lost in the light

parker kerry | 23 | almost royalty

[parker-kerry]

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Amy: Just wouldn't expect you to miss anyone you sleep with.

Amy: I have to see it to believe it. I didn't mean it like a real date. Just the way people say it like a coffee date. Because I don't walk around like anything. You don't know that I am. But who you are isn't just the crap you have done. I understand that but it must be hard when you have obligations to him. Yeah yeah you seduced me masterfully.

Amy: Yes. I am. You are. But it just comes off especially sweet with you.

Parker: I'm not friends with the other girls I sleep with.

Parker: That's not happening, sorry. So what if I wanted it to be a real date then? You're gorgeous and literally everyone who lays eyes on you sees that. Are you saying you're not? In some ways it is though. Which to me is fine. I feel like you want me to be better than I am. It is what it is, Amy. Finally you just come out with it.

Parker: Why's that? This is why I like to set the bar so low.

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Amy: A little bit.

Amy: I don't believe you! An ice cream date with Parker Kerry. Can't say I ever saw that one coming. They make me feel awkward! Yeah but as we both know just because it is your family doesn't mean things turn out like they should. Such a selfless man. But you are acting like you are this bad lost cause and I disagree. Do you think it will ever change? Why do you think you deserve the credit?

Amy: I'd like to know them. Bordering on sweet again.

Parker: How come?

Parker: Maybe you just need to have some faith in me. I like that you're calling it a date. I don't know how you can't be a little used to compliments by now when you walk around looking that good. Feels a little more fucked when you're like an actually good person. You're welcome for that. I just think I am who I am. Nope, we're just different people. Us doing this whole thing isn't by accident.

Parker: You sure about that? Am I not allowed to be sweet?

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Amy: Wow an admittance.

Amy: Really just want to see how you handle it. Or maybe there aren't that many with cows. Great... I do, yeah. But I've accepted that it will always be like this. It would. I'd go through withdrawals. Because I don't think you need someone to tell you how bad the things you do are. You are aware of it already. Has their been a strain on the relationship since? When did you start? Guess we are in disagreement.

Amy: Wow I had no idea you had such a passion for housekeeping. Guess I'm lucky the previous one didn't make the cut.

Parker: Is it that surprising?

Parker: I could handle it just fine. Just don't want to. I'll take you to one. Be happy about compliments. Fucked up that it just has to be like that. They're your family. See, I would hate to see you go through that, so let's not mess with a good thing here. So you could just agree, don't have to push against it. There was a strain before that. Started when I was 14. Cause you don't wanna give me credit.

Parker: Lot of things you don't know about me. We're both lucky.

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Amy: So I'm going to miss you but you'll be fine?

Amy: Physical labor will be good for you. I have never been in one around here with a cow. Maybe a little. We talk here and there but she is much more conservative still and close with my parents. Mhmm right. I'm not excusing it at all actually. I'm sure there is a lot you have done that I'd very much disagree with but I think a lot of us act in a selfish way. Doesn't make it right but it doesn't make us a lost cause either. Got fucked? Do you do it for the fun or because you need it? You only deserve some.

Amy: So you sit there and inspect to make sure everything is dusted?

Parker: Maybe I'll miss you.

Parker: Stop trying to better me, I am how I am. You're not going for enough ice cream, clearly. Not going to stop, sexy. You miss her? Imagine having to give up my cock? Be devastating for you. Every time I say something bad about me you push back on it. Not everyone acts like me. Not everyone is me. We just got into a fight and didn't want to apologize anymore. I do it cause it feels good. I deserve a lot.

Parker: Every single day, yeah. Why do you think the position was open for you?

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Amy: Then it looks like we are on the same page.

Amy: But watching you do it would be so fun for me. This feels like a very specific place. No need to give them moving forward. No she wasn't but she was only 13 at the time. And is that advice for me or for you? Selfishness is part of human nature. Did you ever apologize to him for it? Do you get high every day? So you'd like to believe.

Amy: You don't even pay attention.

Parker: Nah, you'd miss me.

Parker: Why do you want to watch me suffer? There are a lot of ice cream places with cows. It's like you haven't lived. Do they make you uncomfortable? Oh, what about now? It's for me, but also for you. You don't need to excuse my shitty sides. No, I didn't. I was going to, but then idk shit got fucked. Yeah. Can't believe you're not giving me the credit.

Parker: How do you know that?

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It was a spontaneous idea. Something Amy never did and that was why she shouldn’t had done it. Normally she wasn’t in on Saturday’s but after the Senator had an event held there she came to help clean up. It was late morning when she decided to sneak into his room. Wanting to wake him up with a surprise. It was dark, the curtains drawn so she didn’t see the second figure in the bed until she was close by. Her heart skipped a beat and while she tried to turn quietly to leave, the panic she felt caused her to trip, knocking something over. Seeing them stir from the corner of her eye, she hurried off her feet purposefully not making eye contact with Parker. “I’m sorry. So sorry. Wrong room,” she said, her voice a bit shaky. “Sorry,” she apologized again hurrying out of there feeling mortified and a bit sick to her stomach. 

Parker was groggy, hungover, coming down from something. He probably would’ve slept through the noise had the girl in his bed not stirred. Seeing it was Amy, hearing the shakiness to her voice, his heart sank, not entirely sure why. He didn’t chase after her, how could he? Why would he? Though he felt a pull to. The way he got rid of the girl was a bit more rushed than it usually would be. With a little kiss and a promise to call her later, he took off to find Amy, searching a few rooms before coming up on her. “Amy, are you-- I’m sorry about that.” He wasn’t entirely sure what he was apologizing for, but it didn’t make it less sincere. He was sorry she saw, he supposed.

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Amy: What if I just say goodbye right now?

Amy: No fun. So you just want to go to an ice cream shop. You can tell me how you really feel about things, you know? Oh God, I was not fishing for compliments. No! I have control of myself! Yeah I don't think any of us would have gotten through it without each other. Idk. Honestly maybe I should be with how much time it's been but I haven't even thought about dating. Do you think you are a bad guy? What is one thing you would? You've been lucky.

Amy: No but you make it impossible to work!

Parker: I'd probably recover pretty quickly.

Parker: Shoveling shit isn't fun. Yeah, but one with cows. It just was what it was, kind of annoying. I'm aware, that's why you get them. Maybe we should get rid of that control. Was your sister there for you through it all too? I don't think you should date, personally. Just would mess with a good thing here. I think I'm selfish, but not malicious. I was high out of my mind at my dad's last election party. Didn't really think he'd notice, but he did and it kind of ruined his night. Never luck.

Parker: I've got no complaints about the maid service.

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Amy: Idk. Guess we should just stop.

Amy: Aww here I was hoping our hangout be could out on the farm lending a hand. Was that hard for you? I'm just taking a good guess but whatever you are into. You showing up does. Yes. I am very close to them. My husband was their only child and with them taking me in then we have a special relationship. Idk if it was your personality or just how you chose to focus it. So would you do things differently looking back? And you could be wrong.

Amy: You do so I'll give in to you and come to your bedroom when I am supposed to be working!

Parker: Bet you wanna keep talking to me cause I'm funny.

Parker: I'm not lending any hands, but we can go to a farm if you want to. One with ice cream though. It was whatever. You're very good in bed, experienced or not, Amy. Do you get wet when I walk into a room? That's nice then, that you have each other, filling sort of voids in each other's lives and getting through shit. Will it be weird when you start dating you think? Think you want to paint me to be decent. Never really thought about that, idk. Maybe a few things. Been pretty right with you so far.

Parker: See? You come in and have me, I don't keep you waiting!

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Amy: Okay well I'm not now.

Amy: Did you like it? Were you close to your nanny? I mean considering that I am way less experienced and adventurous as the other girls you sleep with, it's surprising but nice. I've never had it before where just having you so close turns me on. It was. Made the day bitter sweet but my in laws were amazing so I was lucky. Did it start though with you just trying to get their attention or did that not matter to you? Who says I want to?

Amy: I'm merely trying to keep up with you.

Parker: Lame, why are we even talking then?

Parker: Yeah, it was fun. Wouldn't want to scoop the shit or anything, but yeah. That one yeah, but she left when I was pretty young still and then it was just a rotating cast. How do you know I don't exclusively fuck virgins outside of you? Yeah? Does showing up to work put you in the mood now? You still talk to your in-laws? Idk why it started, I was just a kid idk. Might just be my personality. I say so.

Parker: I don't tease you!

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Amy: What if you are busy? Should I still tell you?

Amy: I cannot imagine in any setting with farm animals. Considered me very flattered. You want me to stay bent over until I am wet? No, they didn't. They let my sister come. Do you not want to tell me specifics? I am not the cook! I am the maid!

Amy: I like making you want me more. And some patience is good for you.

Parker: Fuck yes. Doesn't matter what I'm doing, tell me.

Parker: My nanny took me to some farm, we went a few times. For real? Do you like knowing that? Yes, I want my fingers barely brushing your underwear and I want to feel them start to get wet as I rub more and more. Fuck, that must have been hard, huh? It's just like I was me, idk. I fuck things up. I was just always mischievous and getting into shit, so they stopped taking me to as many events and shit, so then they were traveling a fuck ton without me and then my shit just got worse. This isn't about what you get paid to do, this is about what you want to do for me.

Parker: In other words you like being a little tease.

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Amy: We could maybe work up to that. Seems a bit intimidating.

Amy: When? I believe it. Oh the star? I saw you more as an ensemble guy. Oh I see. You want me bending over stretching. Getting that peek of my underwear and then coming up behind me. That cover it? No, not really. Have on occasion but not more than a few times through the years. What was it that happened between you? You haven't been very interested in me cooking in our time together.

Amy: I think I need to take advantage of those times.

Parker: Phone is good with me. I just can't wait to find out when you're thinking of me.

Parker: When I was a kid. Well there is a cast, but you have definitely been the star lately. Everyone else might be getting jealous honestly. Cover it? No, gets it started, sure. I wanna push up your little skirt and feel that pretty ass, let my fingers tease you. Did they come to your wedding? It wasn't like one thing or something, just I was me through the years idk. So you can't bring it to me? Am I not special to you?

Parker: Seems unfair if you ask me

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Amy: I kinda like the idea of hearing you more than texting it.

Amy: Have you even seen them eat? The latest? Oh God. I don't wanna know the number. Thought you might. Like I said very conservative. I was 17. If they had been around more you'd have a better relationship. It's on the parent to create what the dynamic will be. Not you. It's like I said with the conversation. I felt it was genuine but didn't know if you still wanted while having sex.

Amy: You must really love my eye rolls then too.

Parker: We could facetime if you wanted to see me too.

Parker: Sure have, it's disgusting. I've got a vivid imagination. Shouldn't you be flattered that you're the star of my show? You can bend over for me in it too, get a nice stretch for yourself, ya know. Do you talk to your parents now at all? Fuck. There's more to it all than you know. Wasn't like they had a kid and had 0 interest in me from the jump. Well that night was what made me value our conversations more. Kinda fucked up you haven't made me a grilled cheese since though.

Parker: I do actually, most frustrating thing in the world is when you roll your eyes at me when we're out in the open and I can't grab your ass to pull you into me.

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Amy: Wouldn't a phone call be easier for this type of thing?

Amy: Um pigs are pretty darn cute. I don't think I want to know the fantasy version you have of me in your head. I used to do a lot of splits. Could try it again. My parents found out and they kicked me out. I ended up living with my husband's family. There is nothing stupid about having issues from parents be absent in your life and constantly being on your own. Remember that night you were down and we made grilled cheese and talked? That night was what pushed me to give in to wanting you. I think I needed the friendship to do this with you so no, it won't be weird because I'd like to think we were sorta friends before.

Amy: I laugh in a you are ridiculous sort of way!

Parker: If you want to call me you can call me. Love to hear you making yourself moan.

Parker: Until you see them eat. I've got plenty of fantasy versions of you, daisy duke wearing town slut is only the latest. I like that idea a lot. Holy hell, they kicked you out for getting dick? Jesus christ! How old were you? They probably would be around me more if I weren't a shitbag though so. So if we were friends then why were you surprised when I asked to hang out?

Parker: Cause it's never my intent to make you laugh in that way... nooo.... never....

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Amy: I've never really dirty talked all that much.

Amy: Oh no. Horses, pigs, cows... Parker Kerry has been the biggest mess. I wasn't the town slut! Oh what are you going to do? Have me cheer for you in your bedroom? No, I didn't. I had sex with my husband in high school. We were caught though and yeah it was a thing. Why do you feel the need to cheapen your issues? That's okay. You don't have to. I just need to say that you can tell me anything.

Amy: We never would have slept together if that was what it depended on.

Parker: That's alright, just cause it's sexting doesn't mean I want you to be anything you're not. Just ask what you're doing, how it feels, what you're thinking about. Maybe tell you what to do.

Parker: I think I smell a little better than horses, pigs, and cows though. Bit cuter too. I know you weren't, but in the fantasy in my head you will be tonight. Honestly I'm good if you never get past the stage of a warm up stretch. Damn, what does it being a thing mean? What happened? Because it's all just fucking stupid and cliche. It doesn't make this whole thing weird to you if I do? That we're fucking mixed with all that?

Parker: I make you laugh all the time!

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Amy: I have never done that before.

Amy: Mucking the stalls. Feeding animals. Learned how to work the tractor. Harvested. Canned things. Oh gosh no. Too much leg would have made me the town slut. I don't have it anymore, sorry... I was taught that sex was only between husband and wife. That if you had sex before marriage you bad. That it was more to have kids then for pleasure. We had fun! Not like us but wouldn't say boring. What does it change? So you want to be able to talk to me?

Amy: Funny!

Parker: I think you'll like it a lot.

Parker: So cleaning up after me is like light work to you, huh? Jesus fuck. Might jerk off to the image of you as the town slut tonight now. I could get you one. Did you believe in all of that til we started messing around? Sounds to me like you came from a town with a bunch of dudes with shitty dicks. They're just not real problems, they're rich kid problems, idk. I don't know what I want.

Parker: You fuck me for my humor.

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Amy: Yes.

Amy: Oh yeah got up early to do stuff. A lot of the time after school unless I had to cheer for a game. Every Saturday. Sunday was the only day off cause you know keeping it holy. The first time I thought that I did but I learned that I think I was just saying goodbye to something. There are times like I feel like I should because of him or how sex was taught to me but I don't. Not ever. Doesn't matter if you are rich. That doesn't get to diminish things. How do you want to feel?

Amy: Was it worth it?

Parker: Next time text me.

Parker: What kind of shit did you have to do? Assuming sexy little daisy dukes aren't the reality there. Wanna see you in a cheer uniform in a bad way. What do you mean how sex was taught to you? Not to disrespect your dude, sure the sex was great, but you mean you guys had boring sex and now you have fun sex? I'm glad you don't. Changes things. Normal?

Parker: Nah.

Parker: Jk, of course.

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Amy: It might enter my thoughts here and there before I go to bed.

Amy: Small town Christian family. Own a small farm that I grew up on. Parents still together and I have one sister. It's not just sex. It is but not like that. I told you about my late husband. Getting to do this with you. It's like made me feel like I don't have to feel guilty about moving on. Don't say perceived. You have problems. Do you believe I care?

Amy: There were little moments I felt the attraction but really wanted you? The day you first kissed me. I never wanted a kiss so much.

Parker: Do you touch yourself thinking about it?

Parker: Did you have to like work on it and shit? Sister older or younger? Does it ever not work? Do you ever feel guilty after you're with me? I got rich kid problems, it's different. Of course I do, but idk how to feel about that.

Parker: I don't think I'd ever worked so hard for a kiss in my life.