pairings: satoru gojo x reader
warnings: angst, vague allusions to sex, jjk spoilers
Your husband is a very sweet man.ย
Despite all of his suffering - of every earthly anguish that would have felled any other to their knees - Satoru Gojo is sweet.ย
You see it in his seemingly tactless attempts at making his students laugh, and the way he almost never comes home without some little gift for you, as if each new day exists solely as an opportunity for him to express how grateful he is for his wife.ย
You see it in the way he smiles, that boyish and charming grin that only ever appears when he really means it. You also see it when he smiles and it doesnโt quite reach his eyes, because even then, there is something so very saccharine about his outright refusal to falter, solely for the sake of others.ย
You see it in the rare moments of peace, when heโs careful in settling the weight of his head upon your lap - and in the moments of passion, when his hands manage to clumsily find yours, gently intertwining your fingers even as his hips chase your own without mercy.
You see evidence of his sweetness all over, including in the eyes of the elders - still aglow with life even in spite of how easy it would be for him to snuff them out.
You see it in his students, their lips curling instinctively upon seeing him, because he insists on being their teacher before being the strongest - that inaccessible, untouchable being he wishes he didnโt see in every mirror.ย
His sweetness is in his veins, in your heart, on your tongue, and in every shared secret he otherwise would have never spoken aloud.ย
But of course, as all things do, this sweetness comes at a cost.ย
There is no fairness for a man who refuses to rest for fear of the world having need of him.
There is no taking away how hard it is to watch the man you love suffer the burden of being untouchable when all heโs ever yearned for is connection.ย
There is no taking back what has already been done.ย
And there is no way to convince a man who lives solely for others to be selfish.ย
So ultimately, things were always going to end this way - no matter how many pleas were uttered to gods who would not listen.ย
No matter how many pleas were uttered to the god who slept beside you.ย
So, as you watch those blue eyes stare sightlessly at an overcast sky, it isn't surprise that worsens the ache of loss swelling uncomfortably in the hollow pit of your stomach and up the tightening muscle of your throat.
It's relief - as cold as the snow that melts upon flesh you'll never feel again, and as confusing as the concept of having no white hairs in the filter of a shower drain.
Relief from the knowledge of why your love will return to stardust, but never when.
Relief from the torture of waiting for the day to finally come.
And yet, there is no sweetness that follows this relief, no brief moment of peace that comes before being swallowed whole by loss.
No, there is no sweetness at all - in a world without Satoru Gojo.
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Your husband was a very sweet man.ย
Despite all of his suffering - of every earthly anguish that would have felled any other to their knees - Satoru Gojo was sweet.ย
when she is not writing for nanami kento, she is busy daydreaming about the rest of her days with him in every universe. @throughsixeyes sits down with @caramelluxe ( amelia ) to discuss what makes a good story, where does she draw inspiration from, and most importantly, her love for nanami kento.
Q: Tell us where do your ideas come from?
A: I read a lot, and indulge in TV shows/Movies frequently, so many of my works are inspired from popular media in some vague way. Sometimes my fics โ specifically the hurt/comfort ones โ are self projections of things I wish I could experience lol (the dichotomy of being a yumeshipper). Since I doomscroll more often than Iโd like to admit, I usually get inspired by a specific scene and then I build the entire fic around that. Which, admittedly is my favourite way to write, as I love to be very vivid in the mundane sensory descriptions :)
Q: What inspired you to start writing?
A: Depression. I wish I was joking.ย
Back in fourth grade, wee lil lia was hit by depression due to her grandpaโs death. He also happened to be the person who introduced me to books and writing. And then came Harry Potter (which I used to write so much for back in the days). Then Marvel, then HTTYD, then JJK. Happy to share that my relationship with writing is going strong for the past 10 years!
Q: What is your writing schedule?
A: I write pretty much the moment I get the time, that is, when I remember what inspiration struck me. If you couldnโt tell, Iโm very forgetful. The time could be anything from 7am in the morning to 2am in the night (โฆor morning).
Q: What kind of research do you usually do for your fics?
A: Depends on what Iโm writing. If it is thematic, say a particular fandom specific, JJK, KNY etc, I research about the demographic, daily life, food, honorifics. Again, it depends. If the fic is more AU focused โ fantasy, noir, crime, to name a few โ I delve into cases, the aesthetics of what I want to present in my fic, and the likes.
Q: Do you draw inspiration from other authors, be it on the Tumblr or traditional publishing authors?
A: Yes!! I am an avid reader of classic literature and I wish to one day reach the grace of the classic authorsโ writing styleโs elegance. Margaret Atwood, Mary Shelley, Franz Kafka, Sylvia Plath, etc. are some of the authors I really love to get inspiration from.ย
As for authors on tumblr, I adore how Em (@oporotheca), Kayu (@mononijikayu), Moth (@frothingmoth), Rie (@rievalley) and Mu (@musatoru) write. Iโd go on to say that it was Kayuโs fic wildflower (ft. Nanami Kento) that got me into writing, and Iโd credit them for largely helping me develop a stylistic approach of writing. Emโs works remind me of Jane Austenโs prose, and that inspires me so, so much.
Q: Which tabs are mostly open while writing?
Usually, a โsynonym of [insert word I have definitely used a bajillion times]โ and Wikipedia and Spotify.
Q: How do you deal with writers block or in any case, writing insecurity?
A: I wallow and cry and then I get over it because the world is too big and my life is too short to worry how my works are being perceived among all the AI slop. (Lie, I cry a lot) Eventually you do make peace that the graph of your growth and notes doesnโt truly define you. Itโs a long journey as a beginner, but it does get better enough to keep going :)
Q: How much does engagement affect your creative process?
A: Ahโฆ at first, it affected me a lot. Recently, I have taken this step to uninstall tumblr and log out from my account whenever I post a work, so I canโt look pathetically at the static notes bar lol. Itโs a little hard to not notice the statistics when there is a staggering divide in how my longer non-smut works do (very poorly) vs how my SMAUs and smut(ish) drabbles do. Yet, I ignore that to focus on what I actually enjoy writing. Optimistically, I imagine that one day Iโll be able to make a community of people who enjoy genres the same as I do!
Q: What are your favorite genre's to write besides romance.
A: Oooh I love crime fiction/noir. Agatha Christie and Hercule Poirot and Doyle was my go-to in my middle school days, and I think I adore reading fics set in crime, as I do writing them (which unfortunately I havenโt written much). Apart from that, feminist literature/feminist settings are something I seek out a lot in fics, in vain. So I do end up focusing on writing thag to fill the void. The nuances behind perception of women and female readers is a big conversation we need to have, but I donโt think we, especially the Jujutsu Kaisen x reader fandom is ready for that, yet.
Q: What is your favorite work until now?
A: I adore the Orpheus!Nanami x Eurydice!Reader teaser I posted months ago for a work which is still in the draft because I havenโt been able to finish writing it (mostly because I know itโs a longfic and is bound to be recievedโฆ not in the way my validation seeking ass would like it to be). Apart from that I love From The Oceans, With Love. And also this fic whose title is definitely too long. Can you tell Iโm indecisive as hell?
Q: What trope is your favorite?
A: As I love to call Kento โ โthe final boss of yearningโ, I adore the he falls first and harder trope. Call me cruel but I also love the good old doomed romance, and angst/no comfort (only when Iโm writing it. NOT reading.) Oh! Clandestine romance!!
Q: Is there a genre/trope you'd like to see be explored more in the fandom?
A: More overpowered reader please. Iโm so tired of seeing readers who are dickmatised and like?? Spineless?? I always incorporate Special Grade Sorcerer Reader in my fics whenever I am writing for the canon timeline. I would love to read Readers with a fully fleshed out cursed technique!
Q: What would you like to write more in the future? sfw/nsfw/angst/fluff?
A: Oh definitely more angst and nsfw. I wanna get over my own internalised guilt over writing nsfw content, so that and long fics with historical and mythological AUs :)
Q: Do you outline your stories or not? If you do, how is said process?
A: Outline? Whoโs that? We donโt know them.
Q: What has been the hardest fic you've written?
A: The hardest ones indeed were from my series Of Love Letters and Suicide Notes since it is so personal to me. I cried writing all of those fics.
Q: What is something you had wished people told you while beginning to write?
A: About how in fandom spaces notes will give you a feeling of being so bad at writing, but that is not the case. Youโll feel bogged down with the idea of what am I doing wrong, what is it that is missing, but I assure you, itโs the tiktokification of Tumblr that are making new authors feel dejected.
Q: How do you improve your writing?
A: I love reading. Books, that is, books of published authors. If you want to improve, consuming the same pattern of regurgitated ideas floating in a fandom is not the way to go. It might sound elitist, but truly, if you want to improve, you have to step away from the bubble of superficial ideas and read nuanced things, writing that makes you stop and think. You will find that in fandom spaces, on tumblr, but it is rare. So, step out, read new books, literature, articles, essays, etc.
Q: Do you set yourself personal deadlines?
A: I try to, but itโs near impossible to finish it in said deadline </3
Q: How often do you read your old works?
A: Sometimes! Mainly to see the areas I wish I could do better and not make the same mistakes again.ย
Q: What do you think makes a good story?
A: I am definitely biased, but I love a good longfic. I cannot be bothered to read a drabble that I can find, like two scroll down and with the same array of comments and flow of the fic. Nothing new in that. I love fics that have fleshed out reader archetypes, and worldbuilding. Which, evidently, most drabbles or headcanons or a smut one shot can do unless it is a spin-off from an existing longer work. This also translates in how I write fics. I want my own work to sound legible, well built wand written in a careful way.ย
Q: Which is your favorite character and why? (can be outside the jjk story or even outside anime)
Kento is the obvious choice if weโre talking about JJK. There is something about his maturity, emotional intelligence and no-nonsense competency that I adore. To many he seems uptight and boring, but I care less, I love me a home cooked meal.ย
Apart from JJK, my favourite character of all times (surpassing even Nanami Kento) is Tony Stark. Tony has always been a parental figure to me. Irondad fics sustained (and still sustain) me, and I donโt think anyone can come up with a character who can ever dethrone Tony Stark as my favourite. (THATโS LITERALLY MY DAD, GUYS)
Q: Do you write with music? If so, which songs get you pumped? or do you listen to ambience music or work in silence/outside noise type?
A: *looks at my Masterlist with all the fics having songs as titles* haha funny that you asked. When I get inspired for a particular scene, I search for song that gives off vibes of said scene. Say, I am writing a fic in which Reader dies in characterโs arms. So, Iโll look for songs that feel like it, and Iโll play it on loop while I finish the fic :)
Q: What is the inspiration behind your theme?
A: I love maroon, dark academia, and lace :)
Q: Does your culture play a huge part on how you write, and if so, why?ย
A: Oh, indeed. Being from Southeast Asia, our culture is largely different to traditional western cultures and even East Asian cultures. I try to incorporate the themes in fics where I write about desi reader, but usually itโs just a gamble of what many things I can find about the demographic my fic is set in. Itโs usually also very fun to include niche cultural pop culture references and see readers enjoy it :D
Q: What are your honest feelings or opinions on the rise of ai in writing spaces?
A: I feel like any sort of โArtificialโ intelligence, generative or not, does not belong in creative spaces. The minute you include something that is not your own thought process and idea, itโs not very creative, is it?
Q: Do you believe it to be unethical to use ai in any step of the writing process? And if so, why?
A: Yes, it is. People will argue that using AI to simply do research with less effort shouldnโt be considered wrong, but then again, are we really meant to make use of AI in such simple ways when we could do it ourselves โ not to mention the impact it has on our nature and sustainability?ย
AI and writing, or any creative field for that matter will never go together, and that is a non negotiable criteria.
Q: Has Nanami always been your favorite JJK character, or did it take a while for you to warm up to him?
A: 10/10 love at first sight. Heโs my type physically, vocally, emotionally, mentally, whatever โally you can make, I love him.
Q: What is your favorite AU/trope to write of Nanami?
A: Yearner Nanami is my guilty pleasure. (Yearning Final Boss Nanami Kento ๐ฃ๏ธ๐ฃ๏ธ๐ฃ๏ธ) I love turning him into someone who is at constant war with himself over his unresolved romantic tension until it snaps.
Q: Do you feel that the community misplaces his characterization, or do you enjoy reading various interpretations and renditions of his personality?
A: โฆI will go out on a limb and say that I feel like most of the community butchers his character to the point I only read Nanami fics by a selected few authors. Iโve heard my friends say heโs boring and writing about him is boring. So I just stay in my curated Nanami bubble hehe
Q: Which writing format you feel best captures the emotions (humor, sadness, fluff etc.) you wish to convey - SMAUs or fics?
A: For his insane thinly veiled sass, I love using SMAUs. However for other details that I know he focuses on, be it emotional, physical (this man is ATTUNED to Readerโs needs) I feel like fics that let me go crazy with the sensory details and love languages capture him best. Heโs a lover through and through idc
Q: Is the above reflective of what format you enjoy writing?
A: A 100%
Q: What advice would you give new writers or people who are just starting?
A: Make an ao3!! No matter how little comments come, they will be very, very meaningful. Ao3 readers love to detail what they liked best about the fic, and thatโll in more ways than one, boost you to keep going.
phy!! i've missed you so much ๐ฅฒ my job has been keeping me absurdly busy as of late, but i'm finally back from my unanticipated hiatus and super excited to get back to writing and catching up with all of my beloved moots!
i hope things have been well with you! (and please ignore me when i am inevitably all up in your notifs sometime soon ๐คญ)
honk shoooo mimimi (I love you) honk shoooo mimimi
๐ฅน my dearest lia, you are the loveliest, sweetest, most beautiful (inside and out, mind you โ๏ธ) wife a woman could ever ask for <333 expect to see me in your inbox soon professing my love like I'm pablo neruda
โก หโฆหโ I trade my soul for a wish (Pennies and dimes for a kiss)
เป๊ฑโ โนย random texts between you and them based on word to word things some of my pookies have said ๐.
เป๊ฑโ โนย characters:ย N. Kento (โ @midnitebugging), I. Shoko ( โ @realalpacorn), G. Suguru ( โ @oporotheca), G. Satoru ( โ @frothingmoth)
เป๊ฑโ โนย warnings:ย none, them being a little freaky, mentions of cannibalism in Kentoโs
เป๊ฑโ โนย extra stuff to notice:ย Sukuna is not a curse in this verse, nor is Choso, and theyโre all older brothers of Yuuji. Toji isnโt an assassin, he left and he now works as a chef in a restaurant bc I said so. Kento and Satoruโs readers are siblings and heirs of their family business empire. Fem reader intended.
เป๊ฑโ โนย masterlist!
A/N: Liaโs harem is alive and flourishing <3 AND JUST IN CASE YOU THOUGHT I WAS CAPPING.
What other horror books have you read if you don't mind me asking?
this question has me giggling and kicking my feet nonnie, there is nothing i love more than talking about horror lit.
to keep things succinct, i'll only share the horror novels i've read throughout the past year (and then probably a few from my reading list because i'm excited for them lol) but if you ever want to hear about more just lmk!
em's 2025-2026 horror:
Boys in the Valley โ Philip Fracassi
The Long Walk โ Stephen King
What Moves the Dead โ T. Kingfisher
Under the Dome โ Stephen King (Honorable mention, more sci-fi than horror but it makes the list because King wrote it lol)
Christine โ Stephen King
The Twisted Ones โ T. Kingfisher
Hell House โ Richard Matheson
A Head Full of Ghosts โ Paul Tremblay
Our Wives Under the Sea โ Julia Armfield
We Have Always Lived in the Castle โ Shirley Jackson
White Is for Witching โ Helen Oyeyemi
Orpheus Builds A Girl โ Heather Parry
em's horror tbr list:
Bunny โ Mona Awad
The Troop โ Nick Cutter
Jackal โ Erin E. Adams
Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke And Other Misfortunes โ Eric LaRocca
The September House โ Carissa Orlando
The Only Good Indians โ Stephen Graham Jones
The Sundial โ Shirley Jackson
The Trees Grew Because I Bled There: Collected Stories โ Eric LaRocca
