Me when I have to rewrite one of my first ever fully fleshed out ocs
Idk who’s reading this or if anyone even cares, but I’ve been thinking about rewriting ‘die for you’ for a while now…not the biggest fan of my writing style back then…I cooked a little here and there but it’s just not good..or as good as I know it can be with the skill I have now.
Im still very proud of me for even getting to the point of publishing it because I have a lot of works that I never ever even bothered to finish let alone publish, so congrats to me, and finding an audience— small, but still an audience. That story means a lot to me, really it does, all my creations do, and because they do i need them to actually be to my liking 😭💀.
Most of the plot will be the same, them meeting will be a bit different for the sake of my old shitty writing.
Now to the real meat and bones and something that may actually hurt me to do but i know this will be very freeing for me. I still want this story, their story to be a dark romance, because let’s bffr…why wouldn’t it be? Now, I have a small issue with Rina as a character and a reflection of myself and issues i struggle with, most of her is fine. She’s a severely timid, organized, morally grey neat freak that doesn’t want to take up space or time from people she thinks are above her. Thats what Rina is, that’s some things she reflects out of me. But also one of her sort of main attributes is that she has a tendency to be obsessive, clingy and too reliant on others. The last two im fine with keeping because frankly that’s not the issue, she can be clingy, she can be reliant on Hades because well..she’s literally a whole ass human being in the underworld (full of monsters mind you) he chose to take responsibility over essentially. He didn’t have to give her a second chance, he just saw an opportunity and figured he could use her for something later down the line or just keep her because pain and panic aste not very good at their job tbh. My issue, with her as her creator is that she’s obsessive and I feel like it’s not needed or relevant to her character anymore or in the beginning.
Im not scrapping that flaw out because that’s a flaw I actually have that can be applied to literally everything. And I don’t really want Rina to be perfect. She’s really not and was never meant to be and i accept her and her flaws 100%. Her obsessiveness for Hades isn’t really needed in the beginning of their story. I don’t need her falling head over heels for Hades in the beginning. So for right now, she technically has a small crush on him at most or just finds him oddly attractive with no real base behind it.
I want their relationship to build up to something meaningful and even more special to me than it already is, not just an obsessive girl getting the man of her dreams after like 2 years or some of working for him or something because he’s emotionally constipated.
Also…the way i wrote her obsessive tendencies in was just weird and it makes her sound like shes abt to kill people or something 😭😭💀 like Rina chill out broski, no one finna take that man from you relax 💀.
But yea, just a heads up incase anyone is still interested.
