Dear Diary,

"Without that night, I'd be way past gone." I have a song written about my story, so I hope it can help you. You're never alone.

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Robber

I hope your favorite team keeps losing;

I hope you lose your ID.

 I hope your card always gets declined;

I hope your clock is always wrong.

 I hope your birthdays suck;

I hope your socks never match.

 I hope your heart is always broken;

I hope you end up alone.

 You don’t deserve happiness

because you robbed me of mine.

But I hope that it was worth the crime.

[pastgone]

Permission

From the time I was young,

I never gave permission.

He spent his time losing money,

But I never gave permission.

He was unreliable and grew distant,

But I never gave permission.

He found a better daughter,

But I never gave permission.

 They would comment on my weight,

and comment on my plate,

But I never gave permission.

Then came the comments on my body

the good and the bad

But I never gave permission.

 I thought it was normal to feel so sad,

But I never gave permission.

20 mg of happiness to fix the imbalance,

But I never gave permission.

She said the scars won’t look pretty when I’m older,

But I never gave permission.

 Then you stumbled home behind me and came in my bed,

But I never gave permission.

You had your own agenda,

But I never gave permission.

You left me in tears, more broken than before,

And I never gave you permission.

[pastgone]

I’ve been struggling a lot lately and adulting isn’t fun. 

My therapist recommended journaling, but I ended up writing poems. I can’t really share them with people I know (for some obvious reasons) and plan to post them here. So to anyone reading this -- here’s your trigger warning.

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