phenyx,

twenty over two - from the city, lacking sleep. cursed with an overactive mind, scroll down.

[thebuddhistmind]

“Meditation is nothing but creating a situation where the mind has less and less things to do.”

— Osho

[whit3noize]

unusual asks

1: Do you ever wish you were someone else?

2: What is your full name?

3: How old are you and how old do you get mistaken for?

4: Have you ever dyed your hair?

5: What’s your eye color?

6: Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it

7: Do you have any tattoos or piercings?

8: What would you say is your best quality?

9: What are you really bad at?

10: What talent do you wish you had?

11: Are you nice to everyone?

12: What do you think about the most?

13: Things you like/dislike about yourself

14: What is your least favorite word?

15: What is your favorite word?

16: Are you more like your mom or your dad?

17: Would you ever smile at a stranger?

18: A reason you’ve lied to someone

19: Are you lying about anything right now?

20: Have you kissed someone older than you?

21: Do you believe in love at first sight?

22: Do you believe in soulmates?

23: Are looks important?

24: Opinion on relationship age differences

25: Would you date someone off the Internet?

26: Have you ever cried over a boy/girl?

27: Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

28: Anyone you’re giving up on right now?

29: Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

30: Have you ever liked your best friend?

31: How does someone win your heart?

32: What turns you on?

33: What turns you off?

34: Do you get jealous easily?

35: What is your definition of cheating?

36: Do you forgive betrayal?

37: Have you ever been cheated on?

38: Have you ever cheated on someone?

39: How often do you listen to music?

40: First concert you attended

41: Last movie you watched

42: Favorite type of movie

43: Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

44: Are you good at hiding your feelings?

45: Do you fall in love easily?

46: Do you think people say I love you too much?

47: What’s your favorite holiday?

48: Are you a forgiving person? Do you like being that way?

49: Where’s the most magical place on earth?

50: What’s your “type”?

[phenyxnyc]

Water

You lead me to water

But you wouldn't let me drink

You said if you drink too much

It would make me sick

So I waded in the water

In the water did I sink

[fruitfulodyssey]

“It’s difficult to see a good thing with new eyes, through all the distortion the pure can seem like a lie, this new form scrolls through my archives of sermons passionately uttered about truth in love & all that we long for but deny it due to a false representation that stained our souls with no cure to wash it. It’s a false religion we willingly humble ourselves to, glorifying murder as we detach & re-attach ourselves to beings who do the same with others, now I am yours & you are mine be we do not belong to each other but we are tied & bound to the memories that refuse to let go, because the energy in our being knows the truth of these encounters, the gods in us knows that we relinquish a piece of our immortality to each soul that walks away from the heat, the vulnerable & intimate leak of an unknown matter we confuse, because a little satisfaction although temporary becomes the purpose of our own world.. Haven’t you noticed that you’ve seen your soul in a person or experience dai ja vu in a place you’ve never been.. Because the piece you gave lives on in a being that walked that same path before you.. It’s like it’s sending a stress call or giving out signals so it can be reunited with you, to belong to his/her Savior… I just want to belong to one, to see my soul in her & hers in me & remain immortals so the truth in always & forever & become a reality only few have experienced.”

— The death of immortality

[phenyxnyc]

Litany For The Lonely

the reality

Is what truly haunts me

These inevitable truths taunt me

The end is eminent

yet we play peekaboo

I see it, now I see you.

Got involved at an awful time

Had grown men playing pick up with my mind

And now it’s in overtime

Played fast and loose with my heart

So my mind is ready to override

Knew I was doomed from the start

I’m not used to demanding

for things to go right

Because Things are supposed to go,

right?

Really not trying to part

with what I have left

Because I don’t have too much left

Still on this crooked path

discovering my self

Because my worth won’t be

measured in my pursuit of false wealth

So I’m Tryna come up

with these prepaid cards

I’ve been dealt

Maybe there are answers to the questions I can’t seem to ask myself

Maybe there are questions I won’t ask myself

Rather make excuses for the answers that I’m making up

because these reveries in deep sleep feels better than waking up

Maybe I like the bliss of not knowing

Till its creeping up

again

Then I’m like what the fuck..

..again?

What am I missing?

Why do I get distant?

Why can’t I seem to finish-

this sentence?

Why do I need an opportunity to be delivered to my front door?

Why is every smile in my face

riddled with pretenses?

Why am I so awkward?

Why would you ever want m-

How could you ever?

Look where all these

questions got me

This is why I can’t be lonely

This is why I can’t be the only one

This is why I’m the lonely,

This is why I’m the lowly one

The reality of who I am

evades me

And I know I’m not the only one.

[phenyxnyc]

Life is a never ending cat and mouse game, and rarely will you ever find your paw on the tail.

[phenyxnyc]

Rah

When the sun rises

In the west

I come alive

Sun rays

kiss my skin

Awash in

your warmth

Greeting me

good day

Basking in your light

I rise,

Bringing life

back into this place

Where have you been?

Winter's curse ran long

Phantom summers

precede you

What took you so long?

Did you get lost

on your way

to the horizon?

Did your light

get mistaken

for wild fire

in the distance

in need of extinguishing?

Did they

hold a mirror

to your rays,

Setting fires

in your name?

Blind to your danger

I watch you

I am alive so

I dance with you

You bring form

To the dark truths

that surround me

We dance with you

Blind to the dangers

I sit and I watch

how the stars dance

with you

They envy you

But when the sun sets

In the east

The darkness

is unrelenting

I become restless

The demons

come reaping

Kiss me once

before you leave

For there is only darkness

When you sleep

All I know is darkness

when you leave

But when the sun rises

Again I will come alive

Sun rays will kiss my skin

And I will watch you

And we will dance

How the stars and

I envy you

Bringing form

to the darkness

that follows me

I live for the sun

I live for the sun rise.

[phenyxnyc]

Distractions

Distract me with bright lights

Because In the dark I can't see a thing

When things are dark

I can't see anything in front of me

Lifting the veil one day at a time

Tired of sneak peeks

But all things are revealed in due time

Right?

I sit and I write.

So I'll sit and I'll write

Until it all makes sense

Writing pieces

Until the puzzles complete

In these pieces

Is the answer I seek

Tired of being left in the dark

How can I fear

what accompanies me

Tethered to my side

You can't roam free without me and I without it

Distract me with bright lights

How many times will I transform

Not meant to conform

But transform

Forgive me for my transgressions

I made a hundred mistakes

For a thousand reasons

Suffice it to say

I didn't mean it

if I hurt you in the worse way

I'm accustomed to expressing love through horse play

Rough and tough

Hard to tear

Won't let you in so we rip ourselves

Product of strangelove

My minds swiming in strange tales

Oh you can relate?

Do tell, distract me from my woes and sorrows

Distract me with bright lights

[phenyxnyc]

He

He is the reason I drink

and see I don't drink

You see

Got me doing all the things

I don't normally do

Like shave past the knee

Play Susie Homemaker for he

Hoping he'd come home

But he won't

But he

Said he

won't hurt me no more

Said He

won't go there no more

Now see

He is the reason

I smoke

No not greens but

Menthols

No But they're shorts

No but they're longs

No but I got the patch

So it won't be here for long

Like he

Sorta like we -

Especially when we

Had a meeting of the minds

And he

Would Glide past my thighs

dipped into my soul

Saw my future in his eyes

And I couldn't stop screaming

And it was true

I didn't stop screaming

Because he

Said

Because he

Promised

He is the reason I suffer

No but its me

That I can agree on

Promised myself I wouldn't

let him enter again

But i swear

if he

said please

Then I'd melt

In hopes that

He would

Clean up the mess

In hopes that

He would

Climb into my bed

In hopes

That here

He'd lay his head

On me

Sweet dreams of me and

He

Is the reason I be

The reason I be

trippin.

[andrewbreitel]

[huasace]

INSTAGRAM// BRVNDXN

[jetblack-mind]

[faronmckenzie]

Pay attention to the things you are naturally drawn to. They are often connected to your path, passion, and purpose in life.

[phenyxnyc]

Sun trine Venus

It's like that

feeling in your throat

Bubbling,

Lump

In the back

Like watching a rat

be digested by a serpent

Clawing bares no relief

No relief in sight

No peace in the light

So you find some sleep

You wake up and it's lower

In the pit of your chest

Like you swallowed a rock

Because you swallowed an ant

You thought that the ant

would die under the rock

But it's not

It's okay,

But you're not

Now you're under the rock

Reach for water

and find no luck

so you find drugs

But it ain't enough

Now you're stuck

On the edge

Teetering back and forth

Rocking

rancid thoughts

Now you're drunk

Tryna dislodge the rock

Dissolve like antacid

But no

It comes back up

What you been drowning

comes back up

Let it happen

Don't force it back down

Let it happen

Buoyed on the surface

Spit it out

What you crying for

Get that shit out

your mouth

When you done

Take a shot

Get that taste

out your mouth,

Now it's out.

- when I first realized I loved you.

[shareaquote]

Keep writing Because the next Words you pen Might be the words That shift the Hearts and minds Of an entire generation My only request Is that you shift them To love.

Shamel Lakins  (via wnq-writers)

[phenyxnyc]

12 Seconds

And if you ain't

peep the first time,

It'll happen again

when you're unaware

In a trance - living behind your eyelids

you'll try to drown it out

But it's still there

Beneath soft sighs and the

lies beneath comforting words

And wedged between soft kisses

Louder than regret in

- tense silence.

And if you don't catch it

and catch on,

you'll be muddled

In the thick of it

Still it feels good, don't it?

I know -

As you give and give in

And they take

raining princess-cut glass

In place

Of diamonds - in your hands

Then they'll say if it cuts you,

that's your mistake -

did everything you can

to dull the sharpness

count every lesson in the

temporary - blessings

come once,

And every 12 seconds,

become accustomed to the sound

that you'll drown it out

But it's a warning - i'm just finding out.

[sandylamu]

[studyblr]

hey. you. i see how hard you’re trying. great job!! don’t stop. please, don’t. you’ve come so far, and i’m so proud!!