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[peridotite]

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[twig-the-escaped-cephalopod]

i am Thinkimg . about the Character. and listening to a Song. i a m sure this will not have repercussions

[mud-sludg]

the real hikaru's ghost and its presence is so interesting, and what he means to yoshiki. he goes through hurtful experiences of homophobia when he comes out to asako and acknowledges his feelings for the real hikaru for the first time, and hikaru is at the center of it. saying that's gross.

the real hikaru is the symbol of yoshiki's internalized homophobia, the voice in his head saying that's gross, bad, evil, monstrous (regardless of what the real hikaru actually felt or thought when he was alive because yoshiki doesn't know and neither do we). yoshiki admits and accepts his own feelings when talking to asako, goes home and cuts his bangs and stops hiding -> in the latest chapter he acknowledges and accepts hikaru's death and embraces "hikaru", the symbol of his monstrosity = gayness. in accepting hikaru's death, yoshiki accepts himself.

we know so little of the real hikaru, nothing out of yoshiki's view, experience and feelings for him, just glimpses here and there. he is mostly a force for yoshiki's shame. and now that we have the whole story of nounuki-sama and what's going on in the mountains, the real hikaru is such an effective symbol of the old ways and homophobia. keeping up old traditions that in reality serve no purpose and dying for it. the way yoshiki clings to his walking corpse and tries to reconcile the new, dangerous being inside it that shakes his entire worldview, fully acknowledging that it will probably get him killed.

yoshiki stabbing "hikaru" and nothing happening. you can't kill a part of yourself. that's not how it works.

AND the fact that "hikaru"/illegitimate/nounuki-sama is dangerous because it's lonely. he was never the problem. the traditions never kept him in the mountains. you can't pray away the gay.

[tragbarerpanzrabwehrkomplexfagot]

[lakemojave]

Happy Pride Month everyone! Remember 4 months ago when the CEO of this platform harassed and chased a trans woman off this website just for posting her transition timeline, then chased her to other social media platforms to continue harassing her, and threatened to call the FBI if she continued disputing the multiple dubious terminations of her blogs that did not violate tumblr's terms of service in any way? And despite tumblr staff insisting that the CEO was acting against their interests, the broad transmisogyny evident in the site's culture and moderation policy has still not been adequately addressed?

[lakemojave]

Remember that staff is continuing to nuke the blogs of trans women even after all of this. Remember this post when they call this site the queerest place on the internet again this month

[lakemojave]

It's 2 years later. It's gotten worse. Happy pride month.

[threedollarsdotcom]

remember to completely fumble every single beautiful woman you meet

[gregtom]

[k-simplex-deactivated20241001]

Happy Pride

[meldy-arts]

After all that time, he’s finally home.

The reunion were so so rudely robbed off 😭 I still wish their reunion had been more than what we got. Ezra was her first baby.

[tamagoose]

sweet girls 💚💜

[peridotite]

the patient needs syaosaku-core witches in love to live

[midoriiya]

I can't tell him it's not that kind of question...The sparkles make it especially awkward!

[clownowo]

worlds most well adjusted teenaged girl

[vicholas]

why did no one tell me that the full context of “Sasuke snapped back. ‘Anyway, what’s Gay Pride Day? What are they proud of?” was so fucking funny

[comradesaucegay]

this fanfic author gets sasuke like no other

[woman-respecter]

looked up this fic it is over three hundred thousand words

[wikipediadogdotnet]

I don't know what's going on, I can't help but feel like I'm becoming--!!

[nitw]

which one do you think is the better movie

kung fu panda

kung fu panda 2

Remaining time: 5 days 17 hours

specifically not including any of the later ones BECAUSE: i have not watched them ☝

i'm asking this bc i personally fucking looooove the first kung fu panda movie so hard, genuinely one of the best animated movies ever made, but i tend to hear people saying the sequel is better, or at least their favorite? and like. i LIKE IT and it definitely has some absolutely iconic MOMENTS, but i think the overall pacing/directing and script is MUUUUUUCH WEAKER than the first. idk i'm so curious to see if i'm in the minority abt this

[plaidos]

by the way i havent said this before because its cringe to talk about steven universe these days but. steven universe is transfeminine right. like we all saw steven universe future. steven is a trans girl. right. right. ri

[plaidos]

trust me: rewatch this show apply the lens of Steven as an egg unwilling to investigate his feelings about gender because he’s afraid that it’ll prove he isn’t his own person and is just a reflection of his mother. watch as he experiences gender euphoria from fusing with Connie (eventually even suggesting staying permanently fused), as he magically represses his own puberty for years. Watch Greg explicitly tell Steven that he can be a girl if he wants after he comes to him worried about who he’s destined to be. watch him continually and often intentionally repress and shape himself into what he thinks he should be for everybody else. this is literally what the show is about.

[plaidos]

tell me you dont see it.

[maehkon]

this:

[plaidos]

parts of Steven’s narrative are absolutely allegorically transmasc — but the reading i’m talking about is a watsonian one, not doylist. Sugar’s experiences with coercive female assignment are obviously very present in Steven’s storyline with anybody with the eyes to see it, but at the end of the day, in-fiction, Steven was canonically assigned male at birth & struggles frequently with misshaping himself into an ideal masculine figure (Coach Steven, Too Many Birthdays, Everything’s Fine). i think there’s room for parts of Steven’s struggle to be allegorically transmasc whilst (s)he could still be literally transfeminine, much in the same way that Rose’s narrative draws from both transmasculine and transfeminine inspirations (Rose is both running away from and towards female identity, shirking daughterhood but asserting herself as a mother & even giving herself a womb).

also, just for point of reference, way back before i came out as a woman, i first struggled with being misgendered the other way around. many trans girls growing up being called girls for being little faggots growing up, so idk, i think it could really go both ways

[plaidos]

i regret to inform you that this actually happens in the original show and you just missed it. Steven spends the entirety of Lion 4: Alternate Ending trying to find hints from Rose about what he’s supposed to do with his life, what he is supposed to be for. Eventually, when he finds the Nora tape he takes it to Greg who tells him that as far as he knew, Steven isn’t necessarily supposed to have a magical destiny, his entire purpose to be something that doesn’t have a purpose, to be something that is supposed to grow and change and be different one moment to the next —

"Because you're going to become something extraordinary. You're going to be a human being. *giggles* That's my favorite part. A human being. A human is an action. I wonder who, how you'll be, what you'll think, what you'll want. Oh, I'm so happy for everyone who's going to know you.

Steven even asks his dad the exact question that so many trans youth before him struggling with their identity asked: Would you have preferred me if I were a girl? Was I supposed to be a girl? These are questions that haunt kids working out that they’re trans, as if everything wrong with Steven’s life would be explained by how he was supposed to be a girl. I relate to this a lot. But the part that really sends it home to me is how Greg responds:

Steven, she just wanted you to be you. When you have a kid, you have no idea who they're gonna be. Even Garnet couldn't predict it. That's what was so exciting to your mom, that life is full of so many possibilities, and you would get to explore them for yourself. I mean, you could be Steven or Nora or anyone else. And you can always change your name. Hey, I did.

i genuinely don’t know how to analyse this other than as Greg saying “me and your mother wanted you to be your own person, whatever that means to you. if you would be happier as Nora or as anybody else, i will support you through that. i would be a pretty big hypocrite if i didn’t”. as far as i can tell, there is no way to interpret “I mean you, could be Steven or Nora or anyone else. And you can always change your name” than Greg explicitly telling Steven he’s allowed to be trans

[krafterwrites]

I've been crying laughing from this for the last 5 minutes

[modmad]