Chapter 36 Analysis (UNPOPULAR OPINION)
So here’s an unpopular opinion: uh… Sangwoo wasn’t sexually abused by his mom.
This is how I interpret Sangwoo’s dream. Sangwoo’s mom has been mostly indifferent towards Sangwoo throughout his childhood because she’s been getting abused by Sangwoo’s father. So she seems like she’s sort of busy wallowing in her own misery and self pity.
When Sangwoo is in his late teens (probably) he starts to seek affection because maybe he understands the situation better. He approaches his mom instead. He wants affection from his mother but he still receives nothing even when he gives her affection (kissing her hand).
He becomes scared and then full of rage (or hatred) when he sees his mother is practically a living dead. He thinks about killing his mother.
Also, here’s a flashback:
He turns around to kill his mother and that’s when his mother is ‘replaced’ …I repeat, REPLACED with Yoon Bum. Why? Because they’re mostly similar, personality wise, in Sangwoo’s head… EXCEPT …
BUM MOVES! Bum actually starts to approach Sangwoo. He looks at Sangwoo affectionately, touches him, shows interest in him. This is what Yoon Bum did in real life! This is what Sangwoo probably HOPED his mother would do. To give him affection. (Maybe even that kind of affection!)
This is not his fucking mom. It’s Yoon Bum’s body. Thin and bony, dressed like a “country whore”. He’s seeing Bum all worked up because YOON BUM is the person he saw worked up like that, not his mother! But the words are what scare Sangwoo and make him snap out of it, NOT THE SEXUAL NATURE of the whole thing!!! Now we get to the part where people actually call ‘proof’ that Sangwoo was sexually abused.
The words, and the ‘turned on Yoon Bum’ aren’t related! It’s possible that Sangwoo heard those words from his mother before but not in a sexual context! It’s pretty much the same thing that Yoon Bum said before. He dreads those words! Maybe even BECAUSE IT’S WHAT BUM SAID BEFORE COMMITTING SUICIDE! You do remember how hard that was on Sangwoo, right?????? Here’s more flashbacks:
In brief, seems like his dream is a mix of past and current incidents. This is a dream. Not his exact memories. Yoon Bum is right there. I don’t understand why we should ignore his presence. Yoon Bum is the one saying those words and him and Sangwoo’s mother are pretty similar, personality wise. Sangwoo’s worst fears are all mixed up in his dream! He’s enjoying the affection until he hears those ‘alerting’ words.
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