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5‘4 cw: 110 gw1: 109 gw2: 100 ugw: 85 16 not pro she/her

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i have a serious shopping addiction

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if this isnt my 2023 i dont want it

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i ❤️ unattainable, emotionally unavailable boys

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how women should be treated

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my safe food is tuc crackers and today i was buying them and my grandma told me in detail how much fat the are and now i wanna cry

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my journal is sexier than yours

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tomorrow is fast day bc i literally gained all of the seasickness weight back and im so sick of being fat and lazy

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told my friend i’ve been starvin for 3 years and the only thing she said was maybe see a therapist bc its not that bad yet (bc im not underweight at least visibly yay😍) i love my life

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i lost 2kg bc i was seasick😭

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im seasick from sailing and i literally cannot think of food without throwing up and im loving it

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not ed related but in a slut for him

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sometimes i think about the fact that i’ll either die or recover eventually but thats such a crazy. thought so i just push it to the back of my mind

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found a scale in the hotel room😍😍

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i want to die im pn holiday rn and i cant restrict bc 1 its not my family and 2 my friend would notice and i was finally back on track now im freaking out

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ok appearantly loosing is impossible bc literally i’ve only been having like 400 or less a day and i’ve still been stuck at the same weight for a week now

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any tips?