I don’t know if there’s already a *thinks of a word*
reason for the song but here’s just my idea of it after listening to it 10 times. I’m going to be using the English words that’s translated by JubyPhonic.
god no ones gonna read this-
i wrote this so i can calm down-
it’s not gonna be in order i’m just gonna go over everything and have it make sense in the end.
Before anything my theory is that the song talks about a physically abusive boyfriend. idk if you think that’s impossible or sumn but it makes sense to me and maybe you might think so by the end of this.
“’It’s people i need, oh people to feed,’ the choker accursed would frantically scream”
“‘im hurting and bleed, I need more to feed, get people more people’ the choker would scream”
i think “the choker” represents the boyfriend. When he says to get more people i think he’s telling her that she needs to convince people that she’s okay and he’s a good guy because he has a terrible reputation. (that’s why he says “im hurting and bleed i need more to feed” because everything thinks he’s doing something to her.)
“Wound tighter and tighter, threw up, nearly whiter. Nobody here, there’s nobody at all. Im doing so well have you heard? you see, you see, Im such a good girl. Cute as a button, you heard? you see, you see, so good, this girl, in pain, i scream you see?”
In the first 2 sentences in that bit i think she’s saying that there’s nobody that can help her. And in the rest it’s her telling people that she’s alright and telling her boyfriend that she’s telling everyone that (”you see, you see, i’m such a good girl”) At the end she’s saying how in pain she is by the boyfriends actions.
“Love me i say x3 more and more and love me i say, love me away until im not completely sane. Torturing me, torturing me, let me be free, break from the curse hurting me. None of you can stop it now.”
In this part, i think that she wants the boyfriend to love her. She knows that she is in pain and she wants to get away, but she is also desperate for love. She sees him as the only person who can love her because she believes no one can stop it and help her.
“I am the best in my class they attest i’m a girl far above all the rest. far better than those two, better than all you. people, oh people look only at me. Meeting alone in the yard. From me to you, confessing my heart. Was it a lie from the start? To say i love you from afar as filthy a creature you are!”
I think when they met, he was manipulating her. He was saying how she was better than anyone she was around and how she was perfect ig and she believed it; but when she confessed and he got abusive, she started to consider if it was a lie and she thinks he’s not capable of love because of how horrible he is.
“Love me i say, take what you want of me. Taking from me, taking from me, all that i have and all that i keep. Screaming for more, you’re not enough, screaming for me i couldn’t give you up...i am just so sorry.”
I honestly don’t really have an idea for this but off the top of my head i think that maybe he took all her happiness and dignity. He thinks that she’s not enough for him, like trying to bring her down, but he’s always taking her happiness (”screaming for more...”)
“Aren’t i so happy today? x2″
She is still trying to convince people that she’s okay and she’s lying to herself.
may i just say...this is not a good thing and i hate that this is what ive come to listening to this song lmao
just in case of anything i do not condone abuse and domestic violence. This song is very creepy but i like the song. But i DO NOT condone abuse. This is just a theory. A very creepy one.
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