee.

I dont know you as a person though I follow you on twitter! Really think youre a fabulous person + nice + SUPER SEXY!!!!  Supportive girlfriend, hum hello Cory!!!

I also look up to you like Leighton/Blair! I fantasize myself as Rachel Berry - my dreams are on steroids like you HAHAHAHA! I wont stop chasing after my dreams. I almost forgot, I REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE TO SING, BUT PEOPLE THINK IM A TERRIBLE SINGER, Partly, I also agree to them HAHAH

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Marlouie V. Batalla

Uhm ayokong pahabain yung post cos youve never done that to me, EVAR. Jokes.

You know that you’re a big part of my life, my high school life particularly. Without you, I wouldn’t be like this. I wouldn’t shine around my very competitive classmates or I wouldn’t see the best...

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Panliligaw

Ako: Paano manligaw?

Shiela: Pagpupuyatan mong kausap, bibigay mo lahat ng gusto nya.

Ako: PAGPUPUYATAN? Gosh! Hindi pwede sa akin yun. Siguro sasabihin ko "Bye, matutulog na ako. May klase pa ako bukas."

Shiela: Nako, hindi dapat ganyan. Kapag nanligaw ka parang exam din yan, pinagpupuyatan, pinaghihirapan para makuha mo yung gusto mo.

*Didnt see that one coming*

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School matters.

Dormmate: Oo nga pala bakit ang talino mo pero di ka scholar?

Me: *Di ako ganoon katalino* Uhm iba kasi ung subjects ko last sem. Tsaka teh sa MAPUA, iba ang depinisyon ng matalino dun!

Srsly, ngayong nasa Adamson na ako, kaya ko naman atangg maging scholar eh. I got a high GWA this sem, highest in my entire existence. And it was full of absences, tardiness, and lack of sleep.

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Hi Leighton Meester/Blair Waldorf. You’ve been a big part of my life since I started watching Gossip Girl. However, it ended so suddenly but still I rewatch it here on my laptop during vacation. Ive always liked how you dressed and how you bitch talked and how you manipulated people. You’ll always be my icon in life. =)) I miss you so much pala :’(

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OMG IVE GOT 6 NOTES, The highest in my tumblr life im so sorry this has been my life HAHAHAHA.

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TRIGO ENCOUNTER III

Prof: *In Filipino* oh, who wants to answer this?

Me: Sir! Me!

Prof: Okay.

After a while....

Prof: Who wants to answer this one? This one's too easy. *Logarithm was our topic, I HATE LOG*

Me: Sir! Me!

Prof: Other hands please!

Me: *Raised my right hand* SIR ME HAHAHAH!

This one also happened during my Chemistry class when I got to answer all the time because my classmates were busy enough.

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I do not know why.

I said I won't listen more than once to Paramore's new song, Still Into You because in my first time

I hated Hayley's shouting (?) 

I hated her pronunciation in the first stanza

I hated her chopped hair

I hated the video, shouldve been more EMOTIONAL (Im an emotional type of person okay...)

I hated the whole song

But when I listened to someone's version, I appreciated it very very very much! Listen to this and I've never liked  a Paramore song.

http://soundcloud.com/kidnickel/still-into-you-cover

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"BITCH ALL YOU WANT, BUT NOT WITH MY DREAMS"

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SORRY. THIS IS BEYOND IRRITATION, INSECURITY, AND HATRED.

This is for my ex-bestbuddy dormmmate who turned to be one of the most offensive people walking on earth. Sorry for my words but I just cannot contain these anymore. My feelings are so provoked.

Your being offends me.

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TRIGO ENCOUNTER II

Sir: Oh anong sagot?

Me: *Says answer*

Sir: Pano nangyari yun? *Explains*

Classmate: Negative ang cosine sa Quadrant II?

Me: *death glares at him*

Classmate: *is also looking at me and I was like WTF WILBERN*

Another one.

Classmate: Negative yun? Oh?

Me:*death glares at him, LINGERING DEATH GLARE*

And i was like omg kfine blitz.

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So everyone's talking about Mothers' Day blah blah blah. Then there's me who never said anything about my life to my mom. My first crush? My first love? Why I cried in front of the computer? How I bash and rant other people? It's just saddening. =(

I wanna open up to my mom but her mind (together with my father, grandpa, grandma, ANY OF MY RELATIVES) is locked up in dekada 70!

HUEHUEHUE

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AND WHEN I GET SLIMMER, I'LL SHOW YOU HOW FASHION IS DONE.

Joke. That statement is a bold one. When will I get slim? Oh gosh. This has been my motto/anthem line/New Year's Resolution/Birthday Wish ever. =(((

Why cant I resist the temptation?

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FOR THE WORLD TO SEE, HEAR, AND FEEL.

Do you still remember nung Second year. Flag pole. With Chris. After class. Chris and I were under our hot open forum and then you came. And we told you what we were talking about earlier. Then you walked away ..... and cried.

As a concerned close friend, I feel like you're now changing or is it me? I texted this to one of my friends please understand me..."Oo kasi soon to be BF nya yun eh FRIEND lang naman ako or ako lang talaga tong taong FRIENDSHIP lang ang meron kaya sa friends lang ako kumakapit? Oo may kaMU siya sino lang ba naman akong kaibigan na handang ibigay ang lahat ng time para sa kaibigan nya? Sakit." Karen told me that Im a clingy friend, would you blame me for not having ENOUGH friends in AdU (I just transferred)? Yes, Im very thankful of you and Athena and Abby and sometimes Ana Mae for physically being there for me when I needed my BFFs. You supplied such happiness to me when Im with them. And our Friday Dinners, I loved being with you. Every time you requested for a Dinner or Movie or Buying stuff (Havs), What was my answer? OK. I never hesitated. I always found time. Im not here for "debt of gratitude." I love being with my friends thats why. It's hard being like "this". I dont even know my status in life. I just expect you, friends, to be there for me.

(THIS IS MY ANTHEM NOW http://www. youtube. com/watch?v=tl20e5GiUY8 )

LAST STRAW. I said that to myself after hearing Chris's revelation. Little did I know, you were already enjoying the company of R up up up there. Then someone texted me, confirming your agenda. I WAS IN TOTAL SHOCK. I was immobile. I poker faced. I said to Chris "It's OK". BUT IT WASN'T OKAY. NAALALA MO BA YUNG TIME NA MAY "BAGUIO GETAWAY" TAYO. I asked you kung pwede bang hindi na sumama and then you were like AASASAKGHASKHASKHASH SDGHSHGSAHSDHKSDH SHASHSH on TWITTER. What did I do? Ayan, kaunting revise ng schedule, PUMAYAG AKO. Diba? 'Cause I value our friendship and ayokong magkaroon ng sama ng loob sayo. Did you think of that nung hindi mo sinabi sa akin yung talagang gagawin mo nung Post Bday Celeb ko? Yun lang naman eh...Yun lang yung kinakasama ng galit ko at sa sobrang pagninilay-nilay, marami akong naanalyze at marami na akong naisip...I wanna express my deepest thoughts. And I know, as a friend, you'll understand this more than I should understand what you did (I read your letter three times and I kinda memorized some parts).

After telling you that we're gonna commute, your face changed. And I just insisted that Im gonna handle your transpo 'cause youve done so many libre moments dated back in HS mehehe (One valid proof of your change) . You agreed to it and then with blahblahblahs, we headed to the mall and you had some inking  on your skin. Voila! I waited for like 1hr and your fabulus henna finished. I asked you to accompany me on buying ingredients for tomorrow. Then you said blah blah blah. Tapos syempre, ako na lang sabi ko. Never in my wildest awakened self na sinamahan mo ako sa mga bagay na kailangan ng manpower. Ever... Or never mo talaga akong sinamahan sa mga bagay na gusto ko ring gawin. It was always you. And si Athena sumama sa akin sa mga bagay na ayaw mo akong samahan. Why does it have to be like that? Always.

Sa pag-iisip-isip ko, siguro ayaw na ni Cyra sumama kasi ang alam nya may private transpo pero hindi ba nya inisip na ang kaunti at rush nito para magprivate transpo. 'Di naman kami ganoon kayaman kagaya ng tooots. Yah may kotse kami pero maliit + natatakot ako it wont run that far + ayokong magdrive sila papa duh di malalaman na nilang BEACH 'yun. Ang alam ko talaga sasama ka eh kasi excited ka, I even joined you buying your cover up. I left my "friend". Char wala naman pero kasi ata kaming gagawin after that. WE WERE SO HAPPY AND SO EXCITED AND ANYARE?

^Yan yung una kong basis sa "tampo" ko sayo. But you explained na si nica + si athena. MAY I JUST ARGUE WITH THOSE REASONS. I think those are invalid pero kung ipipilit mo, I THOUGHT OF "AY HINDI PALA AKO GANOON TALAGA KAHALAGA KAY CYRA". First, hindi na pupunta si nica so wala ka ng close kaya hindi ka na pupunta. EH ANDUN AKO GIRL. ANDUN SI CHRIS. SI JULIE. SI ETC. I know that you have issues. Ramdam ko, Ramdam namin. Pero narun friends natin. Second, na kay athena yung dadamitin mo. So parang umiral yung utak ko, bakit hindi ka na ba pwedeng magswimming ng walang bikini? PAGSUSUOT BA NG BIKINI YUNG HABOL MO KAPAG PUPUNTA KA? Sa pagninilay-nilay ko, AY HINDI TLGA AKO GANUN KAHALAGA. Hindi talaga.

Last Straw na lang talaga ilalagay ko. Ayoko na ilagay yung iba. SA POST NA TO, ALAM KONG RAMDAM MONG KAKAIBANG SAKIT YUNG HATID NG GINAWA MO SA AKIN. Cy, isa akong tunay na kaibigan na palaging nandyan pero once na nagkamali at super laking pagkakamali pa, mahirap ibalik. Mahirap ibalik ang trust.

One thing that's so unique in me ay kapag nag-away/tampuhan kami ng friend ko, SINISIRA KO NA SA UTAK KO KUNG ANUMAN ANG MERON SA AMIN. Good example is my dormmate-bestie-turned-hatie I always ridiculed him in my mind. The way he moves, speaks, yells, shouts, or unfs. I always found it irritating. But it's normal. Then I found forgiveness and peace. We sort of had our misunderstanding last December and until now, We're not yet in speaking terms. Same thing happened to Glory. Due to pride, I did not accept her apology/apologize to her. 6 Months too. But, I know this thing between us will not reach that level since I've already lowered my pride. And because hindi rin talaga ako nakakatiis sa friends. Maraming part sa memory ko na andun ka. IKAW PALAGI KONG KASAMA NUNG HS EH. Sa mga camps at pagcheer sa mga contestant at paglait dun sa babaeng contestant sa Pageant sa Mangaldan kasi parang napilitan sya, sa paghahanap ng lalake. NUNG PAG-IYAK NUNG GRADUATION. Yung coach-coach-an ko sa mga contests. Ikaw palagi kong supporter eh. Sa mga groupings, ikaw din palagi kong kasama. Naalala ko lang yung sa Earth Sci, yung sa agno. Yung ang saya saya natin noon habang kumukuha ng lupa. Tapos palagi pa ako/kaming pumupunta sa bahay nyo before Integrated Science. Ang saya balikan pero bakit humantong sa ganito? Life was simpler back then.

Kapag may katampuhan ako, I bring out the worst and evil in me. I dont want you to know those "things" but Ive already warned you. Acceptance just comes next. I do and You shall not expect things will just go the same way they did before. I just realized, my friendship always expects something in return - not in materialistic sense.

Alam ko matagal na tayong magkaibigan. Sa mga panahong yun, ramdam ko pa rin yung "CLASSIC CYRA KAYE". Pero ngayong tumatanda na tayo, unti-unti ko lang na-overanalyze. Mehehehe. Ngayon mang stage hindi tayo kagaya ng dati, pero narito pa rin ako kapag kailangan mo ng tulong. Ang ikli nito kung tutuusin, hindi talaga ako makatulog kanina kakaisip.  XOXO

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Bakit?

Bakit ba kasi bading ako?

Iyan ang pinakamalaking katanungan sa buhay ko. Bakit nga ba?

Feeling ko para akong kerosene. Isang flammable substance. At naghihintay sa isang heat/fire upang mag-alab. Kung nahuhulaan mo. Oo, naghihintay ako sa pagmamahal niya. Matagal na. Apat na taon na. Hindi na ako nadala.

Kung tutuusin, stagnant kerosene na ako. Pwede ng pangitlugan ng mga lamok. Pwede na nilang bahayan. At ang mga lamok na ito ang nagsilbing mga balakid sa pagmamahal ko para sa kanya. Pero hindi sila nagtagumpay. Samakatuwid, ginambala lang nila ang pagmamahal ko pero hindi.

Eto ngayon ang nararamdaman ko. Yeah, maraming akong crush, may kaFlirt. Pero niisa walang spark. Oo, gwapo sila. Mukhang matino. Pero walang papasa sa standards ko, kung Mapuan man, dapat regular LOLJK. Pero may isang 69.9% na (70% passing kasi Mapua eh). Ngunit hindi ko kinaya. Ako lang nagbibigay ng kilig sa sarili ko. KILIG NA PANGMADALIAN, HINDI GAYA NG KILIG NA NAIBIBIGAY NIYA, UNG NAMUMULA MULA PA TONG PISNGI KO at may mga butterflies na nagsisimulang lumipad sa aking sikmura. Hindi ko kinaya si RG. Kahit na anong gawin ko, hindi niya nakita. Ano nga ba naman ang magagawa ko, bading ako eh. Ni friend request nga sa FB hindi niya magawa, sa totoong buhay pa kaya?

Kaya ako na rin ang nagpigil sa sarili ko. At nakatiwangwang na naman ako sa'yo. Past na, di pa mabura. 

Ang bagay na kanta sa atin eh ung "Kung ako na lang sana". Alam mo kung bakit? Pakinggan mo. Halos tugma ng pamumuhay ko ung kanta. Ginawa ko naman ang lahat eh. Pero oo, tinumbasan mo nga ito. Ngunit kulang. Kulang.

Sana ako na lang ang minahal mo. Pero malabong mangyari iyon. Bading ako eh. Lalaki ka. Ni isang porsyento, wala. Masakit lang isipin. Mahirap tanggapin. Mahirap.

Ngunit pakakatatandaan mo, narito lang ako, naghihintay sa'yo.