The Secret Meaning Behind My Pubic Hair
The first time
I shaved my pubes
I didn’t know what the
fuck
I was doing.
It is possible
that I had watched too much
porn,
I had the
unrealistic expectations
they talk about
and was too naive
to know it.
I was just a
sixteen year old girl
that wanted someone to think
that she
was sexy.
However,
I soon came to realise that
bending backwards
over the bathtub
with a razor
in one hand
and frustration
in the other
is about the
least sexy thing
you could do.
But it was worth it
for the smooth feeling
in between my thighs
because in my eyes,
you couldn’t be
pretty
if you had
pubic hair.
I remember
the first time
a boy took off my
panties.
I made him dim
every light in the room
because
I didn’t want to be seen
down there.
I had a nightmare
in my knickers
and the thing that got me
the most wet
was the saturation
from my own
self consciousness.
I was scared
because my vagina
did not look
like the ones I had seen
on screens,
my vagina
was not worthy
of somebody else’s
stare.
The next day
I locked myself in the
bathroom and started
to hack away
at a part of myself.
I let each hair
drop to the floor
like a mother
saying to its child
I don’t want you
anymore.
And as I let my bush
- my jungle -
grow smaller like
fucking deforestation
I said no.
I looked in the mirror
and I thought:
What the fuck
does it matter?
As if I can’t get laid
just because I have
a few damn
pubes.
And anyway,
my body was not designed
to be pleasant
on the eye,
my body is a war zone
of burn marks and
bruises,
my body is a
battlefield
and I fight wars here.
My body
is a compilation
of art installations
so please
view me
with critical appreciation.
And if I want to give myself
a landing strip,
I will give myself
a god damn
landing strip
but that doesn’t make it
a place
for you to make a touchdown.
My vagina
is not your goal
it is your privilege
and if you have
earned
that privilege
you probably don’t care what it
looks like.
But if you do -
If you want to fuck a girl
with a bald pussy
go fuck a girl
with a bald pussy
but I
am not
that girl
I am a woman
- and I have
gardens
growing out of me.
So the next time
you take off my
panties
and see my pubes
you see more
than just pubes.
You see growth.
You see fertility.
You see
indestruction,
you see
regeneration,
you see
everything
that I am willing
to show you.
Because that’s
what women do.
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