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How to Love Overthinker

as someone who is an Overthinker, please allow me to tell all of you How to Love Overthinker

if you love an overthinker, there are things you need to know.

an overthinker neediness isn’t simply neediness, it’s fear.

i promise you, no one is more tired by their overactive mind than they are. they live with it everyday, and wish they could live life without dozen hypotheticals invading each moment. but they can’t.

it’s sometimes difficult to see, but there is beauty in overthinking. those people who are most afraid to hurt are also those who love the most. if you love an overthinker, you should appreciate that.

be there for them.

tell them you’re not going away.

reassure them.

like,

“hey, i’m going to work. can’t wait to see you after work. i love you”

“i’m a little bit busy now, but will text you asap. i love you sunshine”

“thank you for being there for me. it’s mean a lot for me. i love you more each day”

they are still learning to trust, everyday. they’re learning to let go of their fears because the one before walked away after love got a little hard. they’re fighting everyday to win the biggest battle, the battle against their own mind.

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tanpa kusadari, aku terpana tanpa kuasa, aku tak berdaya meskipun kita hanya bertatap mata maafkan, aku jatuh suka

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tanpa kurencanakan

aku merindukanmu

tanpa kurencanakan

aku mencintaimu

tanpa kurencanakan

aku ingin hidup bersamamu

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dipikulnya kehampaan itu sendiri

berpikir bahwa memang harusnya begitu

karena telah berumur dewasa

tak menyadari

ada anak kecil di dalam dirinya yang ingin dikasihi

kini

si dewasa dan si anak kecil yang saling memiliki

saling menyemangati

agar tetap hidup

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tell me

how to feel alive?

i’m dead inside

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where do i find to make my mind and heart feel calm?

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is it wrong if i want to have someone to call “home”?

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when i’m missing you

i realized

we will never pray together

we will never kiss each other before sleep

we will never be together

and suddenly i can hardly breathe

when i’m missing you

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Lidah Tak Perasa

Pria itu mengajarkanku untuk selalu bertutur kata baik kepada orang lain. Namun, mengapa aku melihatnya bertutur kata tidak baik kepada wanita itu? Seorang wanita yang mempertaruhkan nyawanya sendiri untuk bisa mendekapku.

Pria itu mengajarkanku untuk bernada lembut kepada orang lain. Namun, kenapa nadanya begitu sering tinggi kepadaku sedari aku masih menangis ketika terjatuh?

Aku selalu melihat wanita itu berjuang sekuat tenaga, dan aku pun selalu melihat pria itu meruntuhkan semangat wanita itu. Mengapa sedari aku belum bersekolah telah melihat pipi wanita itu basah?

Pria itu yang membuatku suka membaca. Namun sayangnya Pria itu tak mampu mendengar, mendengarku membacakan pikiranku.

Benar kata orang dulu, lidah dapat lebih tajam daripada pisau. Dan Pria itu memiliki lidah tak perasa yang begitu tajam.

Dan kini kurasa, aku memanglah seorang yang tak beradap, beretika, tidak tau diri, tak mengerti apa-apa, tidak tau diuntung, seorang “anak jancok”, seperti lontaran lidah tak perasa Pria itu.

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“how do you continue life?”

she ask me this. till this day, i don’t how to answer that question

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aku ingin sekali mencintai seperti Pak BJ Habibie mencintai Ibu Ainun

dan aku ingin sekali dicintai seperti Ibu Ainun mencintain Pak BJ Habibie

apakah terlalu berlebihan?

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i don’t know

did i love you so deep or did i love you too deeply?

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life is a comedy

life put you where you don’t want anything, just continue living

suddenly life make you meet someone where you fall in love inevitable

and you want everything now, especially her to be part of your life forever

life is really a comedy

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i was stop wishing for anything

and i meet you

now, i want everything, specially i want you in my life and me in your life

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i really want you in my life

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tell me

how can you fall in love so deeply with someone you can’t have?

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