i'm 2 old 4 this

Imaginary evil is romantic and varied; real evil is gloomy, monotonous, barren, boring. Imaginary good is boring; real good is always new, marvelous, intoxicating. -Simone Weil

[peacall]

audiologist says i only have temporary hearing loss 😎 she was like are you in loud environments a lot and i had a flashback to like 2007 when i made my dad drive 2 hours into the dessert to pick me up from a dan deacon and girltalk show that was too loud

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[peacall]

ok I have a Ruptured Eardrum lol

[peacall]

lesson for me that I should not have taken on 10x as much work just to see if I could. It is time to get a life

[peacall]

I think my job is not promoting me and also not telling me they’re not promoting me, in order to later gaslight me about having told me they were going to try to promote me

[peacall]

basically was not able to exit bed yday but this morning have been rewarded with not desperately needing Tylenol at the 12 hour mark for the first time in a week. one day I may have two ears again

[peacall]

sat next to an obviously ex military Large man with a very branded corporate backpack on my flight who was clearly dealing with some sort of work crisis at the beginning where some younger woman was messaging him like “I think I just made it worse” and him being like I’ll take the shit, I’ve certainly gotten used to it lately, then saw him get an email about reducing the group of people allowed to work on some project then her messaging him again like “do they not even want me to be involved anymore” then saw him drink some liquor and comment on instagram with his phone font size 100 something about Utah being gay and how he means that in a bad way then then saw him open contacts on his phone giant mode so I learned his name then googled him and learned he’s a senior manager on the rocket that just exploded program lol

[peacall]

having an ear infection is so real. yesterday it started being profoundly wet and it did that all night long. who knows what’s next. as long as I don’t get tinnitus and it goes away after the antibiotics it can do whatever it wants tbh

[peacall]

clocking in for third of three of my closest friends of the last twenty years’ learning that their dads are cheating on their moms

[peacall]

the new Lena Dunham memoir is very good she is a very reliable narrator

[peacall]

it is very funny when someone who lives in rural South Carolina is like how’s living in Seattle didn’t your new mayor (my neighbor of 8 years) drive out Starbucks (a company whose corporate office I once worked at). no but i love that you’re paying attention

[peacall]

i did telehealth and they sent me to a pharmacy that does not exist so then i went to urgent care and now i am at a real pharmacy. also successfully procured laptop charger and downloaded some stupid internal conference itinerary app. what can’t i do

[peacall]

lol i have. An ear infection

[peacall]

it’s the first time anyone in Orlando’s seen an n95 but also the first time I’ve seen a bowl of glittery patriotic fake starfish. which is saying something if you know where i lived in 2005

[peacall]

there is a lot happening

[peacall]

I have offended my right ear via flying too much pray 4 me

[peacall]

perhaps just bc I just flew from *mst*rd*m to R**kj*v*k to s**ttl*, slept for 5 hours, and flew to Orlando but I’ve never been so confused by a place in my life. it has been about an hour