.• 𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐊 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.+.
— chapter five : 𝐓𝐔𝐌𝐁𝐋𝐑 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃
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✰ 𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘤𝘩 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘥𝘮𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦.
✰ warnings : this is all fictional so don’t take any of the character’s personality or actions seriously!
✰ author’s note : 3000+ words this time juST WOW! BUT YAY IM BACK WITH THE SERIES!!
you still had the vivid memory of one of your first encounters with jennie plastered deep into your mind.
it was on a gloomy sunday evening,the sky had been awash with various shades of grey, your nose was buried deep inside a thick book you lent from the library, you flopped onto the fur chair placed in the corner of your room. sophomore year you had spent a great deal of time drowning yourself in books in hopes of improving your grades while on the other hand, your "not yet ex best friend" best friend lisa was juggling her recent popularity in school and online, and a ton of dance competitions. you still remembered how taken aback you were when lisa ignored your calls that day.
"sorry im busy rn" was what she had texted you right after the fifth call. you rolled your eyes. a memory from two weeks ago washed over your mind like a flood. your lips mere inches away from hers before she pulled away. the truth was that you had a crush on the thai girl since junior year, but you had buried your feelings deep inside your heart, too afraid to tell anyone in fear of losing your best friend. last wednesday night, you managed to gather up the courage to make the greatest mistake of your life — kiss your best friend. well almost.
maybe yuju was right, she was avoiding you.
dashing your way towards the entrance of your home, you sling on your battered grey hoodie and slipped your phone deep into the small pocket on the side. a tinkling sound came to your ears as the first pearls of rain dropped from the sky, knocking against the windows around the house simultaneously. the sound was like the glassy clinking of a champagne flute, lilting and clear. with a loud huff, you pulled up the hood of your top and dashed out of the house with your hands huddled around your torso. a sheet of rain passed over you and the sound intensified.
it took what seemed like an eternity to finally reach lisa's house. the ever so familiar beige-coloured building surrounded by the white picket fence stood out in the row of houses. the lights in the houses were lit up in a warm,gold shade. shivering, you stepped onto the front porch in front of the pale door, your hands reaching for the doorbell. you hesitated for a spilt second, before eventually pressing the button. it felt like your heart was going to spring out of your chest.
the familiar doorbell ringtone filled the house, but minutes passed and no one answered.
you pressed the button again.
"lisa, i know you are in t-there, please just talk to me...i-i miss you" you blurted out, holding back the tears which you had held in for the past few weeks of torture from lisa. "im sorry okay, can we please just forget about...it?"
still no answer, but you knew lisa could hear every single word you said. you just knew. at this point, your vision was completely blurred by the tears building in your eyes, threatening to spill out any moment. yet, your best friend didn't slip out the door to comfort you like the many times before, or even just send a text message teasing you for falling for your prank this time. just nothing.
the rain managed to drown out your loud sobs, the deafening sound of the rain droplets being the only thing comforting you at the moment. you crouched there on the floor, with your body huddled together like a child in the dark. waiting,waiting and waiting for your best friend to just open the door.
to your surprise, you felt two soft tapes on your forearm. lisa? you immediately raised your head up to see the school's famed it girl who you have never got the chance or just didn't have any reason to talk to. she usually hung out with a group of girls named blackpink and one of the members was none other than lisa. she had a small white umbrella in one hand while the other,which she had supposedly used to tap your forearm,was now slowly retreating back to her side. she wore a delicate,white dress and her hair was tied into a half ponytail.
jennie kim looked angelic.
"well you look like shit y/n y/l/n" she comments bluntly, almost sounding like a whisper in the rain. the way she said your name made you shiver, not from the rain this time.
"cut me some slack,won't you?...aren't you supposed to be dressing up for some lame party?" you grumbled after breaking eye contact with the brunette in front of you. minutes of silence passed by. neither of you knew what to say but most of you were wondering why she hasn't left your pathetic self yet.
"are you...um okay?" jennie questioned, sounding almost hesitant.
"do i look like im okay?"
once again, a cloud of silence engulfed the air.
"look jennie, i will move out of the way for you to enter the house so you don't have to pity me to do so" you used both of your hands to support yourself up after almost an hour of crouching on the icy,hard floor. just before you could do so, a hand reached out to help you up to which you almost unwillingly accepted.
standing face to face with jennie made your heart skip a beat. you never really noticed how pretty she looked until now. you noticed that her eyes were slowly roaming your face in curiousity, studying it intently.
you both made eye contact for the first time.
one of her hands slowly reached up to wipe away the stray tears on your face, as you flinched at the sudden physical contact.
"please don't cry, you look pretty without all these tears.its lisa's loss,not yours," she answered, the corners of her lips lifting up slightly like a weak smile. a flood of tears burst out of your eyes against your will and before you knew it, you were crying your eyes out in front of the last person that you would want to sob in front of. her slender arms slowly wrapped around your shoulders as she pulled you into her warm embrace. she stayed in silence while you sobbed into he shoulder,soaking it in tears in the process. "its okay, im here now... always will be" she whispered.
the rain had already came to a halt, but the air still smelled of heavy rainfall. standing there on lisa's porch, you were crying into the arms of a girl who you will later take comfort in. a girl who you will later call your girlfriend. a girl named jennie kim.
"i promise i won't hurt you" was what she had always said whenever you rushed over to her house at midnight to get her to fill in the emptiness in your heart.
yet, here you were right now.
thrown back into the arms of the previous girl who had broken your heart, with the promise broken. your heart broken not once, but twice.
once the tears had all been drained out from your eyes, you stood up from your spot and wrapped both of your trembling hands around the icy door handle to exit the room. "so you're just gonna leave after literally crying in the arms of your ex best friend in a storage room?" lisa queried from behind you, making you freeze on the spot.
"d-do i really look okay to you?"
"well obviously not after you soaked my top with your tears and snot..."
a heavy silence settled over the both of you, thicker than the tension in the atmosphere. you turned back around to face the short-haired girl. unsettled eyes glanced unceremoniously around to avoid catching the other's eyes.
"it was a mistake,i shouldn't have been with you" you blurted out as you felt the words pierce through your heart, and maybe it even hers. one of her eyebrows had twitched slightly, you knew it was always did whenever she heard something irritating.
you couldn't take it anymore. you turned your back against lisa again and was about to finally leave when a hand held onto your right arm. you turned your head back around to face the girl. an unreadable expression plastered on her face.
"i know you despise me a lot y/n but at least let me bring you home, especially when you look like the time i dropped your popsicle, pouting and stuff." lisa offered, her lips forming a small smirk towards the end of the sentence. you couldn't help but return the smile, using your left hand to push against her shoulder.
the journey back home was exactly like before, nothing much but silence. however, this time,it felt more like a confortable silence. arriving at home was a piece of cake, considering there wasn't much traffic at this late hour and probably also because lisa knew all the short cuts back to your home.after taking off and returning the heavy torture device, i mean helmet clasped on your head, you mumbled out a small thank you before heading towards the front door of your house. halfway across the path, you stopped.
turning back around, you took notice at how lisa was staring at you, your actions caught her off guard as she turns to look behind your house instead. a small smile formed on your lips.
"thank you lisa... not just because of your ride but um... what happened at the party, well n-not because of our kiss but like you know the me crying and all the snot getting on your shirt but i guess you kinda deserve it but then i comforted me but th-"
"yes y/n i get it, you're welcome" she cut you off with a giggle, waving you off to get inside.
"so... you're not gonna ask me why i was crying?"
"well okay... im gonna leave now, bye"
you turned back around again to make your way to the door, still able to feel lisa's eyes following you as you went. you quietly cursed out before deliberately turning back around to ask lisa a question which you've been dying to ask for a year now.
"why did you ever stop talking to me?"
you could tell the question startled lisa from how her body immediately tensed up. to your surprise, she raised her head to make eye contact with her, her eyes boring holes into you, but she turned away after about a few seconds.
"i-i can't tell you...y/n"
"you know you can, was it me? or was it because you were too busy being "famous"?!"
now it was her turn not to answer.
you scoffed out frustration. guess everyone sucks now. you stomped the rest of your way back inside the house, slamming the door as hard as you could. fuck everyone tonight. you couldn't help but press your ears against the cold surface of the door, hearing the deafening vroom of lisa's bike speeding away in the night. your body didn't move an inch until all thats left to hear was the peaceful silence of the night and the memory of what happened tonight.
you couldn't sleep at all that night, the haunting memory of your girlfriend kissing somebody else other than you. all you could do was wait for the arrival of the next day and the sight of the love letter from m. you had fallen asleep an hour before having to wake up to get ready for school. you were definitely never going to a party ever again. your body ached all over together with a pair of hideous swollen eyes from all the crying last night. jisung almost commented about your puffy eyes but decided against it when he noticed how gloomy and down you looked. at least your brother had some sympathy.
the first thing you did when you arrived at school was rush over to the locker like usual. you avoided eye contact with anyone, considering how some of them probably took notice of a sobbing mess at the party last night. thankfully, neither jennie nor lisa were anywhere in sight. you twisted open the handle of your metal locker, anticipating the sight of today's pink letter.
there it was in its usual spot, resting on top of your hill of books and snacks. carefully ripping open the covering, revealing the familiar piece of paper inside. reading it always made your heart flutter under any circumstances, especially when you are sad. every single time you laid your eyes on the piece of letter, scattered thoughts about m's identity came to your mind. one thing you were sure of was that m was a girl. you just know it, especially from the way they write and convey their feelings. you bet the 13 year old you would have been shaking from having a tumblr girlfriend.
all of a sudden, a voice snapped you out of your train of thoughts. it echoed through the massive hall as clear as day. a look of shock replaced the smile on your face as you hurriedly slipped the letter into your bag's side pocket. why are being so guilty when jennie was the one who cheated ?!
you turned around to come face to face with jennie.
"morning y/n! where did you go last night?" she asked with her brows furrowed, one of her hands reaching up to caress your cheek gently. her face didn't show any hints of regret, just sympathy for the girl she cheated on. you frowned and continued getting the rest of the books you needed this week.
"did i do something wrong?why are you ignoring me?"
you scoffed at her words, slamming the locker shut and speed walked towards your first class while jennie rushed after you and demanded for you to reply her. finally, you stopped, frozen on the spot in front of your classroom. turning around, you stared deeply into jennie's eyes, searching for any hint of guilt but to no avail. did she really have no idea? you were sure that the girl in the room was jennie, you could recognize her husky voice anywhere.
"i know you cheated on me last night jennie,"you blurted out, trying your best not to stutter.
"what? what are you talking about?"
"wow, you seriously think im gonna fall for your act? i heard you and someone else doing whatever fuck you guys did in one of the bedrooms last night! jus-just leave me alone jennie, you broke your promise!" you gasped at the aggressiveness of your words, not expecting yourself to explode this easily.
"that's not possible because i left right after the kiss, not to mention you did kiss my best friend"
"but that's different...a-and i recognized your voice, it was you"
"y/n baby please believe me, i swear i left right after that! im sure you mistook it for someone else, it could've been one of my friends in the room." jennie said, moving closer to hold both of your hands tightly and rub them tenderly like she always does. "please y/n? i promise you it wasn't me, i love you and wouldn't want to hurt you"
okay maybe there was a chance that the girl you heard wasn't jennie. plus, almost the whole school was there so it could've been anyone. fuck, seriously?
after school, you took the bus back home together with jisung who was irritatingly all sweaty from a basketball match with his group of friends called nct dream or whatever. ( you told him to sit two rows behind you) you didn't care, at least not when you had your whole attention on the love letters from m.you pulled up the hood of your purple jacket and wore your earphones to blast some music. it always soothes you after a stressful day, together with the letters of course.
back home, you sat on the couch in your living room with all of the letters placed neatly beside each other according to the dates. the bathroom door clasped open to reveal a wet-haired jisung as the strong aroma of lavender filled the air.
"wow noona you're really serious about finding your so-called secret admirer..."he exclaimed as he leaned his body against the couch to observe the pink letters with you. you nodded in response. to your annoyance, you hit a dead end again. this was hopeless. how were you supposed to find m in a school of almost two thousand people?!
you've only shown the letters to jisung once when he sneaked into your room one night when you were reading the letters. apparently he wanted to get away from doing mother's chores.
"yeah i am, but you don't know anything, it's probably just from um,jennie..."
"i don't know anything about n but it's definitely not your girlfriend," he replied with cheeky smile.
"firstly, its m not n. secondly, how would you know that it isn't jennie?"
"does jennie look like someone who would be some committed and pour her whole heart out to someone?... or maybe it could be because she looks scary but anyways, whatever you want sis"
"okay park jisung leave me alone, you're distracting me"
"is it because im too handsome?"
"ew no jisung go play your games with chenle or something!" you grumbled, slapping his head while you were at it.
jisung was right, jennie wasn't someone who would do such a thing. she would probably see it as a complete waste of time. but then who was it?
ugh screw it! you frustratedly folded all the letters and placed them back into the tin heart-shaped box where you have kept them since the first ever letter. climbing onto the small wooden stool, you hid the box behind some photo frames and clothes on top of the cupboard in your room. there!
tonight, you were gonna get a long, good sleep after everything you've been through. you did, with your last thought before slipping into dreamland being the scenario of one day meeting m.
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