[paulinamaria]

happy birthday, self.

[paulinamaria]

Why can I not shake the thought off? It's been months and it still haunts me.

[paulinamaria]

How do you tell the man you love and loves you, that you are sad and lonely?

[paulinamaria]

Will I look back and thank myself for choosing so? Hopefully.

[paulinamaria]

Character development.

[paulinamaria]

10.24

Nagpapasalamat sa sarili na piniling kumapit sa kabila ng lahat.

[paulinamaria]

9.10

I chose to stay.

[paulinamaria]

Please keep that distance away from me. I don’t want to be falling into the same trap and end up in the same hole again and again. (But at least now, I know better.)

[paulinamaria]

I get it now. And I get (at least a few fibers of your being and) why you said goodbye.

[free-your-mind]

[paulinamaria]

Make me understand. What it means that you can’t stay. What it means when you say we’re different. Aren’t we both gasping for air and bleeding? Don’t we both have crippling sadness coursing through our veins? But don’t we somehow make each other sane? You say I’ll understand when I get to know you whole. Then let me. Please let me.

I can wait.

[paulinamaria]

Naniwala ako. Pinaniwalaan ko. At naniniwala pa rin ako. Pero anong silbi kung ako nalang mag-isa ang maniniwala?