PannaTe

90's kid & PNW 253

[pannate90]

It’s been awhile 🤓 https://www.instagram.com/p/B4Nr-OhAKwX/?igshid=ja5mu5z9k1g7

[pannate90]

Words can’t describe how much I miss you, or how much we miss you! Just know, I’ll cherish all the memories we made and shared together. I love you so much, and I’m forever grateful for you walking into my life. While you’re up there. Continue to watch over all of us. I love you so much. Rest easy Nyda. God has gained another angel.💙 https://www.instagram.com/p/B1ph0jrgtBl/?igshid=1mg88k5f7pqqn

[leohearts]

“Even a good player will someday become a toy of a better player. It’s called karma.”

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[leohearts]

“I will never regret you or say that I wish I’d never met you, because once upon a time you were everything I needed.”

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[remanence-of-love]

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[remanence-of-love]

Your name doesn’t make me smile anymore 🥀

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✨Note to self✨

[pannate90]

I MISS EVERY BIT OF PIECE OF YOU. 💔

[pannate90]

Sigh😪

Logging back on, finding my place to vent. Didn’t help me at all. Fist thing popped up are my recent post from the last time and last thing probably the last time I made you truly happy or smile or made your heart jump. I can keep going. One thing I’m not happy about, is looking back at these photos that I thought were gone. My heart aches from trying to move on. But that’s what I gotta do till it numbs right? Or when it stops? Or is it something else? I wish it was so easy to move on but it isn’t, I was blind, I was too late, I wish I could go back, I was so focus on everything else that I forgot about you. I forgot to ask if you were okay, or how are you doing, or how’s your day. Giving you kisses, loving you, holding your hand, singing to you in the car. Just a whole bunch of things. I just got to comfortable and I forgot. One thing I didn’t forget I just didn’t showed. Is that till this day I still do love you. And my feelings never left. But I think it’s time I let go. I’m holding on to something that doesn’t want to be held on to. Note to self if there’s ever a next time, never forget and don’t ever get too comfortable and don’t let the love die down.

[pannate90]

#Alki

[pannate90]

Happy July 4th! Everyone be safe.

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Good morning 😎

[pannate90]

Never would I thought the ppl that walked into my life in 2015, wouldn't walk into 2016 with me.....

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I literally hit rock bottom after I already thought I did. But more just keeps happening to me. There is no one I can go to, sadly to say. Where do you go from here? There's so much on my plate, that I keep it all to myself and ppl don't even know what's going on. I've been crying every single night for the pass week just keeping it to myself. It's just so hard. I literally just wanna give up! Can I just escape reality right now? How can't you talk to someone who hasn't even been in your shoes it's for hard me. Like where do I go from here? What do I do? How do I handle this? WTF!!!! Ahhhhhh I just wanna scream. One after another after another. What else can happen. Some say, all you can do is go up. But really, I just keep getting deeper and deeper to the core. And I feel like I'm not even there yet. I'm really not even use to this feeling, I'm a happy person I'm always positive. Idk this feeling that I have. And really I just wanna give up on everything now. This is something I don't like.... So what do I do? I'm ready for 2015 to be over with. And honestly really to get 2016 over with also. And the year hasn't even started yet.... I'm just done.

[pannate90]

I've never broke down in tears so much all in one week.

[pannate90]

Look who came out to play last night! 😊 Ohh RIAH💕

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