Zie

Constantly wondering what gender is and which one i am

[permanentgendercrisis]

this is for anyone who’s ever questioned their gender or even just their presentation as a queer person.

i cut my hair today, and i dyed it a fun color.

i spent all month looking forward to it, convincing myself it would solve all of my problems.

i would look in the mirror at my hair that wasn’t even that long to begin with, and i hated it.

i was running my hands through the hair by the nape of my neck and trying to hold it all together, all because it wasn’t shorter.

i got that haircut today and all day i mourned the idea that i was pretty. that anyone could ever think i was pretty again.

i was sad because i felt i had lost her.

i was scared because i now feel like a visibly queer person.

neither of those things compares to the sheer amount of joy i feel when i run my hand through the hair at the nape of my neck right now.

it feels right, and it feels like me.

[permanentgendercrisis]

gets masc haircut to relieve intense dysphoria

FEELS THE NEED TO FEEL PRETTY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MONTHS

[permanentgendercrisis]

my gender crisis is so fucked i’m jealous of Dazai and Izuku and their FUCK ASS HAIRCUTS.

that’s my standard for a masc haircut?

bar is on the floor.

[permanentgendercrisis]

when you decide to bind and dress vaguely masc today so the weather becomes 100°+

[permanentgendercrisis]

izuku midoriya is peak gender envy and i’m not embarrassed to admit it (i say as i post from a side blog)