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Venting.

So much going on. May get my girl back. Got my bff back. Might get a job soon. May move out soon. So much on my mind. Scattered thoughts....too many fears and what ifs. I hate feeling this way....

I want to work, and save up money. I want to have my own life. I’m ready for it. But I’m so afraid of people, and that’s a huge set back for me. I hold myself back from happiness. Everything I want is on the other side of my fear. This is no way to live....I just want to be happy. 

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Jess

I know it’s been so long, and so much has happened over the years. But I’ve never really let you go. I haven’t really gotten over you. And I know you forced yourself to. But I’m hoping we can start over, start new. I want to give you everything you’ve ever wanted in life. I want to be part of your happiness. I love you, always have and always will...

[serious]

everytime i see you

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I’ve been in this awful depression funk since like 2014. Finally pulling myself up and trying to get things right. Trying to get things in order. It’s been a rough six years, to say the least. But I’m ready for life. I’m ready for a real life. My own life. I’m ready for it all. Marriage, kids, a career, a house. I positively look to the future. 

She gave me hope. I have never gotten over her. I want her, I want her kids. I want everything that comes with her. How do I tell her this? She is so....guarded towards me. And I understand why. I just want her back, I want to give her the life she deserves. And i fucking hope to God she lets me.

[pharmaceuticalhaze-blog]

I need a massage

[pensamientos-de-una-lectora]

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Wut

[recked]

[unraid]

[oliviamobbs]

[cheesies]