vent sideblog

[ozmodai]

individual brady bunch :]

[vriendenboekjes]

cut it out with till death do us part. i will find you in this life and reality and the next one and the next one and the next one

[anxeious]

[dying-weeds]

[chronicallyonlinesworld]

[tylernmymirror]

sit . stay . fetch . come .

getting walked like a dog ? yeah , i do that . i'll follow you around obediently and i'll even wait for orders .

sit . stay . fetch . come .

i've learned to stop barking when you say " quiet ; " my loud mouth is incompatible with your distracted ears . you don't realize mine have always been more sensitive than yours . you don't appreciate what i sacrifice when i ask for your attention .

speak . now , quiet . quiet ! quiet , you damn dog ! i said ' shut up ! '

i'll muzzle myself , so you never see the violence that pumps through every piece of my flesh . i'll lick my own wounds to not be a bother . i'll be of service to you until it kills me , and you'll never know when i'm sick ; i have been trained since i was born . i hate the yelling . i hate the guilt . i hate the way you fill me with shame . i will be obedient .

i will be obedient .

speak . quiet . i said ' shut up ! ' sit . stay . fetch . come .

[rottenn-angel]

yelling at god

[lostmf]

[dragonheartstring360]

can’t emphasize enough how when you grew up in a toxic environment, being in the room with someone who’s angry or frustrated - even if it has nothing to do with you - is absolutely terrifying cuz you’ve been 1000% conditioned to assume frustration = all hell is going to break lose and be aimed directly at you

[furiousgoldfish]

abuser voice: It is not evil to yell at you, berate you for the smallest things, scream and insult you, imply that everything would be better if you didn't exist, lie to you, control you, violate you, manipulate you, or assault you. Those are normal and good things to do. They reflect nothing about me.

You, however, being upset at those things done to you? Iredeemable. Abominable. Horrific. Cruel and accusatory. Worst thing anyone could ever do. You should rot in shame forever for it.

[fdggvbjdhb]

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[pervangelist]

a little art project i made during a psychosis episode back in november '22

[maisiedoll-deactivated20240704]

its ok to be dead. its ok to be a rotting corpse!

[caer7-deactivated20170518]

[feral-ballad]

Rafael Guillén, tr. by Sandy McKinney, from I’m Speaking; “I Hardly Remember”

[Text ID: “I hardly remember your voice, but the pain of you / floats in some remote current of my blood. / I carry you in my depths, trapped in the sludge / like one of those corpses the sea refuses to give up.”]

[c9h13no3]