I have no justification. I'm just ridiculous

she/they : minor : hey my name is Ellis : solitaire brought me here years ago and it's brought me back : sometimes i just feel like shouting shit into the universe

[marcythevampyre]

[yveningstarz]

"all we can say is, from our perspective, time tends to change things."

[dnp-as-posts]

[xmarblevoidx]

he's always gonna be hot and gay and magical

[catgirlfingies]

Rise up trans goth girl admirers

[thediamondarcher]

I love how Michael Holden is basically the first male manic pixie dream girl with anime eyes and who thinks "Disney charm" affects your psychological development

[dansasterology]

mood for the day

[hopeisfictional]

i can’t imagine the level of damage the schools must have done on michael’s self worth and self esteem that made him throw the fire extinguisher out the window

how bad did they make him feel that destruction felt like a choice?

felt like a choice to someone who saw goodness in everything

[millielucystar]

[papercuts-from-poetry]

scared to go into the kitchen rn bc I have a mountain of dishes to clean and put away but my parents are on edge

[high-school-is-killing-me]

Poetry! Yay!

So I've decided to post poetry once a week (mainly so I can live off my old ones for a while until I get more motivation to write lol), so here you go!

Hypothetically

Hypothetically, what would you do if I

Said I love you

As more than a friend

Hypothetically, what would you do if I

Said I hate you

As more than a friend

I know what I want you to do

I want you to pull me close and say

I love you too

I want you to kiss me breathless, brainless

I want you to say “I’m yours forever”

I want you to stay

I know what I want you to do

I want you to storm away

I want you to turn back when I take your hand

I want you to believe me when I say I didn’t mean it

I want you to tell me you understand

I want you to stay

I know what I expect you to do

I expect you to laugh at me

I expect you to say “Sure, love you too”

I expect that I’ll laugh it off as well

I expect I’ll try it on April Fool’s Day

I expect I’ll pass it off as a joke

I know what I expect you to do

I expect you to get angry

I expect you to run off

I expect you to abandon our friendship

I expect you to block my number

I expect that I’ll just break down in silence

I know what I think of myself

I think that I’m stupid

I think that I’m too hopeful

I think that I’m naive

I think that this is a mistake

I think this will ruin us forever

I know what I think of myself

I think that I’m deranged

I think that I’ve read too many books

I think that I’ll move on outside

I think that I’ll be forever shattered inside

I think that I will never forgive myself

“I’m sorry”

I whisper

“I love you”

I can’t bear to look at your face

“I’m sorry”

I mumble

“I hate you”

I can’t bear to look at anything

You don’t start laughing

Maybe that’s a good sign

But you don’t respond at all

I fucked it up

You start crying

That’s definitely a bad sign

I don’t know why I hoped for anything else

I fucked it up

I feel a hand on my chin

I meet your eyes

You whisper “I love you too”

And then your lips meet mine

And I am in heaven

You turn and run

My eyes follow you as long as they can

I call your name

But soon you’re gone

And I am in hell

[wanderluffys]

i feel like doing this every time i interact with my mutuals

[red-string-of-phate]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/78366101

my first phanfic in over a decade !!!! in which they hold hands in public for the first time and try to allow themselves to heal from the past <333

[soft-butch-cassidy]

depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.

[yournudemom]

Circulating. Seasonal depression is creeping around now.

[shadowjag]

Lets keep this moving

[prettyiwa]

(Picrew)

[smallbottleofhand-sanitizer]

thanks for tagging meeee

you can't tell because of the eyebrows, but I have resting sad face

@thepearlinsidetheclamanda @stephanieyumyum @starburst99 @gardenofpebbless @enter-doctor-frog

[stephanieyumyum-deactivated2026]

yay!

no pressure tags: @chr0nically-b0red @that-bookworm-bitch @akaririkari @engag3d @emstheles @theglitterwarrior and whoever else wants to join in!!

[emstheles]

Me!!! I need to get a haircut....

no pressure tags:

@sincerelyaurey @youmakemypaulssolou @fuck-you-clivesdale @rainbowkessem

And whoever else!!!

[rainbowkessem]

oooh oooh fun fun fun I love these tysm

I no longer have purple hair but I WILL AGAIN THAT IS HOW I EXIST IN MY MOND WITH PURPLE HAIR Kay great :3

Also YAY EYESHADOW???? And ice cream earrings!! AND INTENSE BLUSH (I say while wearing no eyeshadow and no blush)

no pressure tags!!

@ovloppy @nothing-special-i-guess @beth-unico-offical @rusty-spooooooooon @oliverquary @hexesandwyrmwood @high-school-is-killing-me @not-offical-offical @hypnopompic-decay + open tags!!!!! JOIN US

[high-school-is-killing-me]

tysm for the tag! this was very fun to make!

this makes me look so much more sophisticated than i actually am omg (plus i have a resting sad face but it kept making me look extremely concerned so i just did a lil smile instead lol)

no pressure tags! @hijabi-desi-bookworm @ohno-thereisnoescape @papercuts-from-poetry @sunshine-fahey @just-queue @wolfeusholic @oh-alistair @the-gay-insomniac @disneydarling19 @phantomphoenix3 @jackelly24601 (and anyone else who wants to join!)

[papercuts-from-poetry]

ooo tag game!! thanks for the tag :))

this is such a cute picrew!!! although i fear i look quite boring

@sophie-reblogs2000 @evskiii @cheeryknots and anyone else! (No pressure ofc)

[swiftwyll]

listening to hadestown the way it should be listened to (on repeat) (maybe it won't be a tragedy this time)

[partytattccs]

making history

@danielhowell @amazingphil

(i started this a year ago and finally got around to finishing it)