the final goodbye| fwb!s.b. x reader|
word count: 1.8k
summary: one final night between you and sirius
warnings: angst, smut, (16+) car sex, unprotected sex, creampie
a/n: this is a vent fic so i’m sorry if it’s not that good
Come over, we need to talk.
You stare at the message Sirius had sent you over an hour ago, eyes never leaving the painfully bright screen. You weren’t really surprised, you had seen this coming. You and Sirius had been leading up to this moment for years, the moment the two of you finally accepted that you were no good for each other. After being friends with benefits since fourth-year of Hogwarts, and continuing the relationship into adulthood, the two of you have hurt each other more times than either of you could count. And recently, he’d been blowing you off, always telling you he’s busy, or just ignoring your messages all together. He was pushing you away. And this message was the last sign you needed.
After about two hours of overthinking, you finally decide to bite the bullet and get it over with. Sending him a text back and hopping in your car. You drive slower than usual on the way to his flat, not very eager to get there at the moment. When you arrive, you try your best to control the way your hands are shaking, and swallow the lump in the back of your throat, texting him again to tell him you’ve arrived. The wait feels like forever, although it was only about two minutes before Sirius emerged from his flat, dressed lazily in a pair of gray sweatpants and an old band t-shirt. The sight causes a small ache to begin between your legs but you shake it off, well aware that this is not the right time for those thoughts.
When he gets in the car, the two of you sit in silence for a moment, not really sure what to say. Sirius is the first to break the silence,
“Thank you for showing up, you took so long to answer my text, I was afraid you’d blow me off.” He says with an awkward laugh behind his words. You fight the urge to slap him because of the audacity he has, to accuse you of blowing him off. You say nothing, giving a curt laugh before starting the car and driving off. You already know where to go. It was the same abandoned spot the two of you had visited over the years, mostly during your sexcapades. But sometimes, on good days, when the two of you set aside the toxicity and obvious feelings, you’d come to this spot and just talk. For hours you’d sit in the car, discussing anything and everything on your minds at that moment. Thoughts of those days bring a dry feeling to your throat, and you decide to think about what you’d eat for dinner instead.
The drive, though only a few minutes, felt like hours as you sat in a suffocating silence, until you finally arrived at the parking lot. Slowly, you pull in, parking the car. When you park, you slouch down into your seat, releasing a breath you didn’t even know you were holding. Another moment of silence, neither of you make the move to say anything. Again, Sirius is the first to speak.
“Y/n, I want you to know that I never meant for it to come to this,” He starts, turning in his seat to face you, even though your eyes never leave the bushel of trees you’d parked in front of, “We were just kids when this started, and I never meant for it to go this far, for it to ruin our friendship.” You shake your head, still keeping silent, unable to trust your own voice. You flinch slightly when you feel Sirius’ hand on your cheek, turning your head to face him. Your breath hitches when you finally make eye contact with the raven haired boy, not having seen him in weeks.
“We’re just not good for each other love, i’m sorry.” He whispers, still holding your face in his hands. Your throat burns as you hold back the tears that threaten to fall from your eyes. Instead, you bring your hands to your face, grabbing hold of his and bringing them to your lips, planting a feather light kiss on his rough knuckles. You take a deep breath, shoulders falling in defeat.
“S’okay, I’m not angry with you. I knew this was coming, I knew it needed to be done,” You sigh, looking away once again as a tear falls past your cheek, “Just couldn’t do it myself.” Sirius brings his hand to your face once again, wiping away another stray tear. You instinctively lean into his touch, choking back a sob as the realization sinks in. This was it. It was over. Sirius wasn’t yours anymore, not that he ever was. And what hurt even worse, was that you knew you’d always be his.
“Siri,” You whisper, turning to face him once again, “Please, one more.” You beg him, holding tightly to his wrist. Confusion crosses Sirius’ face as he tries to understand what you’re asking for.
“One more time Sirius. Right here, right now. Just be with me one more time.” You continue to beg, sliding your hands up his leg, stopping at the outline of his cock. You look up at him, eyes wide and glazed with tears, silently begging. Sirius thinks for a moment, a mere second, before he nods his head, grabbing hold of your face once again and pulling you into a passionate kiss. This one is different from all the others you’ve shared. Normally, Sirius’ kisses are rough, almost bruising as your teeth clash together. But this time, he was slow, he took his time, swiping his tongue across your lips as if to ask permission to enter, something he had never done before. You let him in without hesitation, entangling your tongue with his as he kisses you deeper, exploring every corner of your mouth as if to memorize the taste of you.
You break the kiss only for a moment, climbing over the armrest and into his lap, reaching to your side so his seat falls all the way back, allowing him to lay comfortably with you on top of him. You mentally praise yourself for deciding to just throw a jacket over your nightgown when you left, allowing Sirius easy access to your aching cunt. Sirius sits up, unzipping your jacket and throwing it in the back seat. He wastes no time pulling down the straps of your nightgown, watching as you shiver when the cold air hits your exposed nipples.
“So fucking pretty.” He whispers, though you can’t tell if he’s talking to you or himself. His arm wraps around your waist, pulling your body closer into his. Your tits hang right in front of his face, giving him the opportunity to wrap his lips around one of your nipples, using his free hand to give attention to the other one. You let out a breathy moan, your hands flying to his head, tangling your fingers between his raven locks.
“Siri please.” You whine, not wanting to waste any time. This was the last time he was going to touch you, kiss you, be inside you. You didn’t need foreplay, you needed him. You grind your hips against his, making his body jolt against yours. He moans around your nipple when he feels the slick between your legs as it seeps through his pants. He releases your breast with a pop, bringing his hand down to pull your nightgown up past your waist, revealing your glistening cunt.
“So eager, just wanna be fucked don’t you.” He groans as he runs his fingers between your folds, eyes rolling to the back of his head when he feels how wet you are. You whine in response, nodding eagerly and grinding onto his fingers. Sirius smirks, cooing quietly when you whine as he removes his fingers, bringing them to your mouth. You instinctively open, wrapping your lips around his fingers and moaning at the taste of yourself.
Sirius lifts his hips, bringing his pants and boxers down just enough to release his hard cock. The head slapping against his stomach as it springs free, already leaking with precum. You quickly grab hold of his cock, lifting your hips and positioning his head at your entrance, looking down at him in a silent beg. He nods his head in approval and you waste no time sinking down on his cock. You move slowly, wanting to feel every inch of him fill you up one last time.
You both let out moans of relief when you finally sink all the way down, your hips flush against his. He grabs hold of your waist, grinding your hips down, making your clit graze against his abdomen with each movement. Your mouth falls open, high pitched moans and whimpers falling from your lips.
“Doing so good,” Sirius praises from under you, his hands trailing up to play with your tits, “y’always take me so well. My pretty girl.” The pet name makes the lump form in your throat once again, a pained whimper leaving your lips. Sirius holds your hips still, thrusting up into you. The action makes your head hit the car ceiling, causing you to release a pained cry.
“Fuck, i’m sorry.” Sirius curses. He wraps his arms around your shoulders, pulling your body down so your tits press flush against his clothes chest. In this position, your forehead falls comfortably against his. You keep your eyes closed tight, not knowing what looking him in the eyes will do to you in such an emotional moment.
“Hey,” He whispers, holding the side of your face, “Look at me.”
“Sirius I can’t.” You whimper, holding back the tears that fill your eyes.
“Y/n please, open your eyes.” He begs. Sirius begs you to open your eyes. Sirius never begs. You let out a shaky breath, slowly opening your eyes. When you do, he’s already looking at you, dark eyes swarming with many different emotions. You can’t hold back the tear that falls from your lashes, landing on his cheek.
His thumb moves to wipe your tears once again, “So pretty.” He whispers. The moment is too much for you to handle, his words sending you over the edge. You cry out, your head falling into his shoulder as your orgasm rips through you, your whole body shaking against his.
The feeling of your cunt clenching around him brings Sirius closer to his own orgasm, his movements becoming more sloppy under you.
“Cum inside me Siri, please” You whine into his ear, lazily moving your tired hips against his, trying to bring him to the edge, “let me have all of you.” Your words send Sirius toppling over the edge, he holds your hips hard against his, groaning as he releases himself inside you. You let out a small cry, feeling his cum fill you to the brink, seeping out from between your legs.
You both sit silently, with his cock sitting soft inside you. You knew you’d have to get up eventually. Both of you knew this blissful feeling was only temporary, but for now neither of you wanted it to end.
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