redbone.
pakihwan:
“finally, someone’s starting to talk a little sense.” his voice was quiet, just loud enough for marisol to hear. “the solstice is supposed to be one of those more magickal nights or whatever, isn’t it? drinking’s fun and the party’s kind of cool i guess, but it kinda feels like a waste, yeah?” he chuckled. “it’s in my car, almost always is. you know, in the glovebox you have to jiggle just right to open.” he rolled his eyes, knowing he was getting off topic. “ anyway. you seem to have something else on your mind, though. is there a certain something you’re after or do you just wanna shift through the book until we find something to fuck around with?”
kihwan doesn’t disappoint.
she needs something to do, on fire beneath her skin. there’s a wild burn in her lungs and a seeking twist of need in her veins. it’s not sexual. it’s not desperate. but it’s there, a nameless longing that prompts her to scattered thoughts and distracted words, fractional and fragmented as she jumps erratic from whim to whim. there’s a greed to it, in an extent, but moreso than that is the fear of a moment left unlived, a single second un-spent. if the fear of missing out or the fear of sitting still had a human form, it would be marisol. everything in her rebelled raucous against stasis. the static nature of her life in junae repulsed her, it felt like being a hamster on a wheel, running the same treadmill day in and out. like groundhog day without a hope of escape. years spent repeating the same hours, watching herself grow older in the mirror as the world passed her by.
the necronomicon had been her first respite from that since being drawn back to the goddamned town, despite her best efforts to leave. maybe she should just have gotten some stupid business degree, at least then she’d be in a better place- or if not better, then bigger. with options, with something to hold onto. some promise of hope. something more than a dead end, a giant middle finger from the universe to her dreams, hand sealed and delivered.
so she throws herself to the promise of something more, and grabs kihwan by the wrist as she plunges, pulls him down with her. she’ll be the first to admit she has a certain fondness for the madness of the night, the first to admit that magic has gone entirely to her head. kihwan is as accommodating to her ideas as she’d hoped he would be. “oh yes of course, the glove box,” she repeats with a drawl, a joke at her own expense. her car-less life is a testament to growing up on the edge of broke in a town that you can walk across in the lesser part of a day, perhaps.
“i just want....” she trails off, her gaze wavering to sweep upwards as wistful and wisping as the smoke still rising to join the clouds. “something to do. i want to feel productive.” i want to feel alive, is perhaps the truer statement, but she doesn’t dig into that. she bares her soul to few and kihwan is not quite among that lot, not yet. “i’m open to suggestions, as a result.”










