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y'know, every once in a while I remember this place exists and think I should come be active again and then I just... don't 16 year old me would be so disappointed

but yes hi hello hope we're all surviving

#I've fallen fully into conservation work and its great tbh #the charity staff are lovely and the volunteers are lovely and its so so nice to feel useful & needed & wanted after years of just... idk #stagnating?? might be the word #it seemed I was gonna be stuck as a carer for the rest of my life and I didn't know how to get out of that #but now I'm being given training and opportunities and an actual chance at choosing something good for myself as time goes on #anyway yes I can do woodworking and shit now B)#2 years ago I couldn't have imagined being handed dangerous powertools and being told go wild by someone with full confidence in me #no chainsaws yet tho #they don't trust me that much lmaoooo

quietly pokes head in

Hi hello it’s been like... a year since I looked here, is anyone still around

Jack had 2 seizures the other night and we don’t know if he’ll have more and I’m genuinely terrified because if I lose this dog it’ll break me

Went for a hike up the kilpatrick braes to loch humphrey the other day, the views were nice

#ngl me & Jacky-boy were slowly dying the whole way up the path because it’s a somewhat steep incline (for a beginner) for the first hour #kept taking water breaks and having Regrets but we made it eventually #you can’t really tell but the photo with all the trees is from the edge of a gully. didn’t realise until I leant over the fence and looked #it was cool though #you can see out to dumbarton rock and greenock then beyond to where the clyde curves away to the sea #and in the other direction we could see across the erskine bridge to glasgow #we also saw a buzzard circling above us but I didn’t have my camera and my phone wasn’t good enough to pick it up #the loch was lovely and peaceful and a great place for lunch #it’s nice that the weather is finally good enough that we can get out of the house for a few hours #we also popped up to mum’s grave and saw another buzzard which was cool #honestly feels surreal that it’s been just about 7 months because it still feels like yesterday #but I’m coping with it

Back in late december I adopted an adult roborovski hamster who had been given up because he didn’t like human interaction, and the adoption centre had marked him down as untameable due to his age & how skittish he was. I was advised not to adopt him if I was interested in a hamster that could ever be held, but by that point I was head over heels in love with him and wouldn’t consider looking at the other hamsters - so I took him home and named him Heinz, because his old name was ‘bean boy’ and honestly what the actual fuck kinda name is that.

Anyway, 9 weeks of patience and persistence later, Heinz now comes when called and happily sits in my hand while I carry him around his enclosure - we’re still working on lifting him out of the enclosure but he’s getting there.

#I’m so fucking pleased with how well he’s doing with his taming #like roborovskis are notorious for being very difficult to tame and it’s not uncommon for them to never be hand-tamed #they’re just such small & skittish animals that even a single human finger must seem absolutely terrifying to many of the poor wee things #but I really wanted a robo and knew exactly what I was getting into with them so I didn’t care if Heinz was a display animal or a pet #and I’m so proud of how far the wee guy’s come in such a short span of time #lmao Jack gets upset though because I use the same sound for both of them to get their attention #so I’ll be baby-talking Heinz & asking if he wants a treat only to turn around and find Jack sulking behind me because he wants a treat too #he’s also a super jealous dog and definitely doesn’t appreciate me focusing my attention on someone that isn’t him

I’m learning how to draw backgrounds so have a thing I gave up on

#every once in a while I remember tumblr is a thing #my art #strill #also I’ve spent 3 days on this while having a mental discussion with myself about strill genetics and how they evolved #like if they’ve been domesticated for thousands (??) of years then there’s a chance the planet they came from is lost to time?#so they’re maybe more like horses than dogs when it comes to evolution and domestication #as in the truly wild members of the species are all gone and the only ones left all are bred from domestic stock #I could be wrong but it’d be interesting #there might be small populations of feral strille doing their thing planets that mandalorians settled on over the centuries #and I’m pretty sure they’re described as being really rare which means the species is probably slowly dying out #there must be wildlife conservationists somewhere in the galaxy right?#oh oh oh and what about zoos? there must be a space!zoo that had a strill at some point #idk it’s 2am and I’m sick & tired so I’m rambling #I also had a thought about wildlife photographers in the galaxy but I won’t start on that senseless ramble

#let me just toss these here and then run away again #been rereading impcomm (again) while babysitting my nephew and the strill mood struck #my art #really loving the greyish brown design with the golden bib #the shaded version doesn’t really show off the markings & colours well so y’all get the flat colours too

For my first funeral, today actually wasn’t too bad. Next week will be a completely different situation emotionally, but at least I now have an idea of how things should go so I’m not left going ??? while having the breakdown that is inevitably gonna happen

#throwing all my random thoughts here because I’ve got friends & family following all my social media and it feels weird ranting there #lmao it was kinda funny at the end though cause I didn’t know that no one can stand until the immediate family/next of kin goes to leave #so I was sitting there roaring & greating and my sister had to nudge me a few times to tell me to move it #I was actually pretty proud of myself for mostly keeping it together until the end #I’m pure dreading next week though #because I know for a fact that we’re all gonna be a fucking mess for that whole day and idk how I’m gonna cope #also not looking forward to the size of the next funeral #I could barely cope with the 15-20 people who came today and that was more than we were expecting #but we were discussing who’s going next week and I think we’re expecting 100 folks? maybe more depending on who can make it #which is a terrifying amount of people tbh

This past week has been the most surreal feeling ever tbh, it’s like I’m still half-expecting to wake up and find this has all been some absolutely horrific nightmare because how can life go so wrong so quickly for us

So I’m 21 and have lost both parents in the span of 2 weeks, and idk what the fuck to do with my life anymore

#coming here to rant because I’m very much ??? over the way everything has just went downhill #a month ago everything had been going great and we’d been planning so many cool things for the future yet that’s now all out the window #me & my wee brother haven’t been to a funeral in our lives but now we’ve got 2 funerals in a week #like I didn’t get along well with my dad at all so I was doing... okay-ish after he died but no one expected mum to go too #she went from a wee cold to hospital to covid to getting better to dead within 3 days #so it’s been a lot #and obviously I’ve got my siblings & we’re looking after each other but we also can’t look at one another without crying #I’m just thankful we got to be there with her at the end

Y’know, in my opinion, a dog that will pick up smaller dogs by the head and ragdoll them on the street should be described a bit better than ‘can be a little weird sometimes’

#a border collie decided Jack looked like a chew toy and the last 5 (6?) hours have been very much Not Fun #he’s fine now. just spooked and sore

Life has been busy but I got a new fish and I love him. His name is Sir Filet o’ Charcoal, Lord of the Snails - I just call him Charlie.

meerlichts

Your daily reminder that the clones are human and not a “near human species” and that labelling them as the latter is racist <3

#really how how fucking popular ‘the clones aren’t really human at all’ has become #like I know it’s always been a thing but it’s lately become a much bigger thing #I used to see a post mentioning it every couple of months and now I’m seeing multiple posts weekly #granted those posts are complaining about it #I’d like to hope that no one I follow agrees with it #fandom fuckery #racism

nibeul

some of y’all really expect POC to “educate” grown adults at any given time and that needs to stop. “take the opportunity to educate them!” what the fuck is wrong with you. why do you think I owe you my emotional labor whenever it’s convenient for you. what is with y’all and being unable to use google when it’s right there

mortiscausa

some old kid gawain sketches i never posted. also a wee mordred

#other’s art

porkbunjuice

Our islands are not a playground for your little "intrepid soul search". Pull up or fuck off

nibeul

being a person of color who frequently talks about racism has two sides, because on one hand, a decent amount of white people see me as the angry brown person who needs to watch their tone, and then on the other hand, there’s the BIPOC kids who come to my inbox or DMs because they finally feel like they have a place where they’re heard. so I guess what I’m saying is I’m more than happy to be the angry person of color if it means those kids feel just a little bit safer.

nibeul

reminder that conversations about racism will never be more draining for white people than they are for people of color.

#racism

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