Open the Talking Book

I always wanted to share my life through my words, photos, and music.. So the journey into my open book begins.

[katchkenda]

When someone tells you that they ain't shit,

Believe them & keep it pushing.

[opentalkingbook]

This is it...

I haven't ever in my life felt like this was it, and surely I know there is nothing I can't recover from, but God if you don't hear me ever please listen to me NOW. I can't keep taking these things. I want to withdraw from life completely right now let alone keep opening my eyes and moving and acting like nothing is happening. I'm doing real good to keep it together on a regular but I CAN NOT keep feeling this. I don't ever feel like I want to leave this earth but this I can't handle.

[emergentpattern]

If someone makes you mad, tell them. Work it out. Don’t carry it around like a burden. The same with love. If someone makes you happy, let them know how awesome they are. You can never say ‘I love you’ enough.

Jim James (via emergentpattern)

✌🏽️&💗!

[opentalkingbook]

Reflective thoughts...

Things are interesting in my life right now. I actually looked at my pictures and noticed a smile. Can you believe it a smile? A slight confidence has been restored and all in a short moment of time. I am so thankful for this time because God knows I have been through it. Love has always been good to me on the lesson side but maybe it was alittle harsh human wise. Choices weren't always the best and holding on to a love I should have left was probably a decision I should have made a while ago. Whatever the reason I AM THANKFUL! Who knew this could be so great. Who knew that somebody could really give a damn about me. Well maybe that's all to be seen. I'm just saying I'm enjoying this moment, it has sparked and inspired such thoughts of actually living again. I mean actually living a life that I have planned again. Those thoughts left me a while ago... Negative energy set in and dreams became deferred. Holding patterns became the norm and life turned cold an everyday struggle to place a foot in front of the other. Cheers to the events, life, and inspiration that has been whispered into my heart. #littlethingsmatter

[opentalkingbook]

At times it’s funny But I keep runnin’ home, fuckin’ with you They tell me run, leave, but I won’t I keep on, I keep fuckin’ with you. I can’t hardly wait to be through with you Hardly wait, still I’m fuckin’ with you.

[opentalkingbook]

Inspiration.

I bet you have no idea just how much you inspire me. No idea that watching you do what you loves makes me want to do it all myself. Sharing stories, dreams and thoughts of conquering the world. This. Is. What. I. Needed. Something the spirit ordered. I lost that creative spark became stagnant in my everyday. It was just life.. No thrills, just daily pushing one foot in front of the other. What an amazing experience to meet by chance and have that creativity placed back in my heart. Let's see where this ride takes me. I'm Uber thankful and excited to hop on a new journey!

[opentalkingbook]

Words from the tea cup! ❤️💗

[opentalkingbook]

Words. Thoughts. Excuses?

Excuse me while I crank out this word therapy right quick… I have no earthly idea why I still in my heart I want to reach out.  

I have and still want to. Hard headed maybe? Glutton for punishment possibly. I think mainly I really thought we were friends. Really? Well maybe?

I don’t live like most people do. I get mad and then get over it. I really try to talk it out after I get out my feelings. Life is too short to fight hold grudges, but I give people too much credit honestly. 

Granted I’m sensitive to a lot, I’m working on it too. God knows I pray for thick skin daily, but often I think that is just who I am.  I have such hope for the perfect love story. So much. Maybe too much.

Who wants perfect anyway? Love🖖🏼

[emergentpattern]

Silence is the language of God, all else is poor translation.

Rumi (via emergentpattern)

[opentalkingbook]

to whom it may concern:

Thank you. There is really much ado about nothing in these words but what stands out most is the feeling of LOVE. No doubt most of that could all be one sided. I adore that I am still able to love fully and completely even in the midst of disagreements, things not lining up etc. Sounds completely crazy, I know.   You have no idea how long it took me to grow to this point. I have always stood firm on even if its not with me, I can still wish happiness and love and absolutely mean that. Its interesting I have only loved a few enough to fight the “good” fight. Yet there still comes a time when letting go is waaaayy better for the soul. 2 different souls, space and time. Such is life and how beautiful is that? You just can't deny that. Although Selfishly sometimes I want to continue on this road of push and pull just to see what happens, but thats just ego getting the best of me. No Regrets...Enjoyed the ride but... This is my exit.

[opentalkingbook]

Remember

Love this life completely and fully. I live for those moments that take breathe Away. Even the not so tasteful ones are still blessings. Live to Enjoy every moment. You just never know when all these moments might go away.

[opentalkingbook]

Questions... Searching answers.

How is it that you can be in such a dark place but still be able to shine love and light on people? There was a post I read about a young lady that was experiencing such and extreme depression and was still able to support and love those around her. I'm not really sure where that came from but geez that's how I feel on a regular basis. Now I truly feel that it's a blessing that I can I love and support encourage everyone. Yet I still struggle with my own daily things. This Work in progress moving at my own pace as I get older is very interesting. My thoughts get louder and louder to just up and drop everything going on in my life right now. I need a break everything is move and I'm just watching it all get away. Only time will tell but all this stress makes me want to crawl in a corner and sit for a few days... Just close my eyes and disconnect.

[opentalkingbook]

Pretty much!

Life is crazy and sometimes you need a break. Journaling 2.0 ahead.

[occult101]

We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same.

Carlos Castaneda (via heyfranhey)

[lazyyogi]

I would like my life to be a statement of love and compassion—and where it isn’t, that’s where my work lies.

Ram Dass (via lazyyogi)

[opentalkingbook]

Questions but no clear answers...

Today my mother asked me why I stopped taking pictures… I made up some story no time blah, blah, blah. I didn't tell the truth. See what she doesn't realize is I'm motivated by the life around me. If I'm really honest I have been running from the life around me. My job drains me, my family drama kills my spirit, and my love life ehhh I'm really kinda over these broken relationships. I just haven't been inspired. I've given my energy to these people and in return I haven't gotten the same.  I feel like I'm broken and i know I'm not, but I'm tired of being strong for everyone else.  I'm over fixing everything. I'm ready for a change I want to be love and receive love. Some things are going to change. I have to reset there has got to be a reset. 

[opentalkingbook]

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It’s a hard pill to swallow I can’t get over When you walked out on me  I regret the day you told me it was over

Waiting - Adrian Marcel