ARDOR @ournameisardor - Tumblr Blog

Feeling overwhelmed with how amazing my life is turning out to be.

Luck in love or luck in life, you can't have both.

As you become stronger there will still always be moments of weakness.

Is sacrificing your dreams for love worth it? Or is it just what is expected of us in society? I refuse to accept that fate of resignation and complacency. I was chosen by the universe to walk the path of healing through art, though it is not an easy one. My reward is attaining concretion of my dreams.

Learning to be alone is harder than I anticipated. I just want someone to talk to.

I don't want to forget, even as the pain becomes greater.

That was the first dream where we weren't in a relationship still. It took 10 months for my subconscious to realize we aren't together anymore. 7 years really fucks with your head. I still have many more years of dreams with you next to me, and waking up alone.

I think my lesson in life is coping with loss

I've lost the ability to love, but I've gained the world.

So much further to go.

I know you will never see this and I know I should not say it directly, but I can't resist! I've put more love and energy into you than anything else in my world, even more than music. I've never loved anything more than I loved you. There will never be anyone more significant to me than you. Please stay safe and secure and I hope your future relationships fulfill all of your greatest desires, you deserve everything your heart has wanted. You are incredible! There's no one like you! You are beautiful in every way! You are light! You are love! You make my heart swell! Go unto the light until we meet again. Goodbye, I love you.

So many buried memories that take so many tears to get out. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XbU9UUwxBxA

kushandwizdom

How does one expect to grow with someone when they’re still fixated on someone from the past? Don’t play with other people’s feelings because you’re unsure of your own. It’s cruel.

MR (via <a href="http://thegoodvibe.co/" class="tumblr_blog">kushandwizdom</a>)

It is crippling to know that at 26 I have already experienced and lost the greatest love that I will know in my lifetime, but having this knowledge, I am now able to start transforming my sense of love from a romantic one to a universal form of love. Music has kept me alive in this trying time, and once I have used the healing ability of music to rebuild myself, I can go forth into the world and fulfill my destiny of spreading that same healing energy to the world. Music is healing to whoever chooses to be healed by it. The sound and style are irrelevant to the personal connection that is created in the listeners mind and heart and the energy transference that occurs between observer and performer. Light and dark in everything. Good and bad in all men. Highs and lows in all feelings.