Favorite LG
I wrote this about a month ago and just got around to posting it.
Other than my mom, there was no one else in this world I liked, admired, and respected more as a person.
I think about you more often than you know.
I like to have conversations in my head about the silly arguments we’d have if we were still going out. They always make me laugh and constantly remind me how smart and right you are. I don’t know how someone can be wrong 10,000 times, but I certainly found a way to do it. God I swear I was right only three times out of the thousands of things we talked about.
I wish I told you I loved you more often.
We never got the chance to travel somewhere together on a plane. I think that would’ve been a lot of fun. You would’ve fucking loved Disney World. I really wish I got to see you happy at Disney World.
Whenever I think about the day I broke up with you, I still hear your voice ringing when you ask, “But whyyyyy?” and it still fucking kills me. Just an insurmountable amount of guilt. I’m so fucking sorry. I don’t know what else to say. I’m still so fucking sorry about that.
I remember you sent me a text on Thanksgiving Day shortly after I broke up with you telling me how thankful you were to have me in your life.
I didn’t fucking deserve that text. I can’t believe you sent me that text after how much I hurt you. I don’t know how you got through that time in your life. You never asked me why I broke up with you. You stayed patient the entire time and gave me space despite the fact that I never gave you any answers. I’m so sorry I hurt you so much. I’m so sorry I made you cry so many nights. I’m so sorry I made you experience so much fucking pain. I can’t believe you still talk to me today. I don’t deserve it. I have so much respect for you.
It’s so good to see you happy with another guy. I hope he never hurts you like I did and cherishes you like the treasure you are.
You deserve the best.
Thank you for so many unbelievably happy memories.
You’re the best.
I feel so lucky to have been able to call you my girlfriend.
You’re the fucking best.
