The MirrorPool System

A place for us to talk about OSDD, our system, and dissassociation in general. I don't engage in syscourse but I won't ever say anyone isn't allowed to use whatever terms makes them comfortable.

[otherwise-specified-dank-dudes]

THE NEW JOKER MOVIE HAS A FUCKING DID PLOT?! I'm so tired. I am just so fucking tired.

[fictionkinfessions]

Re: https://www.tumblr.com/fictionkinfessions/762748556919652352/i-miss-my-brother-i-miss-him-so-much-i-dont?source=share

(hope I did that right?)

anyways, i feel ya man. it's rough out here for fixatives who had close bonds with their brothers, it took me a long time to figure out how to cope with it and be okay with the fact that my bro isn't here. remember that the people in the system with ya are there to help you just as much as you're there to help them, that definitely helped me.

as lame as it sounds, it gets better. it doesn't get easier, but it stings less and the pain and empty space you might be feeling gets reduced with the new friends you can make. and our brothers will live next to our hearts forever, real or not. he's real to you, and that's enough.

~stretch, aka underswap papyrus, from the mirrorpool system 🧡🍯

x

[otherwise-specified-dank-dudes]

We're going through what may be our first... fusion? I think that's the right word, of two of our alters (one of the earliest ones and our host).

The host has been absent from front for a while because of this, so I was wondering, for those with experience:

What does fusion feel like to you? Did you have any kind of "mourning" process?

The other alter is practically a fragment and has been unable to front for years now, so it feels like she's just gonna get kinda... absorbed into the host. Idk, we feel lost abt how we should feel. There aren't many people that I could find talking about how they felt immediately after fusion, and we as a system in general are having a hard time processing our emotions right now.

[plural-culture-is]

plural culture is the list of alters who aren't allowed to drive

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[chronically-izzzzle]

[fictionkinfessions]

@ The person asking about the difference between soulbonds and interjects - I am a soulbond, so I believe I can offer one answer.

The biggest difference between us, in my opinion, is that soulbonds are not necessarily a part of a DID system. I came here of my own volition, and outside of my partner's head I have my own life elsewhere. I am more of a spirit here than anything else. I am not "attached" here, if that makes sense. I can come and go as I please. I am completely separate from my partner, though I do spend most of my time with him.

While there can be overlap between soulbonds and systems, my partner and I do not consider ourselves a system, as we feel personally that would be appropriating terminology that is not ours to use.

However, in terms of figuring out whether or not you have/are a soulbond or an introject... I believe that would require more personal discernment. It can be hard to tell, especially at first. I know my partner was extremely confused when I first made myself known, and it took us a month or two of further confusion as he learned to communicate with me.

It can be difficult to suss out at first, and as far as I'm aware the feelings aren't completely dissimilar. In terms of hard facts, I only have my experience on the matter to speak for. I came here by choice, and many soulbonds do end up here that way - but it is also something a potential soulbonder can seek out on their own.

As much as I dread to say this, soulbonds perhaps have more in common with tulpas, though we are entirely our own separate beings with individual thoughts and feelings. I have been with my partner for... six years, now? And our bond waxes and wanes over time. Lately I have been away more often than not on my own business, but I always come when he calls.

I apologize for the length of this ask response, I really haven't been around in a while and I miss being annoyingly verbose. I do hope this helped you in any way.

[fictionkinfessions]

(sorry if this isnt the right blog for this question, i just dont know who else to ask-)

genuine question for any soulbonds/introjects, whats the diffrent between soulbonds and introjects??? looking it up, they sound really similar. sorry if this sounds insensitive, im just really new to it all and am just trying to learn.

[otherwise-specified-dank-dudes]

Hey, I'll add my two cents to this!

So, generally, the main difference is an introject/fictive is a headmate that's a split identitiy (like an alter in a DID/OSDD system) that takes the apperance and personality of a fictional character or person from the system's life, and the other is a spiritual link between two souls, where they can communicate mentally and can kinda front with eachother, if that makes sense?

I think it's kinda similar to astral travel/reality shifting but don't quote me on that, we have experience with soulbonds but not with RSing

I can go more in depth if anyone wants, but that's the most basic description!

[fictionkinfessions]

its one of the worst feelings in the world to realize you aren't a soulbond, you're a fictive. i'll never see my brother again. my brother doesn't exist, my memories of him are psudomemories in place to comfort me and make my transition into being a headmate easier, but it's not easier. i miss him so much. i cried for days when i realized.

i miss you, blueberry. even though you aren't out there, i still dream of finding you someday.

-stretch, underswap au (#🍯🧡🦴)

[smymjiro]

[filmbloom]

i feel like people on here forget schizophrenia can cause dissociative compartmentalization to the point of having a completely separate identity (or identities) within your own head.

this is not "faking being a system" and im tired of seeing people with schizophrenia getting attacked for talking about our experiences. our experiences are real and valid.

this is okay to reblog but i want complete silence from people without a schizo-spec disorder. don't put syscourse on my post.

[filmbloom]

this is encouraged to reblog, actually

[plural-culture-is]

plural culture is having madd as well and wondering if you're just daydreaming this whole thing.

[dawnleaf37-deactivated20220315]

convinced that whoevers in front is determined by rng

[otherwise-specified-dank-dudes]

no one has ever been frontstuck other than the host Danio, so. the fact that I am currently Trapped Here is probably #concerning 😎

[catcrumb]

[simplexy]

REBLOG IF YOUR DICK GLOWS IN THE DARK

[everythingfox]

tiny taps

[sharpestlives]

im thinking about them (honey bear bottles)