Patience Poetry

I write bad poetry

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Homesick

When I say "I miss home"

I am not talking about

The place I normally sleep

Rather than, you.

For I've made a home in you.

It's quite cozy there.

Pillows and blankets.

I also live in fear of eviction.

So I make myself comfy

And hold on tight.

Seeing how long I can call you home

Before I'm on the streets

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Sleepless

I am cursed to sleepless nights

Sleepless nights where all I crave

Is to sleep.

Sleepless nights

Where lying in the arms

Of a killer

Is more reassuring than this.

I've been cursed these sleepless nights

Since I was a child.

Tossing and turning in my bed.

Not far off from my current state.

The worst nights are the ones

Without my journal

Where these sleepless nights

Cry

And the tears turn into ink

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Puppet

I'm afraid of myself

Of these feelings that control me.

Like a puppet on a string.

But those strings are wrapped

Around my throat

And they pull.

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No Hope

I see no hope.

When those I love

Are lost

I'll lose all I am

Only to become a shell

Of myself.

And I fear

I lose myself more

Every single day

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Thank You

You saved me.

You showed me life

Was about the people you love

And I knew

I was safe with you

And home was with you

And love was with you.

I can't thank you enough

For loving me

When I can't love myself

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Catch

I need you here.

I need you to hold me

as I fall in slow motion.

I need you to catch me

and i know I'll fall hard.

I'm sorry I gave you the burden of catching me.

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Pin Collection

I've got a pin collection.

Each pin has stabbed me

right where my heart is.

Just like you.

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Frostbite

My heart is frostbitten.

It's dangerous when it's cold.

This cold has reached my heart.

My heart cracked.

This cold numbs my brain.

And I can't think straight.

I feel I need you to warm me.

To make this frostbite go away.

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Candy

The memory is slow

The memory is sweet.

Those words you said can't be beat.

It's been so long,

I still feel sweetness in my heart.

That memory is my candy, it has been from the start.

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First

You where the first one who's feelings were mutual.

And i can't imagine why.

I'm nothing special, just different.

Maybe you are too.

Maybe we found everything in our nothing.

You were the first.

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Foxes

I keep memories in boxes

So that I can look back

Even on those who were foxes

But they were so black

My memory, it fades away

With all the broken bonds

And the people who couldn't stay

They would never respond

This is how I learned who they were

The real ones who love me

Even though I was oh so sure

But I was blind and couldn't see

The foxes, their bite so sharp

I just couldn't believe

Their howls had sounded like a harp

They had left me to grieve

But this help me see who loved me

Although it took some time

Those who loved me could see

All of the foxes crime

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Shame On Me

And I told myself

"You can't fall in love"

But now I live in shame

Because I broke my own rules

When I layed my eyes on you

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Moon, Sun, And Stars

I like to tell myself not to get too close to people.

Because I knew it could break my heart.

But I ignored myself with reckless abandon when it came to you.

I'm so dumb to think you could care about me the way I do.

I wonder why.

Why you chose me.

Why I trust you.

You are the moon, sun, and stars

And I am nothing more than a human amazed by your light.

I don't think you understand how much you mean to me.

Because you are the blood running through my veins.

Keeping me alive and as well as I will ever be.

How did I get so lucky.

Or dumb.

Or blind.

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You

Yes, I had spent my whole life through

Looking for someone just

To make my life a lot less blue

A someone I could trust

Then you had come out of nowhere

And my life became sweet

Please understand I needed you

Time with you can't be beat

When we'd met, a strange thought had come

What if you were the one

I'd been waiting for my whole life?

I decided to run.

I tried to run away from it.

Feelings I didn't know.

You had become something special.

Something that wouldn't go.

Yes by now I had embraced it

That you are just for me

That you are all I had needed.

You are the one for me.

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Let me tell you a bit about someone

Someone who really means a lot to me

This special person who makes my life fun

The person who opened my eyes to see.

A someone who is one of my best friends.

One day I met this one out of the blue.

I knew they would be there until life ends.

Because they knew the things to get me through.

Yet I'm always a bit cautious as well.

I'm always afraid that my heart will break.

This is something I do not dare to tell.

So I distance myself for my own sake.

And so I continue to feel the same.

Hoping my feelings are not but a game.