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used to sh also used to have a binge ed i also struggle with depression i 🍃 and i’ve always wanted to be skinny hw;164.4lb lw:125lb cw:145lb trying to get back to my lw by beginning of may ik i can do it. gw1:115 gw2:100 ugw:95 maybe 85😁 i’m a gluten free vegan bc i have ibs so the stuff i binge on doesn’t have that many cals i also have rly bad anxiety but that doesn’t rly matter i’ve been suicidal nd had a good amount of attempt

[user-boxer]

This user has a triggering blog

[penguins28]

forgot to show started this book and finished today: dork diaries

now i’m finally reading punk 57:

time to delete this app now talk to yall when i finish this book!

[skinimini80-deactivated20260217]

I always see people on hear yapping about how

“Terming our blogs doesn’t help US!!! Omg ur taking away my MOOTS!!! I’ll just make a NEW ONE”

Guys you’re not being termed for your sake… you do realize that right? It’s not about you. It’s about whoever will stumble across your blog.

Maybe I lack empathy on this because I’ve never been termed before, but like I don’t think I could be mad if I was? I can say not pro, don’t do this, and whatever else all I want but it kind of means nothing if I’m actively describing my behaviors and gushing over my weightloss. Someone might see it and think „oh look a free guide! Idc if it’s unhealthy! I’m mentally unwell anyways!“

Idk like it’s just not about you. It’s about protecting others from you.

We’ve normalized what we post to such a degree we’ve forgotten how harmful this community is. Yes there’s good in finding others to talk to. Yes it feels good to be completely honest when you spend your life lying to others. Yes it helps you process your experiences to write them out. Yes yes yes AND there is something to be said for the mentality you develop seeing so many others engage in such awful behavior. It makes it feel normal. It makes it feel ok. It makes you feel safe in the jaws of this monster.

[penguins28]

gonna show each book i read for now

just to maybe help anyone out there, reading is suchhh a good distraction or hw since i do online school here the book i started today gonna finish it today since its short but yall prob have already read it 😭

[penguins28]

any good ed books?

[penguins28]

reading distracts me from eating

reading distracts me from eating too early

i love reading

i love feeling empty

[penguins28]

i HAVE to loose weight i was definitely “recovered” and im not depressed anymore and i love life but fuck i’m fat asf i mean not rly but still i need to loose 20 pounds so i can be back at 125lbs or at least 10 so ill be 135lbs which isnt horrible but for some reason being in the 130s seems like its so easy to get to 125 idk fml tips? i’ll update in a month and tell yall how much i weigh

[penguins28]

so ig i’ll be eating under 500 cals today i wasnt gonna eat for 24 hours but girl idk i will just eat now but not eat until wednesday after

[penguins28]

sooo i’ve been debating if i should finish the sandwich rn or later nd imma do it rn sooo i can fast from like 11:25am today- till sometime on tuesday i rly wanna do monday- wednesday again but im just so scared to fast over 36 hours now bc this girl on discord scared the shit outta me but oh well imma not eat till then buttt after that im not gonna do it again hopefully also i loveeee trisha paytas sm guys like she’s been comforting to me since i was younggg i was an og fs but when i dat i loveeeee wat ch ing her mukbungs okay imma update yall at like 1 sum

[penguins28]

okay so it’s 3:05 am nd like i said saturdays and sundays are my metabolism days and i wanna eat rn but i also wanna do a 24 hour fast and wait until it’s 5pm but i didn’t eat that much yesterday sooo what should i do i feel like i should eat since metabolism days are basically times i should listen to my body so likeee idk can someone say in the comments or message me what i should do?

edit: i ended up eating not a lot but like yk enough

[penguins28]

ngl im mad at myself since yesterday was supposed to be a metabolism day and i was supposed to be eating 900 cals or close to that but i only ate 493 why am i like thisss. yesterday i was literally having a panic attack bc i felt bad since i wasn’t rly eating and my mom made me vegan meals last week but also im so mad i only ate that much bc now when i loose the weight imma gain it back faster when i eat “normal” ughhhh but today is also a metabolism day so imma eat the rest of the quesadillas and hopefully a sub so that would get me to close to 900? idk guys iderk what im doing with metabolism days like how many cals am i supposed to eat?

[konoko]

[penguins28]

guyssss i’ve been so active on discordddd do any of yall have it? nd does anyone wanna be ana buddies like idk i want someone to talk tooo you dont have to have discord tho

[penguins28]

hiii do u guys have any e d discord servers? i have one that im in but i wanna join moreee theyre so interesting also my dad got me regular dr.pepper nd not diet😕 but its fine ig i don’t rly count drink cals unless they over like 200 anyways

[penguins28]

mk so i eat some rice cakes and some mango pieces bc girl im not tryna die or nun idk anxiety told me to eat a bit more but its fine it was only like 200 cals which is lowkey a lot but at least my thoughts can be fine idkkk but im not gonna eat until saturday still soo j should be good

[rahabq]

[penguins28]

soo i ate 203 cals all together which is nothing i wish i had under 150 but wtv now im not gonna eat until saturday nd i think that should be good bc like not eating on your period like the side affects make u feel like ur dying nd u still lowkey feel like i am but wtvv ill be fine but im fs loosing weight like i feel smaller ngl ill give yall an update prob in the morning