Getting Better
The direction of my MA has changed throughout the course, informed by my own journey through learning about and subsequently managing my depression, my anxiety and my ADHD.
This process of what could be called art therapy, as my ideas and discoveries are mirrored in the evolution of my film, has been profoundly helpful. Unfortunately, I am so used to being engrossed in every detail that I struggle to step back and assess from a distance. In doing so for the purposes of reviewing and writing about my course progression, I have realised that some issues that I thought I had dealt with, such as my depression diagnosis and core perspectives which I have utilised extensively in Debris’ narrative development, have not been put behind me.
I’ve been overcome recently with these resurfacing emotions and thoughts as a consequence of this reflection. But, I’m getting better at recognising my unhealthy behaviours. I’m getting better at dealing with depressive episodes and breaking negative thought cycles. I’m getting better at recovery, at overcoming my mental obstacles, as I was able to do last week, processing in two days what used to take two weeks. I’m getting better at motivating myself to push through indecision and overthinking.
That’s what I hope, at least. That’s what I feel I’m doing. That’s what I want to be doing.
I think I am.
I’m glad I am.
I’m getting better at positivity. I’m getting better at time management. I’m getting better at focusing on one task and seeing it through. I’m getting better at getting better.
I’m getting better.













