hey.

not pro anything. not me in the picture. cw: too fat. stay healthy and positive🖤

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I can't look at myself. My thighs. My stomache. Everything. I'm ashamed of the number on the scale and I feel embarrassed everytime I eat something. Why didn't I stay strong? Why didn't I lose the weight I wanted to lose so badly? Why did I give up?

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Hello, I'm fat.

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I am not enough.

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Yeehaw

I'm back on my bullshit

[iwannadiiie]

me: doing crunches at 3:00 am because i remembered what i ate and had a mental breakdown

the ghosts of that hour:

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gaining the weight back you once already lost is the worst

Last year around this time I was weighing 61kg, now it's 67kg. I see and feel changes in my body and it's really frustrating me. I hope I can lose some until the end of the year. I did it once, I can do it again. I WILL LOSE THE WEIGHT.

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Anyone else dealing with depression while also having an eating disorder?

any tips on how to feel better?

[cucumbercrepes]

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a sketch I did in april

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Things that motivate me to lose weight

All of my friends are skinny

My father told me to stop eating several times when I wanted to eat

My sister's weight is always a topic when relatives see her bc she is skinny

That boy I know since kindergarden saying "you got faaat" once

Feeling ashamed during pe

Wanting to take part at pool partys

Being able to wear the clothes I want to wear

Feeling dainty in dresses

Not looking like a whale while dancing

Getting to know boys

Being complimented on my looks

Not having to feel like I need to hide everything even when I'm alone

Finally being proud of my body

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Is sitting in your room in underwear, drinking tea while crying normal behaviour?

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A tip to make yourself feel even worse after binging: record yourself shoving that calories in your mouth

I did it and I'm purely disgusted by myself

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if I continue losing hair like I do at the moment I'll soon look like Gollum, no joke

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I just wanna be thin

[gosh]