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h0niy

Me, anytime I look at the clock, ever

#anameme #proana #proanatips #thinspo #meanspo #fasting #skinny #weightloss

lelaid

Mugler S/S 2020

supersonicart

Shaun Tan, Recent Work.

Recent works from the always amazing Shaun Tan (Previously on Supersonic Art).

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if-idk-idc

Ughhhh ive been binging so much these past days. I finally got out of my plateau and hit my lowest weight... only to consecutively binge for a week 😫

Time for a juice fast and then restrictions!

I refuse to be as fat this summer as I was last summer.

I’ll start with a juice/soup fast and whenever I run out of juices I’ll buy the food required for the russian gymnast diet:

And then I’ll go into the rainbow diet:

coldshowerme

[Found it somewhere, don't remember where... credit to the owner]

skinnietingz

some of my fave ed memes from reddit ✨

#softg0re

fashionscorner-blog

how could you do that to me I don’t understand I don’t understand family is supposed to protect each other family is supposed to be there for each other family is supposed to make someone feel safe. Why does this man cause me to shake and tremble? why does this man make my blood boil ?why did this man have to do what he did did he feel obligated was it mandatory did he gain some thing today make him feel stronger how did you feel the next day why would you do this. I was a child I didn’t deserve it I didn’t know what’s going on I couldn’t scream I couldn’t do anything because of the fact that I was in aware I need to make a difference in myself I can’t feel useless and used in dirty anymore because it’s not what I deserve.

when I was young I would fantasize about getting kidnapped about being used. About being useful about being validated whether or not the intention was right or wrong I don’t understand why I thought being kidnapped and being wanted was some thing that will satisfy me but it did. I will dream about people glorifying me about people wanting me, craving me, longing for my lips at the age of 12. I never felt validated growing up I had to love my parents but for some reason my brain wouldn’t receive it my brain would push that all away what do I do to maintain that positive energy with me younger me never deserved anything that happened to me younger me deserve better my heart breaks for younger me. younger me.

it seems to me as though family doesn’t even mean shit these days. The men who are here for me supposedly here , to protect me and care for me.always seem to hurt me. Whether that be physical, emotional, mentally, and overall. but I remind myself that I do not have it as bad as others too but that doesn’t justify the fact that I am being mistreated I do not deserve this no one deserves this no one deserves to feel like trash no one deserves to feel like a disappointment. I just do. How do I stop. What do I have to do to get on the right track what do I have to do to feel sufficient why can’t I just be happy. Why can’t I just be a normal girl.