close friendships with females are difficult to ne. on one hand, i always was kind of taken out of the intersexual competition between females, because literally only last year i have started noticing the vile behaviours they exhibit out of jealousy or distaste for my lack of insecurity. i always could only validate myself and my social standing in relation to other women - never cared for men, i only seeked approval of other women ever since i walked out of the sandbox and stopped trying talking with male peers about video games. women were always the source of my closest friendships and love and i didn't even realise you could live differently, at least with so differently that other women mean to you nothing in comparison to the man they love.
i don't see men as understanding - i don't think they have capacity to understand. most of them in my experience lack the skills and insight to be good people, friends or even co workers. in every day life usually i just ger midldly annoyed over their stupidity combined with lack of sensitivity. sometimes i do believe their retarded cruelty really is whats stopping this world from being bearable to live in.
but my good male friends will never treat me as bad my good heterosexual female friends did, they never will. they never will treat me in that completely cruel intimate way. they will never treat me that way. or maye this just comes from me perceiving these relationships differently as the ones with men and treating them as much more valuable than they are to the other side. they can decenter men all they want while they are in their twenties and i think in regards ot me, not society or theory - will never change the fact im incompatible with them. my closest friend right now is a lesbian marathon runner working full time at a repair shop and doing two majors one of them being law. and i love her and we're always there for each other - and i know she would never fuck me over, but i do think that comes from solidarity and understanding there is between women who well, they never centered men to begin with .
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