I Hope You Get Allergies Again So You Remember Me
Last night I meditated and relaxed my body into a deep trance before drifting to sleep, as a way to reconnect with my inner world. I would say I was successful, because I woke up this morning from a vivid dream. I wrote this down on my journal, remembering all the details and themes, along with a short reflection.
The dreams was a collage of different scenes, but towards the end I saw my old best friend from high school. I asked her, "do you remember how we met in first year?" and she said, "we both had allergies." I told her, "I hope you get allergies again so you remember me."
When I woke up, I realized none of that was even true. We didn't meet in the first year - it was our second or third year - and I don't even remember having allergies. However I do miss her, that much is true.
Holly was such a sweet girl, and a good friend, yet I was terrible to her. She was a bit slow and awkward, and she would say things that were funny, except people were laughing at her, not with her. I felt that being around her embarrassed me sometimes, and I slowly kept my distance. I felt guilty that I couldn't be a better friend, and I couldn't stand up for her during times where she might have been bullied. Instead I left her, and we soon stopped talking and parted ways.
The last time I heard about her, she was trying to model and become a host. From her pictures I could see she grew up to be a beautiful, young woman, and I'm genuinely happy for her.
I haven't had contact with her in years, but if she magically appears and says she had allergies and thought of me, I know this shit is real.














