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i know what's in my heart, i need to bring it back into my chest

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oral of the story

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clarity of thought is overrated. do it all muddy if you have to. look how the mud outside shapes the earth

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muscle memory is so beautiful to me. my body remembered better than i did. yet we're the same thing, with the same memory.

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plus i love you

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mixed reviews

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setting goals doesnt work for me. to change, i have to just start doing a new thing and then convince myself that i must do it daily for the rest of my life, often for no discernable reason. my job then becomes squeezing meaning from the routine( in the most ineffecient way possible). and then i come out the other end having changed so slowly that i feel like setting goals doesnt work for me

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i find myself wanting to use this account as a journal again. but there's too many of you guys now. you don't all gotta know about the nightly vulnerable thoughts. or what i drank that day

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it's pig's blood in a bucket to me man

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if nothing works in my favor, i'm going to start living the life i want

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they’re posting u on tik tok

slay

and i'm posting myself on here

we all get a little piece of everyone else

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hi hello good morning

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feeling like the scratch marks on a steel table

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theyre taking me out back and turning me into a 7 minute dance track