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i know what's in my heart, i need to bring it back into my chest

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how it feels listening to Black Diamonds by Big Thief. it bursts something in me every listen

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tonight i will:

notice sundown

mop my room

write something, anything, down (let something cling)

take another bite of an edible

decide what else to throw out (let something leave)

text a sister to make plans, any plans

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have you always written this way or is it a result of rewriting through many other versions ?

funny thing, none of my writing style was deliberate. only until this year do i even openly call myself a writer. if anything devoloped my style it was probably three things:

posting on here for a decade plus when no one was looking. i needed somewhere to hide.

listening to a crazy amount of music in my 20s. i absorbed lyrics and melody and emotion, learned a place to exist inside of.

latent love of language that i somehow always both dote on and neglect

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i've had the same case of hiccups since 6 pm last night. someone come kill me

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after 1.5 days, i think they're finally gone. i miss them a little. displeasure becomes home fast.

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morning gift from my coworker and her garden

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Natalie Jean, Chrysalis, 2023.

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call and tell me your latest reflection

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i bruised something ineffable

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In my country having the hiccups means that someone is talking about you.

i wish i believed this. you think of me, speak about me, my body spasms. i'd always have a chorus of hiccups running somewhere on earth.