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8/12/2020 I lost Oscar suddenly. He was 13. He was the best companion I ever had or will have. No one else could make me feel the overwhelming love and joy he made me feel.

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

Just remembered this blog. I don't really use Tumblr anymore sorry Oscar. I still think about you and D every single day, and tell everyone new about you guys 💕 I got my licence on the 8th of Dec last year, two years since I lost you. Didn't plan that on purpose but felt like I was doing it for you somehow.

Mouse is doing really well. We live in a house with another two cats now, and he really likes them. You wouldn't haha.

I miss you both so so much still. Love you forever little sausage

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

Hey Mosk. Still think about you every day, and talk about you two all the time 💕 My two boys :')

Hope you're well wherever you are!

Mouse is keeping my company still. Though you wouldn't believe the vet trips this guy has had to have so far! You would hate to be in his shoes. Well anyway. I love you my baby boy.

We'll find each other again 💕

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

It's been a year and about an hour and a half since you've been gone Oscar. I wish I just joined you when I had the courage to. I'll miss you forever, Deisil too. This doesn't hurt any fucking less at all.

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

The 10th was hard Oscar. Once year since I lost Deisil. Almost a year since I lost you too and I'm still not coping.

Wish I could join you tonight 🤗

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

Hey Oscar.. I adopted a new little guy a couple months ago now. His name is Mouse. He's actually a tabby like you. I'm not sure how much you would like him but he's a good boy.

I still miss you every single day and think about you and Deisil constantly too. I start working at that cattery I always told you about in a few days. I really wish you could see me right now baby, you'd be so proud.

I'm still not sure how long it will be before I get to see you again. It's getting bad again so it might not be long 😊

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

It's a bad night tonight bud. I can't belive I never get to see you in this life agajn

Im a mess

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

Hey little dude. I still think about you every day. So far it's not easier and I'm still really confused about how to do this life thing without you.

I still really want to join you but idk. Part of me can't even bring myself to do

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

I got a new job today buddy but it just feels pointless. Why am i bothering if you arent around anymore

maybe ill be with you soon, i think that would be really nice

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

oscar i dont know how much longer i can do this without you

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

Wish you were here mingus

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

Crying about you two again tonight lol

I just wanna know when it's going to get easier without you both bc so far it's still only getting worse every day lol

I left a bag on my bed today and had a nap, I woke up after trying to move my leg and in my half sleepy state I thought the weight was you. I walked into my van a little bit ago and smelled Deisil for a second too.

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

You're still the very first thought on my mind as I wake up. Every day, just like you always have been. It still doesn't hurt any less

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

I’m so sorry for your loss. Oscar was a good boy, and he was lucky to have you.

Thank you friend. He really was one of a kind... I was definitely the lucky one getting to be his person 💔

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

Just look at you baby. I wish you knew how in love with you I was. Like there was never I single time I looked at you and didn't instantly fall in love with you all over again. Thank you for almost 14 years of love and happiness even on my really bad days.

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

I miss you a lot tonight. Yesterday it was one month since I lost you. I still think you're going to be there to greet me every single time I go to open my door. I'm miserable without you Oscar you have no idea how bad I want to see you again. I'd give anything to hear your meow purr after I call ypur name again.

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

You know Oscar, when Deisel died I dreamed about him almost every night.. After you passed I think I've only dreamed about you two once or twice. Id like to think he stopped visiting me because he has you with him to keep each other company now 🥺

[oscar-the-fat-cat]

I miss you tonight

I mean I miss you every night but no distractions are working.

I'm a mess without you boy.

I don't know what to do without you. I'm so lost