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[pauebs]

Hello? Tao po? Hindi hayop. 🤭

I’m here again. Wala naman bored lang and unting update lang sa life.

Today is July 1, 12:24am.

Sumasakit mata ko, minamigraine na naman ako.

Anyway, life update hmm

So ngayon ganun pa rin naman hahaha mahal pa rin siya pero I think unti na lang susuko na ako, medyo napapagod na rin kasi eh. Let’s see if walang dumating bago sa life ko. Pero focus na rin muna talaga ako sa sarili most specially sa career ko. Magpapayaman na muna ako.

Ang goal natin for the next couple of years is FINANCIAL FREEDOM!

So, next big thing sa life ko is STUDENT VISA 🔊 (may speaker para kunwari sinigaw ko 🤭)

I can’t wait sa bagong yugto ng buhay ko. Gustuhin ko man kasama ka pa rin, mukhang ayaw mo na talaga kaya okay lang papalayain na kita. Ngunit datapwa’t andirito pa rin ako hanggang sa maubos ako 🥲

Bye.

[pauebs]

Happy? New Year! 2023!

Hi,

So.. hahaha kamusta naman new year natin dyan? Gusto ko magtweet sana kaso di ko masabi talaga doon gusto kong sabihin kasi dami tao hahaha dito na lang para ako lang makakabasa and kung sino man na stranger.

Few more weeks na lang at happy anni-break-sary na 🤣💔 Wait bigla sumakit tyan ko. Okay nasa trono na ako hahahaha eww why am I sharing these things here 🤣 Pagka may naka discover na naman neto na kung sino ewan ko na lang hahahaha

Sakit pa rin.. sakit pa rin ng tyan ko 😅

Alexa play Chasing Pavements by Adele 😬

Mag iisang taon na pero sa tuwing may makikita akong gusto kong puntahan or gawin, ikaw pa rin nasa isip ko na gusto ko kasama gawin mga yun.

Bakit ang hirap hirap ko maka-move on? Samantalang mga naging girlfriend ko, kami pa naka-move on na 🙃

I guess that’s just life. And I’m just too much and yet never enough..

End.

[pauebs]

23 Nov 2022

Hi,

How are you? Just want to check up on you. I hope you’re doing okay. I think you kinda are. There would be times that you’ll feel like starting all over again, but trust me you’re not. You’re getting there. Just keep going! 🙂

End.

[pauebs]

12 Nov 2022

Few more weeks til 2023. I don’t know how to start the year without us. Yes we’re still friends as of the moment. But, til when? We can’t be friends if you have someone new in your life. And I’m too fucking scared to move on because I still love you and still hoping you feel the same way as I do.

I’m a coward hay scared of every little things that can hurt me.

I guess only the future me knows what will happen. I’ll let you handle it future me! Good luck..

[pauebs]

2020

Definitely not my year. Fuck this year.

[pauebs]

Wait til you get to 2022 🥲

[pauebs]

2 exes

One was my bestfriend, the other was my soulmate.

What did I do in my past life to deserve this pain in a single lifetime?

I’ll be kinder from now on so that “me” in my next life will have it easy.

[pauebs]

Hi me,

Looks like you’re a little bit okay now. You can do it! One step at a time :)

It’s just another heart break really. We don’t know if this will be the last time or not so you better be okay!

It’s always the ones that we didn’t expect to hurt us that breaks us so much.

[pauebs]

2022

Hi self from the past!

Yep. We messed it up 🥲 Nah I’m literally crying as I type this post hahaha

2 things why I comeback here at least once a year, either we’re happy or fxcking totally heart broken… again ha ha ha

You thought that this is finally it right??? What a clown you are! Jokes on us really. We’re back at square one. Alone and stagnant in life AGAIN.

It’s been a couple of months since she broke up with you. But apparently she’s been at it since last year, 2021.

Don’t worry. We really tried our best to be the best we can be. We can’t be perfect and that’s okay. We just need to find that person that will and can understand us. Or maybe we just don’t need one.

We’re old. Fat. Ugly. You’re hair is dying. You’re playing games all night and day you will never be good at.

I hope to be okay again. Crying helps. And no one to talk to because the only person I want all these to know is her. But she doesn’t care anymore. Let’s just let her go please. Let me go. I can’t take this pain anymore. I’m still in love and it fxcking hurts!

😭

[pauebs]

Accidentally stumped upon her twiiter account so I got curious as to what/how she was doing. I didn’t know what I want to see there but mostly probably I will be out of the picture. For years even before we broke up she was over me lol But I was kinda jealous of how she was excited living with her new person, because just recently my one true love diceded to move in together as well but unexpected things occured so it was postponed ☹️ And now she won’t talk to me about idk what hay

[pauebs]

This ECQ is driving everybody crazy. My girlfriend is having doubts about our relationship. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to break up with her. I love her so much.

[pauebs]

I’m really in pain. I can’t sleep. Weeping like a baby.

She’s always like this. Always so mean. Doesn’t empathise.

Is this going to work anymore? Give up? I can’t.

[pauebs]

This is where I go when I’m down. I got no one to talk to. In here I can say anything that I want and nobody cares.

[pauebs]

2020

Definitely not my year. Fuck this year.

[pauebs]

When you get hurt, you will really wish that you should have not fallen in love in the first place.

[pauebs]

I realized if not for her, I would have gone back home.

I’m so hurt. I’ve been crying all night. I feel pain.

[pauebs]

I want to go home 😭

[pauebs]

NYE 2019

Hi hehe it’s been a while since I have written something here.

2019 was the turning point of my life. While 2018 was like pre turning point hehe I have survived this year because of my loved ones (bebe & family). I was really happy when I got to pass my board exam. I felt like everything is going to the right track again. It wasn’t easy for sure, but my girlfriend who supported me and assured me that everything will be alright, made it a little bit okay hehe

I can say that I am confidently beautiful (haha) that 2020 will be full of opportunities and blessings.

Shoutout to my bebegurl @ballsandbites I love you my gurl tho you won’t be able to read this hahaha

HAPPY NEW YEAR 🥳