Parker

| He/They | INFJ | Art Blog: parker-the-starman |

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So update from the last time I posted…

I’m going by Parker and using he/they pronouns. I also am pansexual.

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Guess who was able to log back into their account again!

So a lot has happened since I last posted, so I’m going to do a quick intro.

Hi, I’m Riley. I came out as nonbinary in early 2023, then came out as lesbian a few months later. I had a pause with watching Dan and Phil, but I’ve slowly gotten back into watching their content. I admit that I did things when I was younger that crossed a line, and I will not be doing those things again.

Thank you for sticking with this blog for this long, even with the previous hiatus.

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What would you guys like me to post more of?

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Hey guys, sorry for the lack of posts. I've been super busy with college, but I hope to post more.

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Credit to the amazing Robin, aka @pixlpit for this wonderful animation. (This came off my instagram account)

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I've been losing followers, which I am a bit upset over, but not as much as FUCKING PORN BLOGS FOLLOWING ME!

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TW: Emotional Abuse

I am making this post, because I think I have been emotionally abused. I have recently come to that conclusion, but I have made two lists; one stating signs I have seen in myself, and signs I have seen in my mother.

Signs I see in myself: - I fear my mom and step dad. - I talk badly about myself. (Ex. "I'm stupid.") - I feel emotionally immature compared to my peers. - I have a loss of self-confidence and self-esteem. - I withdraw myself socially, and/or have a loss of interest or enthusiasm. - I have depression. - I have had a decrease in school performance or lost of interest in school. Signs I see in my mother: - She ridicules me. - She humiliates me, privately. - She invalidates my feelings. - She criticizes me. - She uses physical actions as a punishment. (When I was 15/16, I had my ass beaten with a wooden paddle by my steap dad, because my mom couldn't physically do it due to her shoulders.) - She still treats me like a child. - She reminds me of my mistakes. - She says I'm too sensitive. That's all I could think of. I apologize for the long lists, but am I being ridiculous?

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I apologize for not posting on this account in a while. I have been posting on my art blog.

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I’ve decided to keep my art on this blog, but future drawings, like the one I posted a minute ago, will be on @sabrina-draws

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Art Blog

Hey guys, I made an art blog. It's @sabrina-draws I'm not sure if I should delete the art on this blog, or not. Should I?

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' c a u s e i ' m h o l l o w。

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w e a r e t h e o n e t r u e h o p e。

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' c a u s e i ' m b r o k e n w h e n i ' m o p e n。

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r e a c h i n g o u t f o r s o m e t h i n g t o h o l d。

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i f e e l m a r o o n e d i n t h i s b o d y。

[Inspiration: @maddox-rider]

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Two can play at this game, Dan. @danisnotonfire

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A few days ago, I made this post on facebook, stating that I am giving up my hobby of acting. I feel, happy, I guess. I feel like that was the right decision to make, for it felt unwelcoming. Senior year of high school was probably the hardest thing I went through, emotionally. I wasn't bullied, but I was struggling to finish school, and I thought negatively about what would happen after high school. The point I'm trying to make, is that things do get better after high school. It may seem pressuring; the thought of going to college and wondering how you're going to pay for it got my anxiety up, but you'll be okay. Am I saying that I don't feel any anxiety towards college? No, that's not the case. I do, but not as much as eighteen year old me did. A person can change within a year. If someone like me can get through the bad times, then you can too.