Dreaming of Perfection

SW:195 HW:249 CW:214 LW:174 GW1:220✔️ GW2:195 GW3:175 GW4:130 UGW:115 (I do not promote ED - for personal use only)

[angels-and-stoners]

poc thinspo✨✨

[paperweightperfect]

I know being skinny won’t solve any of my problems but god I’d rather be skinny and broken than whatever this is

[paperweightperfect]

It’s been 0 days since my last self destructive behaviour

I’ve been binging for basically a whole month straight, terrified to weigh myself. Open to suggestions on how to break this cycle cause all I can think about is cutting

[notsoskinnylegend]

Black n’ White Thigh Thinspo ✨✨

[xxseesawxx]

[💜]

[paperweightperfect]

This week has been hell, I’ve binged probably 5/7 days and I hate that.

But

Today I tried on jeans that haven’t fit in like 4 months and they fit! Not even tight, they actually fit! So trying to look for positives. I’m starting over, tomorrow will be better. I will not binge

[paperweightperfect]

I’ve been on a binge for the past 3 days, I feel so disgusting I can’t even bring myself to check how much I’ve gained.

I’m not even hungry so why can’t I stop eating!!!

[paperweightperfect]

Day 30 - so I fully don’t have 10 facts about myself that are in anyway interesting so I’m just going to do stats

Sw (beginning of the month): 235

Cw: 217

Kinda proud of how much I lost, had a few days where I really fucked up but I made progress

[i-didnt-sign-up-for-this-shit-d]

[paperweightperfect]

29 - I don’t really know, I think most people are beautiful in some way or another I just don’t really think I am

[paperweightperfect]

28 - I mean I’d like to have it, my legs are so fucking fat at the moment I can’t picture ever actually having a thigh gap

[paperweightperfect]

Day 26 - I want to feel light and have people look at me and think wow she’s so pretty or sweet or smart and not have there first thought be wow she’s kind of fat

Day 27 - not super well, at home I mostly just stay in my room avoid the temptation because I feel like if I do start eating I can’t stop until I’m sick

[stxrveluv]

pretty in black 🖤

[paperweightperfect]

Missed a bunch so

Day 23 - not really, I was never really the type to look at models or magazines most of my issues with weight stemmed from the girls around me who were so skinny and none had my body type

Day 24 - the terms aren’t great, no one should advocate for eating disorders or encourage them but the community has been really important to me

Day 25 - the first time I tried to purge I was 16 and in the shower I had a breakdown because I couldn’t make myself throw up. The first time I was successful was much later and was probably one of the worst things I’ve ever done

[seventysevenlbs]

90's thinspo 🖤

[paperweightperfect]

Day 22

The lowest weight I saw on a scale was 174 at the time I had to stop weighing myself so the actual lowest was probably in the 160s

I gained mostly due to recovery and issues regarding binge eating The full story of my time in recovery is complicated but the weight gain really fucked me up

[sailorsaturn3]

one day