Hello!!! Can you do angst #6 with so'lek? I love so'lek so much it's not even funny anymore đThank youâ¤ď¸
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summary: so'lek can't afford to lose anyone else, yet his fear ends up pushing those he loves away. 1k words | fem!sarentureader | angsty angst | they're happy for like a second. | thats my man
yay!! another request from my 4k event!! first oneshot for my man so'lek and i'm so glad its angst because I love writing that good stuff.
pt2
the 4k event if anyone else wants to request something yay!
Reserved. Quiet. Brooding. Are what would come to mind when anyone would describe the dog tag warrior. Mercilessly executing missions, determined and driven. He would never allow himself to stray from his dedication.
Until a certain Sarentu awoke and shook his world apart.
Months ago, he wouldâve regard you as someone that was useful, fearless and capable to the Resistance, a warrior worth keeping alive.
Now, he saw you as something much more dangerous.
Someone he could never afford to lose.
The Resistance was quiet, most of its members already sleeping. Soft snores and murmurs echoed through the cave as the sky people had turned their lights off, signalling they were all turning in for the night.
Soâlek couldnât sleep.
 Not while his brain whirred with thoughts. Rosters to review, errands to keep track of. Soldiers to hunt.
 He sat outside the cave hidden away in a small nook in a tree. His back pressed on the bark, the rough surface scratching the skin that wasnât covered with his protective gear.
You softly stepped to him, leaves crunching below your feet. Soâlekâs ears perk, his tail pointing up mid-air.
âIt is me Ma Soâlekâ You whisper out softly, your body glowing softly in the dark light.
Soâlekâs stern expression melted into something soft and gooey as he stood to see you. âYou should be resting.â His hands come to your sides, enveloping your waist as he pulls you close.
âI can say the same about you.â Your hands travel down from his shoulders to his forearms to hold onto them lightly. Your thumbs softly caressing the rough scarred skin that adorned his arms.
âI cannot sleep.â A sigh escaped his lips looking down at you, his hands grazing your skin. âNeed to think, sort my thoughts out.â
You tilted your head at him with a small frown. âAt least go to sleep soon, you need rest. You are working too hard.â
Soâlek nodded. He knew he was. Every moment of his life was being consumed by the work he threw himself into only able to be torn away from it by the likes of you. âI will.â He leant down placing a soft kiss on your forehead. âGo on, get back inside it is late.â You smiled as his lips met your skin stepping away as you headed back for your cot inside.
The mission went south almost as soon as it had started.
You were careless. Firing on a RDA soldier without checking the rest of the perimeter, instantly alerting the entire facility of the âenemiesâ on the premises.
You disappeared into the chaos quickly, smoke covering your shadow. Disappearing into the gunfire for just a moment too long.
A moment that almost broke Soâlek.
You were too fast to follow, carelessly running headfirst into the battle as if you had nothing to lose. But as Soâlek called out to you he realised he had everything to lose.
By the time you two had regrouped back at Resistance adrenaline rushed through his veins, sharp and unforgiving. His hands shook as he gripped onto his rifle planting his feet onto the soil desperately trying to clutch himself back to reality.
You found Soâlek standing in the clearing outside the Resistance entrance. He was almost frozen looking out towards him his ribs trembling with every exhale.
âMa Soâlekâ Your words were careful as you approached him from behind âPriya wanted to talk to you-â
âWhat were you thinking?â He snapped, his voice acting like a blade cutting into you.
Your eyes widened. You had never seen him like this. Chest heaving, eyes wide, ears and tail stiff and threatening.
âYou were careless.â He continued stepping closer to you. âYou know better.â
âI did not see the other on patrol.â You let out a shaky exhale. Your confusion bleeding into defensiveness. âI had it under controlâŚeventually.â
Soâlek let out a quiet hiss of disapproval.
âAnd what if you didnât get it under control?â His body seethed, eyes wide with anger. âWhat if you-â His voice cracked. âWhat if you had been shot?â
Your speech faltered. âI wasnât. Itâs fine.â
âFine?â Soâlekâs voice was low, a vicious tone biting you in the heart. âThis is far from fine.â His fists clenched tightly as he let out a shaky exhale. âYou always do this. You take risks. You are careless. And I am left behind you-â His eyes shut tightly trying to get rid of the image he was conjuring in his head.
Blood spurting out of your skin, taking your last breath because he wasnât fast enough to save you.
You voice was softer now, your hand wrapping around his forearm trying to ground him. âSoâlekâŚI can take care of myself.â
His control shattered. Quick and brittle as his head shot up to look you in your eye. âNo.â A sharp breath. âNo! You cannot. You always need to be watched. As if you cannot help yourself from throwing yourself into a situation much bigger than you.â
His words hung between you. Cruel, unforgiving and heart-breaking.
Your arm drops from his. Your heart tightening in your chest. âExcuse me?â
âYou heard me.â His words were sharp shooting you right where it hurt. âYou are always causing trouble. I cannot do anything on a mission because I cannot take my eyes off you. In case you throw yourself into reckless danger once again.â
Your eyes burned, hands shaking as you took a small step away from him. Yet watching you distance yourself felt like there was a sea of woes between you.
âIs that what you think of me?â It was weak, voice cracking as you wouldnât dare to look him in the eyes.
Soâlek broke out of his angry haze as he heard your voice crack. Simultaneously cracking his heart. âThat is not-â
You cut him off, pain bleeding through your composure as your lips quivered. âI didnât know I was such an inconvenience.â
The moment the words left your mouth his face drained of colour. All the anger in his body churning into horror as he looked at what his words had done to you.
The regret hit him like a physical blow, hands shaking to reach out to you. His mouth opening and closing as he struggled to find the right words.
You turned away before he could reach you, before he could utter an apology.
thankyou for reading lovelies!! <3 i'm slightly contemplating a pt2 coz i hate not ending on a happy ending lolol. but reblogs and comments are very much appreciated byebyebye:))
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