I was living in the land of “All Too Well”....I don’t know why I returned and lingered for far too long. The heartache, regret, anger and humiliation waiting around every corner to haunt me.
I forgot that day when I woke up and no longer felt the weight of unrequited love, and instead the empty space they left vacant was somehow filled with calmness. how free it was to live in the aftermath...to feel the reality of “Clean”
No more wishing for what could have been but looking to what tomorrow will bring.
“So then you get your heart broken, and you walk around through this world like time is moving in slow motion, like you’ve got some open wound that only you can see. You feel like you’ve got writing all over you that says, “I am in pain. I have just gotten my heart broken.” You feel like you’re haunted by the memories of what this could have been and what would this day be like if this person hadn’t left my life. And then one day, you start to replace the old habits with new ones. And you stop checking your phone in the morning for a “good morning” text. And you start replacing what used to be someone you were in love with, with time with your friends. And maybe you pick up some new hobbies, and maybe you start living your life the way you would want to live it if no one else had any influence over it. And then one day, for me, you find yourself walking down the street and you get this idea in your head for a song about how all the struggle and feeling like you’re tarnished by love, feeling like heartbreak defined you for so long.
That cloud is finally lifted, and then there’s this day that comes, and I promise you it comes no matter how heartbroken you are. There’s a day that comes when all of a sudden all that writing that you thought was on you is gone, and you look in the mirror, and you’re clean.”
- Taylor Swift
“the rain came pouring down when I was drowning that’s when i could finally breathe and that morning gone was any trace of you i think i am finally clean”
